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ASMR Soft Spoken Ramble [thanksgiving, black friday]
Added 2022-11-24 18:58:04 +0000 UTChttps://www.1000plus.am/en this is the charity. Before I had to search and check to send money to families that lost their family members and need help. Because usually men are providers here and many women with children are left alone with all their problems. Now it's organised and I know the director who started this and I fully trust it.
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I had a YouTube channel maybe around 12/13 years ago, you could say as a coping mechanism for losing someone very dear to me.. I was making cover songs in my free time, singing, playing the piano, editing and uploading the videos, and I surprisingly found myself getting over 4000 subscribers in a few months, which was huge for me with people requesting songs and things of that nature, and it was like "oh ok I need to put on my sunglasses now coz my future is too bright" 😄 and I started to open up more about myself, beyond just singing.. long story short, on the one hand yes I admit things didn't go very well in the end as I was actually sued by a dumb subscriber 😄 I don't think I was mature or secure enough back then either to handle criticism or negative comments that I subconsciously believed were quite accurate about me so I was triggered easily, and my head wasn't in the right space so I ultimately ended everything and went to Australia a year later.. But on the other hand, without a doubt sharing my mind unfiltered with an audience who voluntarily dedicated time of their lives to listen to me and communicate was the biggest contributor to me picking myself up again from depression, and I was so grateful that I eventually found myself doing a podcast on a site called ustream to contribute to people's lives in a more direct and meaningful way, and it was a truly fulfilling blessing while it lasted. I think it just made me realize that the world is full of beautiful people and that we're more similar than we are different. We all need to share, and its normal that our friends or families may not have the capacity to be open minded enough to understand our mindset, or even be able to have the kinds of conversations that we want to have about certain things. Its normal that we sometimes want attention without having to ask for it, we don't always want the confrontations associated with vulnerability either, or to worry about "being exposed" in front of society or loved ones for having controversial views. And so I'd absolutely love to hear your stories and your perspectives and seeing your personality come through, and I hope you approach the issue of sharing from a place of joy, safety and connection rather than fear. Because to me, the uncertainty about sharing online stemmed from an emotion of fear, fear of losing something, image, reputation, whatever, as opposed to a feeling of abundance, wanting to influence, contribute, give back etc. I asked myself that question and I ultimately decided that its up to me to choose who i want to be. Do i want be the person who makes the world a better place and approaches life with an inspiring positive mindset? Or do i want to always be on the look out for threats and danger and the evil in people? Do i want to see life through the lens of "people only care about themselves and they're all out there to get me". Or do i want to see the world from a place of empathy? Because fact of the matter is Shushanna, you have an honest intention to help people improve their lives and no one can take that away from you, and you better believe that your loving energy, curiosity, capacity, open mindedness, purity and innocence, not just through your asmr videos, but your overall character that comes through the stories you tell and the emotions we see you go through simply attracts loving people back your way who genuinely care about you, want to see you happy and doing well, and here for you on your journey of life through its ups and downs if you ever wish to share it. I for one felt a real sense of pride for example when you said you were able to swim for the first time not too long ago, and I know how phony the word "proud" can sound when you say it to someone you don't personally know but I really was proud. On a different note I didn't know shopping is your favorite sport and that you own 12% of the world's clothes, so thank you for stimulating the economy again. And I guess I'll wrap it up here. Do what makes you happy in the end and take basic security precautions, and I really appreciate you either way. Much love ♥️
Motaz
2022-11-28 17:51:03 +0000 UTC"Never think that your message will be too long" Well, alriiiiiiiiiiight then >:) I'm not American and I'm always a bit on the fence about importing American holidays, but I wish we did more Thanksgiving gathering stuff rather than than Black Friday and Cyber Monday. We just grabbed the consumerism without the social. =/ Anyway, I'm thankful for great ASMRtists who brighten my days :) I've been having some trouble dealing with since September. Though, a wise(...ish) old friend once told me when you get Depressed for a long while, the goal is not to never feel down, it's to increase the gap between each time you feel down. Anger.. I found my best catharsis (other than exercise) was music that resonated with it. That channelled it. Something loud that you feel like you can yell into (yelling not required, but mouthing the words does help). Does not have to be metal/rock, classical like Night on Bald Mountain by Mussorgsky can work fine. But, System of a Down probably works better. I have resisted Black Friday sales thus far. I have resisted the new fast fashion shop that opened here recently. But I did order myself a small pile of locally(ish) sourced and made clothing recently. ..the tshirt is a bit itchy and the socks are way too heavy weight. Rest was good though, but yeah, reinforces my preference for touching things in person before buying. And none of it made me feel sexy T.T Look forward to seeing an unboxing :3 I relax... well, other than ASMR videos. A bit of video games, bit of music, bit of looking for new hobbies. I don't watch soccer and I am definitely not tuning in to Qatar's attempt at sportswashing. Thanks for the video and have a great weekend. And yeah, it can feel easier to talk to someone with literal distance from you. There's a sense of ~not quite real, which makes it easier to just... be honest.
Just some Fish
2022-11-25 08:54:37 +0000 UTCThanks for the vid and the info about the charity. May contribute a sum or two.
Strumpf
2022-11-25 08:21:21 +0000 UTCGood night my dear Shushanna . I’m grateful for you. ❤️
Oliver Jayawant
2022-11-24 19:15:18 +0000 UTC
