My Last Response (I Promise)
Added 2022-05-06 19:33:09 +0000 UTCIf I could be honest with you all, I didn't feel so great before I posted the last video, and soon after I published that video I felt even worse. In the 7 years I have been on youtube, I have not once done something like this. I am horrible at expressing myself especially when I am in great distress.
I hated the tone of the video and I hated how I fed into the toxicity of the comments. The truth is no one knows what's going on behind the scenes but Abi and I. I explain that much more clearly and calmly here. There was SO much pain on my end, as I was carrying this with me for years which was why the last video went the way it did. It is also important to understand that this is my version of the story, Abi could feel another way.
She is human. I am human. And we tried our best to make it work.
Throwing Abi under the bus in the comments was not fair. I am sorry for that. I am sorry Abi. I was trying to express my truth. But I did not do it in the best way. Abi was important to this channel and even though our friendship was difficult at times, we helped each other in a lot of ways.
However, I am starting to find my voice after 30 or so years again and I must follow the path that has been laid out before me. This will be the last time I cover this situation again. I am moving on from this and I ask that you all can too. This decision to go back to being solo was necessary. And I appreciate those of you who understand where I am coming from.
Thank you
Comments
thanks for the clarification and i relate on many levels including the transition from parting from family and move into the other side of the world and your new life should move along at your pace and the channel / content filming is second to your immediate life outside of youtube and I hope you find the right path and it can take as long as you can. i personally do not want my favorite content creators to be anything but, other folks with normal lives, on the other side of the camera who are a person like me too, and i hope you remember we as people go through the same and will understand if you wanna say anything.
ArabianPrince
2022-05-15 16:23:58 +0000 UTCI just pointed out what could be a context clue. She said things were already starting to develop years back, not just recently.
Jerico
2022-05-09 05:57:21 +0000 UTCUm...their reactions to Breaking Bad was a long time ago, though, before all this shit went down
BetheSOUL
2022-05-09 05:49:26 +0000 UTCi did notice and have pointed out in the last few years when you moved in the same apartment complex that your vibe wasn't as bright as when you guys reacted to haikyuu or aot (i even blamed the office chairs for making it feel like a 9-5 and not as something for passion). but now i understand even more after knowing the journey you're taking right now. i even remember one reaction in breaking bad when walter was like sluggish and kinda annoyed after unlocking and opening the door to their lab for "work" and abi jokingly said that she could relate (in the sense of gathering together for your filming days). idk but i pick up on subtle things like that and that already took me aback for a tiny bit. but anyways, i'm wishing both of you the best and hoping that you can get past this!
Jerico
2022-05-08 01:43:46 +0000 UTCLooking forward to a good stress-free future of reactions! Been here for a few years, def not leaving
Quzga
2022-05-07 18:13:57 +0000 UTCI am sorry you are dealing with this kind of stress, and heartbreak, especially when it is aired out in the open, because you are 100% correct that we forge a false image on how the friendship is through the exposure of your reactions. It's a hard situation and I wish I could help with it. I will continue to support you through patreon and watch your reactions (even if I don't always comment). Please take care of yourself Imon <3
Zael
2022-05-07 00:46:42 +0000 UTCI appreciate you guys so much
Imon_Snow
2022-05-06 23:12:25 +0000 UTCThank you so much~
Imon_Snow
2022-05-06 23:12:03 +0000 UTCI also want to say: I very rarely comment on aything but I stumbled upon the both of you last year when I was going through a real ruff time. I'm not cofient enought to deny the idea that I haven't formed some level of parasocial relationship with you both, and for that I apolsogise. I do, however, wish you both the best, not only because I'm a fan, but I sadly understand the pains of mental health all to well. I wish you the best, Imon, and hope you can move beond this situation x
PaddyCG
2022-05-06 22:51:30 +0000 UTCHey, I watched your video and and have also watched you both for around two years now; all I can say, is that I really do wish you both the best. It's not the same but I was recently diangosed with ADHD at 26. I've lost friends over the years because I had no idea why my brain would randomly do "weird things" and I became very exhausted and withdrawn. Again, not exactly the same but I can at least sympathise (to an extent) and how you're doing well
PaddyCG
2022-05-06 22:36:33 +0000 UTCSame
Dooly
2022-05-06 20:44:20 +0000 UTCWatched you since Glenn died. Excited for your future and supporting you
Lemuel Daher
2022-05-06 19:40:30 +0000 UTC
