Happy & Healthy, The Blog of Megan Waters
Added 2019-10-21 00:00:44 +0000 UTCNovember 2nd 2019
300 fucking pounds.
That's what my scale said this morning.
I'm shocked! I'm shaken up, I think I cried for half an hour before writing this.
What have I done?
There are no words to describe me now. I'm tremendously obese. I look like a bloated fat parody of myself. I hate looking at my face and this huge collar around my neck that is my double chin.
Jesus in heaven I'm a glutton.
When the Halloween candy started to get rolled out by the stores I stocked up. I filled my grocery cart with nothing but candy, bags and bags of candy. I ate candy all month long and look what it did to me. I probably have a cavity now, I'll need to see a dentist soon.
I can't believe I'm 300 pounds now. Just typing this is surreal to me. Everything is so different, I can't walk very far, I take the car even for short distances. When I'm going up stairs I feel like my knees are going to explode and I sweat and sweat like a pig and make a big stink, all my shirts right now have pit stains.
Ooof, I'm beginning to see the effects of not eating greens this year. And when I mean no greens I mean no greens. I pick the lettuce out of my cheese burgers and demand extra cheese and extra mayo. I'm so low on energy, I can't be arsed to clean my apartment, it's getting so filthy with candy wrappers and boxes of pizza stacking up. I'm so lazy I skip showers and my apartment is starting to smell.
300 pounds, I feel so big, so bloated, so round, and so wide.
I'm way way past anything I ever intended with this project and the year is almost over.
And then there's Thanksgiving coming this month. Christ, my mom is going to flip.
I don't want to think about it. Just want to eat.
#depressed #fatgirlneedstodiet #outofshape #provingapoint?
