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Looking Back on 2025 (And Looking Forward)

Greetings, everyone. It's the end of the year, and with that comes a lot of reflections on what went right, what went wrong, and what we plan to do the following year. And of course, the best way to start a reflection on 2025 is by talking about 2024. 

Before I continue, I'd like to mention that I have a survey going on that asks what projects my audience are interested in seeing me work on. If you want full context on the survey, it's highly recommended that you read the entire devlog. You can take the survey here. Now back to the post.

I've mentioned bits and pieces here and there, but 2024 was a terrible year for me. I don't want to get into too many personal details since some of these details involve other individuals, but I fucked up. A lot. As a result, I spent most of 2025 acting very erratically and directionlessly. I lashed out at people who didn't deserve it and said some unwarranted things that pissed off people close to me. I felt like I was in a state of constant belligerence, ready to snap at anyone in my way. That was all private, by the way. I did my best to hide it in public, but some of the cracks showed. For those who know me personally, I apologize for my behavior. To be honest, even I don't know what caused my harsh words. I'm very lucky to have friends who have stuck with me despite everything.

Towards the end of the year, however, things started to look up for me. I made new friends and helped them out. started to go back to how I was during 2021-2023. It was a painful process, but I think things are starting to go right for me soon. 2025 was very bittersweet. I learned a lot over the past two years, and I hope to use that knowledge to carve out better years for me. With that in mind, let's take a look at all the things that happened this year.

By Your Hands

2025 marked the first time By Your Hands received a large hiatus. There have been times when the game had a month or two-month break, but never one that lasted over six months. This was not planned. Why did that happen? 

Well, for one thing, part of it has to do with my behavior I mentioned earlier. Due to me feeling lost, part of me really wanted to branch out of the VN and do other things. I feared that I was only going to work on BYH for the next several years of my life. I also felt like interest in the game was dwindling, and that people wanted to see something else from me. And so, I decided work on other projects for a bit. The first instance of this was Every Date Has Its Progs And Cons back in November of last year. It was a fun detour, but it didn't get the type of attention I was hoping it would have. Then there was Farewell, Wanderlust, which I released this year, and I had a lot less time for it than I'd like to have, so it ended up very unpolished.

Besides those two VNs, I also tried getting into other side projects that I ended up having to can due to issues I'll mention later. This disorganization led to me not being able to focus on By Your Hands, leading to several delays. Another thing that happened was that Nemo got busy with his personal life, and didn't have much time for writing. And well, I couldn't update the game without a script, so there was that. Finally, during 2022-2024, I worked myself and Nemo very hard into getting consistent updates. I felt bad for doing that, so I decided to be more lenient with updates. In that case, I overcorrected by not having any updates for several months.

For 2026 onwards, I think we'll be aiming for a bi-monthly release schedule. Not too strict, but also not going to leave anyone hanging for several months. Due to the hiatus, we weren't able to make much progress on the routes. Owen's completed Act 1 was released to the public this year; there were only two days added to Vlad's route. I hope we'll be able to get a lot more done in the next year. Please enjoy Day 4 of Vlad's route tomorrow.

In addition, I'm going to return to working on the commentary and guide of the game. I already explained on Patreon, but essentially, it was a lot of work, and I didn't have a lot of motivation to work on it. But I will work on it next year if all goes to plan.

Also, we released the demo of By Your Hands on Newgrounds and Steam! After the whole itch.io fiasco, I realized that I needed to expand my horizons concerning the VN. Cover my tracks, so to speak. It is just nice having it on those platforms, especially Steam, for convenience's sake. It will be annoying having to update on three separate platforms (four, including FVN.LI), but you just gotta roll with the punches. All in all, I'm really excited for what the future has in store for this game.

Other Projects

So if you have read either of my jam games, you'd know that they're unfinished in terms of art assets. I also stated multiple times that I would update Every Date Has Its Progs And Cons with an epilogue and never got around to doing that. So let me explain. 

I worked on finishing all the art assets of EDHIPAC several months ago, and I actually finished. However, I've been meaning to rework some of the game's dialogue so that Billy is less of a strawman and the relationship develops more naturally. I consulted Nemo to help me rework all the dialogue, but as mentioned before, he was busy with a lot of other stuff and I wanted him to prioritze on BYH. Plus, I wanted to update some aspects of the game, such as adding a CG gallery, a Replay Room, and updating its UI, and I just never got around to doing any of that. That's not even getting into how I made zero progress on the epilogue's script because I procrastinate so hard with writing. It doesn't help that the political climate has drastically changed since last year, making it so hard to get back into the headspace of 2024 me writing the VN. I could just update the game with the art assets and do the other stuff later, but I feel it would be better if I could update everything in one big update so I can finally wrap it up with a nice little blow and never have to touch it for the rest of my life. Since it has taken longer than expected, I will show a sprite of a character who will be in the epilogue. Here it is:

Gee, I wonder who this is?

That leaves me with Farewell, Wanderlust. I planned to finish all the art assets of the game, as well as polish a few things, after I was done with EDHIPAC, but I never got to finishing any of that. That's still the plan so far, so look forward to that. When I eventually get to that, anyway.

What Else Happened?

In a surprise twist of events, I managed to appear on a YouTuber's video! Specifically, Nemo and I voiced a few lines in Agent of the Spade's video. Okay, Nemo had more than a few lines, but still. It's actually part 3 in a video trilogy he made over the course of several years. By Your Hands appeared in part 2 of the trilogy, alongside Minotaur Hotel and Tennis Ace. It was a lot of fun talking and working with Spade, and I really enjoyed seeing my work in a YouTube video. You can check out the trilogy here.

Another thing that happened was that By Your Hands had its first fan fiction written about it! Well, sorta. A character from By Your Hands appears in a fan fiction that has characters from several FVNs. Specifically, Owen. The fanfic is called Danganronpa: Mayhem of Bewildered Guests by GatoRon. It's essentially a Danganronpa game in written form, but all the characters come from established FVNs. There are characters from BurrowsMinotaur Hotel, and Password. I haven't actually read the entirety of the fanfic, so it might be spreading propaganda about the lizard people for all I know (this is a joke; it most definitely doesn't do that). If there is some crazy shit in it, I will delete this section of the post, but I read the first few paragraphs, and it's pretty decent. This might appear strange to mention, but it's a sign to me that By Your Hands is slowly building up momentum into something really big, and that's got me very excited. It's only a matter of time until the Dr. Abraham X Wyatt slash fics start appearing (Please don't actually write that). Anyways, you can read the fanfic here.

What Didn't Happen This Year?

If you guys remember, I mentioned that I wanted to start making video essays earlier in the year. I even posted a script for a video on my Patreon. This never came to fruition for the simple reason that I don't enjoy recording my voice. I often procrastinate writing, but I at least enjoy doing it. Doing a recording session is just agonizing for me, as I have to worry about how clearly my words sound, my tone of voice, and if I'm pronouncing words properly. It's just a lot. Plus, I already have a bunch on my plate that I need to finish. I will still write blogs when I have the time, but I'm an entertainer first, commentator second.

What's Coming For 2026?

I'm pretty sure I mentioned almost everything I'll be doing for 2026 already, but to recap: I'll be focusing on By Your Hands and hopefully updating the game. I'll also be wrapping up EDHIPAC and F, W, hopefully next year. I might be participating in more game jams this year. I have two ideas in mind for game jam projects. It really depends on whether there's a jam this year that fits the project I have in mind, how busy I am, and how prepared I am. I really want to make a jam game that's just complete and doesn't need further updates after the jam is over. We'll see what happens.

Now, I want to clear something up. By Your Hands is a collaborative project between Nemo and me, alongside some extra help from others. This means that Nemo does effectively half the work for BYH. The amount of effort I put into By Your Hands is manageable enough that I can work on a second project simultaneously. I also want to go back to writing after not writing for any public projects for a while. For a long time, I was set on working on a specific project, and that was the project I was certainly going to work on during 2026 and beyond. I realized, however, that I don't exactly know what my audience wants. I have a decent idea, but I never asked directly. I've always worked on what I wanted to work on, which worked out well for both me and my audience. Right now, however, I want to make something my audience wants. So, I decided that before deciding on what second project to work on, I'm going to conduct a survey on what people want from me. Here are the options:

The purpose of this survey is mostly to gauge how much interest these projects generate from people. The project with the most interest may or may not be worked on next, as there are a lot of factors to consider. And before you mention it, yes, I am going to factor in my personal investment in each of these projects. I'm interested in working on all of these projects. But this information would help me a lot in deciding what to work on next. Also, if you have any questions or want to provide any feedback on any of the concepts I mentioned, please let me know in the survey or in the comments of this post. Regardless, any project I choose not to develop next is always on the table, and I could bring these concepts back sometime in the future. And to reiterate, for the foreseeable future, I am going to focus on updating By Your Hands, finishing up EDHIPAC and F, W, and maybe do a game jam project regardless of what the survey results are. It will take some time before whatever this project is comes to light, so please be patient. 

You can take the survey here.

Closing Thoughts

I don't know about you, but I'm looking forward to what the future holds for me. Perhaps that's not the right thing to say, considering what happened this year, but I'm really excited to work more on By Your Hands and any other project I decide to undertake. I feel like 2025 is just the beginning of something bigger.

Thank you for following me, and I hope 2026 will be a great one! Have a nice new year and see you later!

Comments

Glad to hear that! I hope whatever I put out meets your expectations!

Salman Eyes

so many games down the pipeline woah. I have missed Barachoda Bloom, glad you are revisiting it. All of these upcoming projects sound and look 👀 great thus far. Curious of Project Everything, being an avid RPG fan. While Tax Delusion premise is quite bold haha looking forward to it.

Hyou Vizer


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