Warning Sign (Hi-res + Extra Thoughts)

I'm so sick of finding out / the things I fixed are broken now. / I'm still sick of seeing how / easy it is to be uninspired.

Don’t need another warning sign, / to tell me that we’re losing time. / I've grown into this skin of mine, / like every other person I know. / And I hope for better days; / Late night, hard floorboard pain. / I hope we see through the other side. / I hope for better than this.

I'm not tired of sleeping on the floor, / I just wanna know when it ends.

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Giving you guys a small early preview. I cleaned up and detailed the space sketch from my previous update a bit further. I'm unsure if I actually -will- stream Outer Wilds, as the idea of playing games on a stream makes me nervous of like... Being judged for "Why are you not just working?"

But I still wanted to finish this piece, as I've been feeling this a lot. I feel beat to shit and like I'm drifting a lot, lately. My attention has been all over the place, but without feeling like I'm actually heading anywhere. Meanwhile, I watch something just out of my reach and out of my control explode, whether its arguments between friends, plans falling through, disappointments and deceits by administrative officials, etc..

How do you right the ship when there's no way to steer? How do you improve if there's nowhere to climb to? And how do you handle that feeling when you watch your peers tackling the same, but seemingly with the answers in front of them, or achieved with much less struggle?

It's driven my depression up the wall, I won't lie. I have been... Not great for the past month or so. Ever since completing Wilgeon's piece. I worry even now, as I type this, that this "isn't enough", that this piece is "juvenile". Personal art is hard for me, especially ones that aren't, you know, bodybuilder pinups or something. But... I hope even though putting this into words is somewhat difficult, that what is depicted comes across at least emotionally.

And, of course, I hope you guys enjoy. I'm giving this to you guys a few days earlier than public access -- I think for sketches, studies, things of this nature, I want to give at least a day or two of early access to try to show more thanks. Sort of a way to give more incentive and show more thanks. I want to build up more into this giving back. So. Enjoy, ya'll~