Not gonna make it this month...
Added 2019-06-29 23:56:27 +0000 UTCDue to poor mental health and my constant struggle to focus, plus applying for jobs and not getting them and amateur animation company and the daily struggle to remember to feed myself and stay sane, I just couldn't make the time to complete my June Patron art this month. I'll be trying to do some more tonight and tomorrow, but I'm already near full overload panic with just so very much going on. Anthrocon is coming up and I never even got around to making anything to sell like I said I was going to. I just...... I've lost my grip on time right now and I have no earthly idea how to fix it. I can't afford any care because I don't have insurance that covers it, and I can't afford insurance that does cover it, and I can't seem to get a job that affords healthcare. It's not a good cycle and I'm running in tiny screaming circles in my head some days.
I wanna be better but I don't see any way to get there sometimes, and the world is a steaming pile of nuclear flaming garbage that I can't do a dang thing to fix except watch it all burn and scream and run around in tiny circles. I don't know what to do, but I need to do it and I'm expending all my energy not going insane.
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Hey man, definitely take some time to yourself. We all get there sometimes, and the important thing is that you recognize you need to slow down a bit and take care of you. Do what you can to get through this rough patch, and I hope you can find a way to find release and get some help in whatever form you can/need. But keep your head up. It sounds super corny, but you really can get through this. We all have your back, so you do what you need to.
BigMountainCat
2019-06-30 09:47:59 +0000 UTC
