Kidnapped But At Least I Can Keep My Plushies

I was cleaning up my bed a bit so I can make it look like a tea party for my many many plushies (yes I actually do sleep with all of them). However I did notice someone sneak in like a ninja even though both my window and door were closed and they grabbed me from behind and taped my mouth shut. They (the kidnapper is non-binary this time) then tied me up and pushed me on the bed where I have mixed feelings. On the one hand, I have been kidnapped and I am uncertain of the kidnapper’s intentions but then again I am with my plushies which does help calm me down a bit. Send help just to be on the safe side please.

Wow, it’s been a while. Well unfortunately it might still be a while. The past few weeks I have been suffering from an extreme episode of depression and I’m still going through it. You see I’ve been feeling less and less safe as a trans person mostly but even without it being an issue, I’m not being treated well. At work I’m often vilified and assumed my intentions are the worst even when I just try to help but when I’m in the position where I feel there’s something making me feel uncomfortable, I’m always told I am looking at it wrong even though you could literally argue the same thing when I’m the one doing it. And I worked my arse off with little appreciation. I even did double my workload last week as someone was off with COVID but rarely got any appreciation for it and I didn’t get any from the person when she got back. I’m also still upset at the fact that I’m not allowed in the women’s bathroom there to the point where I just hold it in, which actually caused me to get sick for a bit yesterday. I‘ve felt so targeted that I hid myself from everyone else in a secluded spot at work just to cry for about half an hour. And then there’s the fact that my own mother said I should not be allowed to compete in women’s sports competitions based on outdated views. Now I suck at sports and in fact don’t care very much for it (I only brought it up as a counter argument for something else apparently being ”politicised” but apparently banning trans participation isn’t) but it still hurts because it confirms to me that my mother does not see me for who I really am. Transphobia in general is extremely hurtful but mostly so when it’s from your own family, the people you expect love and support from the most. I actually do not feel very safe at all and even as I made this video acting scared, I’m also scared in real life. There aren’t a lot of signs that my offline life are going to get better short-term so depression might make uploads rarer.

P. S. Yes I’m aware this was uploaded on Australia Day and that I’m Australian. I don’t like the day at all because it just whitewashes history and just glorifies colonialism and genocide. With that said, please don’t wish me a “happy Australia Day”.

I-MMMMMPH!!!