2020 Wrapup + 2021 Plans

Hey everyone. This is a public post so everyone read the behind the scenes stuff I didn't really say much about.

FIRST OFF: Happy New Year! I hope that everyone's new year celebration was fun/enjoyable and now we can look forward to an improved year all around!

I want to actually tell about a few things that happened to me in 2020 in a bit of detail without going into a giant story as a lot of things that happened within the year changed my life for the better.

I am NOT going to talk about the pandemic or the hurricanes, though. EDIT: They were both terrible, and a lot of people were severely affected. I do not mean this post as a way to brag or anything. I just want to explain the things that had nothing to do with these things that when I was on twitter I was like "hey I need some time"

First off, you may have noticed an extreme change in how I've acted. I found out in January that I was badly low on my Vitamin D. I changed off of my medicine and got on vitamin D and suddenly I was sleeping properly. I haven't slept well since the 90s. I was sleeping 12-14 hours every day and late for work daily, and now I'm 6-8 and back on track.

That alone has severely boosted my self esteem. I don't feel like a complete mess at work anymore because I wasn't able to wake up in the morning.

Also getting off my emotional control medicine, I am back to my old creative self again. In Febuary I got some ideas for simple videos for my old video tier. I was looking them over and said "hey I wrote this big script, what do you think?" and the Patrons loved the ideas and then we went with them. It was more work, but it was just a lot of fun to do.

So around March, when I was in the middle of discussing another idea with a Patron, one member of my Discord server gave me an idea "Hey what if there was a big bubble blowing up... then suddenly Lindsey was there when it popped?"... and that immediately triggered my brain on a train of thought that led to Project Dream: "Playmate's Bubbly Dream". It just went out of control and I just dropped practically EVERYTHING  and started working on it. I mean I have a year old dialogue file gathering dust because I got so interested in that project I just couldn't wait to start it.

April, I read over Imbapovi's notes again about using raycast with balloons (I was failing to understand a few of the settings), and I started experimenting and found out how to do bubblegum correctly to where it doesn't look like a flat sphere in raycast.

I learned how to create simple things, and modify things now to an extent as well due to a mass amount of learning afterwards. I just got so into learning about creating 3d stuff and modifying... it's just crazy how much more I know now compared to last year.

In June I ditched my psychiatrist, I mentioned it before, she claimed I was going into mania and I needed to not be so happy so I don't have the emotional rollercoaster into depression/suicide.
To note about that: Yes I did eventually dip down into depression, but instead of wallowing in it, I worked out my problems in a mature way. I still have some issues but they are not as problematic as they were before.

July I was getting some medicine adjustments and for two months I was super tired. I got my blood pressure down but I was not put on any counterbalance stuff to keep me awake and active. So now I'm regulated. Healither from lower blood pressure (it runs in my family), and now I'm remaining actively progressing.

October between working on Camilla I started to actually tackle some of the bigger self esteem issues and paranoia I have. About two weeks ago me and my "good Psychologist" (not the bad one I mentioned above, she was a Psychiatrist),  we found out that I have Paranoia/Schizophrenic episodes sometimes, but I'm not in any danger. I was actually worried for a while about that.

November we got adjustments to our bedrooms and a working stove again! (no more constant frozen dinners) and I even am taking up cooking again and trying new things.

I also started a second youtube channel for non-inflation content. (Balloon and Bubblegum things, though) https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClBmK802uKyJpxYJp8R3p_w

Why a second channel? Well this is a bit... well I don't want to sound mean here, but there were at lot of negative comments when I would upload a non-inflation video. It was very strange because I regularly uploaded non-inflation content. So I was talking with others and devising ways to keep everyone happy, and then I realized "Hey I know this other person who has a channel for video game streaming that isn't part of his regular channel" and it hit me "second channel". And thus, no more problems!

And finally...  something I haven't told too many people. I've slowed down on art since January. There is a big reason for it.  And no I'm not quitting artwork. Slowly over time I've noticed I have problems with how I'm drawing. And around July I was starting to subconsciously take steps to improve. Around November I looked at some of my old art and I was shocked. I didn't realize I made so many mistakes at it. So I developed things I am currently practicing in order to improve what I do. I don't need to go into details, but it's in refining/revamping my technique. I don't know how long it will take before I fully open back up to drawing commissions, or even drawing for myself regularly,  but when I saw the errors I made on pictures, I was so shocked I had to take a couple hours to relax because for a while I was saying "Wait... I didn't actually draw that. I made so many mistakes on it, how did I call this picture finished?"
But right after taking a two hour rest, I sat back down and devised a plan to improve. It's just going to be a bit long to fully get it together...

So what's next for 2021.
First off, I am going to do what I said and keep pushing to improve my drawings to where they're tons better looking than before.

Next: I'm going to keep working on new ideas for videos. I have a bunch of unique ones I know you're all going to enjoy. Do they all include Lindsey? No... and while I might be expecting to see her plushie staring at me when i go to bed tonight, I do plan on using some other people still, I promise!

Finally: I have been doing some research so I might be able to start taking commissions regularly after I finish catching up on a couple of leftover videos. Both inflation and non-inflation commissions, and even some varying length ones... but...er... probably not 10-15 minute long video commissions XD not unless you're going to be telling my boss "Thiridian can't come to work today because I kidnapped him for two months" and you're buying me a ton of Chocolate Mocha drinks to go with it.

So, you got the new and improved Thiridian that finally unearthed himself one year ago here to stay. Let's push to go even further. Thank you all for ANY support you've given me. Likes, feedback, shares, advice, commissions, or patreon/ko-fi support. Thank you till I can't type on this keyboard anymore.