Episode 40 - Primitive Man vs. Technocrat Influencer
Added 2024-07-30 21:05:37 +0000 UTCHello everyone.
On today's episode, we discuss the launch of our Discord, the problem with going abroad but being ignorant and a large discussion on our perspective of why returning to primitivism can benefit us, as well as be hijacked by those who commodify it.
Enjoy.
Comments
Your discussion around sudden changes to plans and being unable to deal with them really resonates..... I also suffer from a need to know details of plans, being ridiculously early for things just so I can know I won't be late, and the dominance of fear in my every waking moment and every decision I make..... It's fun..... >.> I am very lucky that I am actively looking at myself and behaviours. It's been tough acknowledge that fear has been a driving factor for most of my life, causing me to be obsessive and compulsive in every area of my life.... sure, I've not been totally blinkered to it but it's always felt like a necessity or out of my control..... that kind of lifestyle is not sustainable, and it will only get worse..... the desire for control or maintaining control in life is basically an illusion To be able to challenge some of that fear I've had all my life, essentially, in the simplest of ways - accepting what is happening, taking responsibility for my role in that situation and doing something about it..... is transforming how I see myself, there's less of a burden and need to be self obsessed with fear and shame and guilt and inadequacy..... and I am able to throw myself into activities and interests and learning..... in ways I never have before. I always have to not take it personally when Luiza talks about jobs with spreadsheets and making phone calls (yes, I do that lol... ) but even by learning to work through those tightly held truths I think I need to cope, to survive..... by thinking about what I am doing, NOT what others are doing or, importantly, not doing..... even work seems simpler.... less worrisome or something I need to control/keep at bay. Sure, it's a hollow existence alone to live for a job like that - but I don't. I never have. It's a means to paying for my rent, my books, records, trips to the cinema, gigs, shows, good food..... etc etc (not an excuse, I have some hopes - not goals - for the next 2 years....) Literally, today is the purest of opportunities, because it's all we have - the simplicity in feeling and believing that, even if that is fleeting or difficult days come along, gives a feeling of infinite possibility :-)
hyperballadbrad
2024-08-01 10:13:56 +0000 UTCNot gooning...... [facepalm] That term is haunting me! Ha..... I've not been quite sure how to engage in the Discord yet - just a confidence/lack of knowledge thing..... and the fear whatever I have to say will be uninteresting/unfunny/unhelpful..... but that's what it's like to live in my brain, nothing to do with the Discord. hahaha....... but I jumped on a chat thingy yesterday and it was really great to mainly listen. I have 10 more films on my watchlist too - thanks guys! :-) It really does remind me of the old forum days in the early 2000s, and they were a special time. I am going to take time out to engage because I get a really good feeling it's going to be a great tool for connection and outlet, and most definitely, learning :-)
hyperballadbrad
2024-08-01 09:06:34 +0000 UTC
