The Biggest Night Light (Hi-Res + Thoughts)

This is the hi-res (~3600 px)! Thank you so much for your support. <3

A painting for Cedi, or Apmotheosis on Twitter! The moon is rising, but strangely, the city isn't getting any darker. I wonder if the  sky-scraping, godlike, glowing moth, Cedi, has something to do with that...

Whoof. Big man. But I'm also pretty happy with this!! I'm trying to use more layer effects later in my process, and while they haven't always been the most effective, I think here it's helping sell the glow a lot better than normal. That and some of my secondary/rim lighting also feels stronger here. Just all around really pleased with this. c: I also got to paint some multi and try to push my muscle work further, which is always a plus, though these sizes are still pretty difficult for me and definitely aren't my norm...! But maybe for future pieces, once I figure out pricing again when I start to feel more comfortable publicly taking commissions, this could be some kind of option. how do you do flat pricing instead of hourly oh god

Enjoy! And thank you again to Cedi for letting me work with your fantastic guy again. <3

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Whoof. BIG man.

Okay, being serious. I know this is... Rather huge. It's definitely into the "fetish artwork" category, in a way, even though I know Cedi isn't necessarily a sexual character, so to speak. But gosh, this was such a treat to do. I've always been very envious of artists who can do such extreme sizes, whether it's in the furry fandom, or even something down into Marvel's artworks like the Hulk. I always get very caught up in wanting things to look "right" that I hit a wall and always end up making things feel normal sizes but just awkwardly sized.

I don't think that's the case here! I think I actually managed to figure it out this time around. A lot of people in my audience will probably now be pointing to this and be saying "This big please!" if I get to work with them. This isn't a bad thing! But hmm. I'm definitely unsure what to do here. Again, super proud of this. But like, do I charge extra for this since it's definitely into different territory? Do I leave it only to friends or repeat clients? Do I sign it or not?

I guess it feeds back into the question of "what do I want to do in art". I am still not one hundred percent sure on that end. I know I'm definitely on my own for projects and things for the future, that's no longer really in question, you know? I made peace with that, so to speak. But... If this sort of work becomes what I'm known for, is that okay? Do I love it? ... No, I'm not happy yet, but... I'm way less sad, at least. I'm at least starting to tackle that side of things. Thoughts like "I'm gay and enjoy painting muscle" is no longer super embarrassing in my head. Happy Pride Month coming up, by the way.

It's so weird. It's not adult in nature, and yet it has a toe in it. And strangely... I think I'm sort of okay with that. I think I just need to reel things back into realistic territory a bit, as I've definitely at risk of glorifying impossible body standards, and I definitely don't want to feed into that! I have struggled and still struggle with that right now; I definitely don't want my artwork to stress that on anyone else, you know.

Huh. This got more philosophical than I expected for a piece of a hyper muscle sun moth. I suppose that's the benefit of typing stream of thought. I know I repeat some of this stuff a lot, but I guess that's also part of this Patreon is also me just... Trying to figure myself out? Is that the hashtag content the kids crave nowadays? I can floss, do the orange justice, or even just default dance if that helps.

Thank you guys for the support. I really, truly appreciate it. You guys and gals are the best. Enjoy. Stay safe, wash your hands, wear your mask, get vaccinated, love yourself. I will catch you again soon...!

... Whoof. BIG MAN.