Moody
Added 2023-06-16 21:28:44 +0000 UTCThis week has been one of those weeks when I ask myself why I'm doing this.
Working harder for less, feeling burnt out and uninspired. There are Ai deepfakes looming ahead, inflation nobody can keep up with, and a growing bodycount of people I've burned bridges with in this city (aka boundaries).
This week I was thinking about this color...a certain shade of blue. A kind of artificial cobalt, one that cannot occur in nature - the kind of blue on the sparkly vinyl seats of rides at the local fair that I anticipated more highly than Christmas, or a metallic mylar balloon, deflated and stuck in a tree I see on my walk home. Blue raspberry - the flavor of youth circa 1998 - the popsicle in the plastic tube to fight over, the sour candy hidden inside the lining of my coat through the hole in my pocket, the perfect hiding place from my siblings. The only place I didn't have to share.
Why does that plastic-y supernatural shade that still steal my attention when it flashes in my peripheral? I think to me it represented...the opposite of poverty, in an ironic way. It represented something new, not used or second hand, not natural but instead created by shiny machines and freshly born just for me. This blue was not the color of something that was my grandma's, or my older sister's. It was a fresh new frontier, a saturated plastic hued hope that surely could never fade.
Now I know the vinyl seats were dirty and torn and sat on by a hundred thousand butts before mine, and thousands more after.
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These photos are by Andrea Celine, and were accepted by Osphilia magazine for publication. Please don't share or repost them until after that comes out, thank you.
Comments
You’re still stealing my soul with your blue raspberry electrifying reminiscences! The photos are terrific, like a pinhole camera photo that summons nostalgia & peekaboo Eros, like a secretive protege of EJ Bellocq as if a damsel of the house were taking breathtaking pix of you….
chefcdB
2023-06-22 07:03:55 +0000 UTCI also want to say...I can't really complain about things in content creation world changing and it's not that I'm disappointed or surprised by that. It would be insane to expect it to stay the same forever, in fact it's only surprising that it's lasted as long as it has. Maybe I'm in my social media death throes, idk, but I just mean to say that it feels harder and harder to "strategize" as things get spread out thinner.
ernaburn
2023-06-16 22:06:51 +0000 UTC
