Looking for inspiration.
Added 2022-05-20 14:16:37 +0000 UTCI've been feeling pretty uninspired lately. My physical body hasn't been feeling that great. I've long struggled with inexplicable fatigue, which I always attributed to depression. But things are going relatively well, things are calm right now. Do I thrive artistically on struggle and drama? I hope not.
I feel a bit disconnected from my body. This year has been an onslaught of physical obstructions. Covid, the flu, foot surgery, general fatigue and pain, aging and loss of strength, and now allergies (thanks, Springtime). None of this is terrible, it's all temporary (except the fatigue). But it gets in the way of my work so much.
I struggle to feel motivated to create anymore. I'm still pleased with the work when I do, like I still look at it and say yeah...I make a living doing this for a reason. But how many ways can one twist and contort and present one's own body? It's finite. Photos...I guess that's what I "sell," yet I cannot understand how-
-wow- sorry for the interruption. As I'm writing this, Patreon sent me a "test" to prove I'm human and not a robot. Jesus Christ, can't I even write my feelings anymore haha?! Do robots write journal entries?
Anyways....I don't know why photos are interesting anymore. I said it. Yeah I'm a terrible salesperson haha. Destructive to my own cause. That's why I haven't reeeeeeeally delved into becoming a photographer too much. I do enjoy making my friends look and feel good, giving them content to sell. But it doesn't inspire me much anymore.
The photograph - as in, the permanently fixed image - was first created in 1826. Aren't we bored yet?
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Comments
Faced with creative stagnation, and still needing to supply content for income, might I suggest engaging with your work in a new medium? Painting, sketching, illustration perhaps? Revisit favorites and try recreating or improving on them in some alternate process. Color work? Try it in black and white. Sometimes the spontaneity of instant photography, or toy cameras might work, or vice versa. Maybe write journal entries about what you were experiencing when you created a work? When you’re in a rut, sometimes the best thing to do is pick a slightly different path. Or a different venue? Best wishes always.
James Landon Johnson
2022-05-20 15:32:17 +0000 UTCNobody asked but I’d like to share my 2 cts. First, thank you for sharing so candidly how do you feel. Is surprising that a person that uses her body as an instrument of art an expression feels detached from it, but at the same time is reasonable since you are reaching another level in your maturity evolution (I am not talking about age). I can drop here all kind of compliments about how good you look, but you know that and is not my place. On the other hand, I can tell you that I enjoy a lot the way and what you express with your pictures (either if you posse or you took them). I am sure photography is still very relevant but at the same time underestimated since cameras are everywhere and people in general think that is just point and click without any care for composition or light. As a designer that happened to me 25 years ago when Powerpoint became omnipresent and everyone felt they was designers. With Photography I am sure there are certain people that are willing to pay (we are here), and I am sure I would pay for prints of some of your work… just some thought that might be irrelevant for all the community here (sorry to bother)
Mr Walls
2022-05-20 15:05:13 +0000 UTC
