35) Website Update and Slight Venting

Twitter got to see some preliminary character art of the main trio by the amazing Angela Sprecher BUT yall are getting the incredible redraws by Lucky who's art was closer to what I needed! I thought Angela's art had the wild, adventurous energy I was going for but the characters needed to reflect their in-film designs a bit more, so I asked Lucky for a hand. These designs will be part of the main banner of the upcoming TWOM website!

Sorry for the radio silence, fam. I've been hyper-focused on some animations lately and needed to make some head-way on a really involved little scene, of which yall will get first dibs on seeing. Odds are yall are following me on Twitter and noticed I got a little down the past few days. Its nothing big, sometimes I get worried my art and ideas are just not good enough to do anything with, especially when I make small mistakes like... not knowing how Copy+Paste works in a program I've had for a number of months now XD

I went to art school with a knack for writing and story but not so much for drawing so while I've improved greatly over the past few years, the mid-2000s were hard being surrounded by my peers who not only constantly illustrated; they were good at it or at least better than I was, I believed. I often struggle with the person I was back then for a myriad of reasons. I was a kid in college and a local resident assistant (aka, the school narc), but I look back on that person and wonder not only how I managed to graduate before some of my peers and get a well-paying job... but also how they could even stand being around me.

My school has since shut down due to mismanagement of funds (and a lawsuit for fraudulent activities with our loans) and I look back on those times with friends usually pretty fondly. I always have this nagging feeling that Im constantly playing catch up not only with them but with the animation industry (both corporate and indie) as a whole. That feeling doesn't last long. In fact I'm feeling much better today! However, I'd be lying if that variation of imposter syndrome wasn't a significant part of the reason I'm going so hard on this film. I'm constantly pushing myself to become a better artist or at the very least a better friend to other artists. I do wish I was the person I am now *back then* , but that's life I suppose. I just hope I can find success in being better and in this film.

Sorry for oversharing yall, but this was on my mind lately. And I dont want you all to get the wrong impression that Im this... weird, cartoon-loving machine who's consistently working with absolutely no hang-up's. I constantly make mistakes and part of me still deals with some unhealthy thought-patterns and that's on me. But if I am gonna treat this Patreon as a blog, I'd like for yall to know what I deal with to some degree so if you are dealing with feeling like an imposter in art, maybe you wont feel so alone. Maybe you can find some silly thoughts in yourselves and work to alleviate them or grow beyond them, as Im trying to.

Thanks for letting me vent, fam. Gotta get back to it! Stay safe!