The Unspoken Words
Added 2024-10-19 14:03:41 +0000 UTC
Hey Guys!
I just wanted to let you know that I won't be able to post something until November 1st. My mental state isn't that good at the moment and I'm finding it very difficult to work. I've been suffering from a diagnosed anxiety disorder and depression for more than five years, and with these thoughts and fear in the background, my creative work is somewhat limited. I'm trying to get back to a normal level and the best way to do that is to focus on it.
It just feels like you've been hit by a car and at the end of the day you're just so tired that you just want to sleep. The fight against my own thoughts makes others fade into the background and fade away. and lots of sleep actually helps, but also my sport and watching Animes (Netflix) It's the world I want to forget, but they don't let me. Normally these phases pass quite quickly but sometimes it can be very stressful, and so sometimes a lot of work is left undone. This phase is the most difficult when you know you should do something but your body just wants to sleep, The energy that is missing at the end of the day because your head is so loud and tiring. (sighs)
I mean, Life can be a pain and everyone of us knows that. So I don't want to reveal any experiences, but just that you know why it is like this at the moment.
I keep trying to work on things but at the moment it's only going slowly, but I'm optimistic that I'll be able to do it if I put a little more time into it than just... always going full steam ahead. I've really been stressing myself out too much. I wanted to do you justice and I wanted to do myself justice, but it's such a big pile that I can't do it all at once. So I'll take a little more time and then come back with lots of nice and beautiful things.
So don't worry, I hope for your understanding and thank you very much. 💜