what a fucking week
Added 2021-06-27 13:57:56 +0000 UTCYou guys....can Patreon be the place where I'm real with you?
I have been struggling. I moved back to New York excited because this is where my people are. I essentially have two friend groups: one, my nerdy Ohio college friends who are supportive of my ho lifestyle but don't participate in it themselves. And two, my friends in the poly/kink/ethically non monogamous/play party/ model/ insta ho scene.
But I have been growing apart from the ladder group, and finding myself excluded because I've experienced a shift in libido this year (a trauma response), and therefore not as active.
It seems being sexually inactive has made me worthless as a friend to them.
This realization has been difficult for me, as part of my motivation getting this studio apartment was to be a resource for that community....for SW'ers to make their art, for people to network and meet each other.
Ironically in both groups, I know zero single people. Even polyamorous people always have a primary partner they live with, in addition many other romantic partners. But I'm alone, always.
I'm realizing that I'm craving single friends who aren't necessarily committed to a high intensity sexual lifestyle. I need NORMAL single friends lol.
Anyways, I just wanted to share with you I've been feeling really alone. Just six weeks being back in New York, I kind of feel like I don't fit in anymore...
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It's sad that we can be surrounded by people but feel alone. People don't get us. Erin, I don't have helpful thoughts, but I hope you can find your happy place. Thank you for sharing with us.
Matt Austin
2021-07-05 16:56:13 +0000 UTCLA Sarah here, Erin. I'm sorry you feel so lonely! I knew you were so looking forward to being near your pals in NYC and making art again! I'm here if you ever need to talk, seriously. <3
S
2021-06-27 17:43:59 +0000 UTCThe last year has brought a lot of disruption to everything, and social circles are a part of that for so many people. You'll find your tribe again, whether there's new people in it or the same. or both.
Josht
2021-06-27 16:51:08 +0000 UTCThanks for sharing Erin. It’s an interesting phenomenon that when we grow others seem to change… you’ll find your peeps again, I’m sure New York has felt the changes we have here in S.F. And I’m not sure they’ll go back to the way it was… I feel you on this and hope you find a companion or companionship sooner than later… ❤️
Stevie
2021-06-27 15:49:14 +0000 UTC
