Theo

Oh.

Added 2023-06-25 20:41:14 +0000 UTC

I wasn't feeling well at the end of May. To heal from grief, a week-long vacation had been undertaken - that much had been a success. Hadn't earned much money since though, and didn't feel like my job was giving me as much of that personal enjoyment of art as it ought to. If I was growing, I was getting too big for my own skin. If not, I was just terminally online. So I contacted Jonathan Vair Duncan, whose recommendation was to touch some grass, to heavily paraphrase. Mom recommended the same.

That meant get in touch with local orgs or people. Community integration. Money wasn't necessarily gonna come out of that anytime soon, but experience. I can't say I've gotten very far, but I managed to open an art group on a neighbourhood site and get permission to tend to the garden in front of the house. Going to attend more queer events with a friend who knows their way around as well. This was the undertone of my early June, commitment to change. Of course, much like a new year's resolution this hasn't felt very permanent yet. Many tasks seem outright impossible, and failures aren't unlikely. This mixture of excitement and fear is hopefully somewhat visible in the image, which is also new and weird in the way I've attempted it.