The Reality of Mourning
Added 2022-07-02 04:13:40 +0000 UTCI had lost family members before, but one not quite so close as the one that I just did. When it happened, I thought the way it crushed me up was going to break me in a way I'd never be able to unbend myself from.
The reality is, the process isn't easy. But the healthiest way I've discovered in this short time I've had to develop this skillset of functioning through absolute misery, to put the mind elsewhere, is to honour the memory of the one you lost by creating. You can't fill the void that you feel is now there, where they were. But you can build in a different direction. You can build, and dedicate the thing that you made stand in the spot to them.
I am a strange chaos warlock on the internet, that makes funny videos about esoteric topics and writes hyperviolent space-noir. You couldn't stop me from being me if you were armed. You think you can break me with morale? Surely you're joking.
The way forward, is to keep walking. I won't be so crass as to make an announcement in a pretty grave post about where I've been. But I've been walking forward, in ways I'll show you soon.
-G
