im workin on that artbook with the milkgirl profiles (also lil tiny bit of a vent)

hi just the regular out of the blue post with more words for no reason, ive always wanted to make an art book with the full bio of da milk girlies with design stuff but also felt rlly weird abt it cause who am i to think that anyone would have interest in these characters, would it be a wasted effort kinda thing but ykno what i decided to do it anyway. however unfortunately im still very slow and i cant shake the feeling of it being super stupid cause i dont think it would be of any interest to anyone

unfortunately for this art book, the intention for it is to be available during cons but i really wanna quit cons cause its kinda feeling truly not worth it, just had best earning con recently and not even 2 weeks im down to 100-200 dollars cause i had to sign up for other cons and paid my sales tax, its a bit demotivating, someone who gives business advice said just use whatever profits i have to make more merch so i was like huh doesnt that leave me with nothing. idk it feels pretty worthless no? i didnt even buy anything in the 2 weeks, and its not like people arent purchasing from me either, people come out and are very extremely supportive and i still have no money, its so weird.

i split half profits with my sister, she invested in a sticker machine cause i spent so much on dumb big sticker making for it to turn out not so good, almost made back the funds from those dumb stickers, but i thought why invest in a sticker machine when im quitting cons? thought of doing like a monthly sexy sticker thing for patreon but im not very responsible so itll all be under my sisters responsibility. but regardless of that i feel like i keep making bad money decisions and i dont wanna keep selling things i feel like im just siphoning the money out of the few people who enjoy my art, i wanna give something for free too, its so weird idk why people keep telling me i could earn money but here i am being broke again (brokechan was made from my brokeness, she manifests each time im broke, shes coming out of her maternity leave for this)

sorry a bit of a crashout/vent situation, im very thankful yall are here supporting btw i barely give anything but i wanna give more, maybe one of these days something good will happen and ill pull myself out of this no money situation