Let's play a punishment game...

WARNING THESE PUNISHMENTS ARE TOUGH! 

As a Sissy in Training, you should frequently find yourself reflecting on your day and your behavior. 

Not to put yourself down. Not to realize you are worthless. No, it should be because you want to improve upon your submissive role and strive to work on yourself to become a better human being. Many Sissies do this better than most!

Here we are looking at a punishment game you can play for self-reflection and growth.

In your reflection, you found something like this perhaps:

- You could have shown more respect to someone

- You could have handled a situation with calm and understanding, but you were defensive or even offensive

- You blamed someone else

- You gossiped or in any other way might have caused harm to another person's reputation

- You were beating yourself up or thinking thoughts around you not being good enough

- You avoided a commitment you made to yourself or someone else

- You did not stand up or help someone in need when you could have done so

- And many more...

To be clear. There are situations that you will fail in life where you could not have known or predicted before it was too late. Such events do not count!

Think about what behavior you did, or avoided doing. Or what decision you made or did not make in time.

Honestly pick a number from 1 to 5 in these categories:

1. How much a difference could another choice from you have created a more positive outcome for other people? 1 (Not much) - 5 (Significant)

2. In how big part was the reason you did this or avoided doing it because of your own personal fears? 1 (Very little, other considerations mostly stopped me) - 5 (It was mostly because I did not dare to, or because I hesitated)

3. How often has a similar situation happened, where you acted this way? 1 - (First time!) 3 - (It is something known to happen in my life) 5 - (This basically always happens, or is a habit)

Add your scores together. You should not have at minimum 3 and maximum of 15. This is your behavior score for this punishment.

Now we want to change that behavior score into a punishment severity number.

Find your score in this table and remember the severity number:

This behavior score gives you -->

A punishment severity number like this!

3 or 4 -->  -4

5 or 6  --> -2

7, 8 or 9  --> 0

10 or 11 --> 2

12 or 13  --> 4

14 or 15  --> 8

Now roll a normal dice 3 times.
(Tip: Search in google exactly for “roll 3d6”)

The first dice is added to your punishment severity number.

Example:

Severity 4, dice 3 then the sum is 7

Severity -2, dice 3 then the sum is 1

Severity -4, dice 1 then the sum is -3, but if negative set it to 1.

Severity 8, dice 6 then the sum is 14, but the maximum is 10 so we set it to 10.

This is what you will replace the X in your punishment description with.

The second dice determines the type of punishment:

1. Chastity
2. Humiliation
3. Endurance
4. Humiliation
5. Endurance
6. Chastity

The third dice determines what specific punishment instruction you need to follow, keep reading there is a list below.

Example: “I roll a 3 a 1 and a 4. My Severity number is 2”. 

→ X is 1 (First dice roll is 3, minus severity which is 2; which is 1) 

→ The category is Humiliation (Second dice is 1)

→ Punishment is Chastity nr 4 (The third dice is 4)

Here is finally the punishment list. Ready?

Promise yourself to do it. Do your absolute best in order to complete it. Even if it takes days!

If the punishment laps over several days then keep track of your progress in your training book or make an X on a wall calendar.

A simple way to track your punishment progress is to draw a series of boxes on a note or post-it that you keep at your desk. Check a box off as you complete a step!

Every day during your punishment period and when it is over take a moment and reflect on your behavior, and choose how you want to improve it in the future. Pride yourself that you took the punishment to show you are a good sissy or submissive and improve as a person. Be kind to yourself, and remind yourself that everyone does mistakes and what matters is not what mistakes we do, but how we choose to deal with them when they happen. 

The punishment list

Chastity

1. Edge minimum 10 times while watching porn or something that turns you on. Then set a timer for X hours. No release until the timer runs out. 
2. No orgasms for X of days.
3. Wear a chastity belt or device for X days. Unlock to edge at least X times daily. You may ruin if your horniness is at 10/10. 
4. Edge. Then watch porn for 5minutes. Repeat X times, then take a walk outside for a minimum of 30 min while tucked, during your walk dream up a fantasy scenario where you are forcibly kidnapped, and turned into a female sex slave.
5. For X hours you must be in a chastity device while you do a service task for you or someone else, such as cleaning or cooking. Wearing a butt plug makes your time count as double. You may spread this time out over maximum of X days.
6. Find either videos or stories with a bondage, chastity, sissy, bimbo, slave, submissive or BDSM themed in order to locate descriptions or ideas of X scenarios where someone gets in “trouble” or have to endure a predicament. These scenarios can be realistic or just fantasy. Lock yourself in chastity and play each of them out over the next X days. Adjust the scenario to fit with chastity, anal, and oral. You may do them all in one day or spread them out in any way over these X days. Until you are done you may not cum and should try to keep the chastity device on as much as is possible given your life situation; preferably sleeping with it on.

Humiliation

1. Wear panties (and bra if you have it) for X days, as often as possible, preferably 24/7! Tuck properly. If too loose then use multiple panties or more tight ones. Change them 1 time during the day, they now count as dirty. If all your panties are dirty then you have to wash them. Try to use a public laundry or shared laundry for this, but feel free to mix them with other clothes you have in that case.
2. Get temporary tattoos, and/or use a non-permanent marker that sticks fairly well to skin and requires soap to remove. On the inside of your thighs, on your clit, and above your pubes with humiliating writing, words and drawings. You must sit every time you go to a toilet and pull down your pants and panties to your feet. Words should be clearly visible by you if you look down. You are only allowed to do your business on the toilet while looking down and reading those words aloud or in your mind. Keep them for X days. Also, add X extra words/drawings/tattoos every day.  
3. Go to Grindr (or similar app/site) and create a new account where you set yourself as a Transwomen. Write in the description that you have a very high libido, and are going to travel to (Big city of your choice) and are looking for some fun while there. Mention that you are submissive, and prefer alpha men. You are okay with rough sex but also those that are more gentle. You are open to just a quick blowjob or handjob if you are nearby during the day, and anal at after work times. You are staying in a hotel and prefer that location. The requirement for a meetup is that they can state a good reason for seeking out a transwoman and that they are good with the use of condoms, and write that you can provide condoms, and if relevant you have a friend with a dungeon and can borrow some bondage gear and/or sex toys. Use a picture of yourself that you use an App like FaceApp to turn into a female version, make sure it looks hot! For X days, chat with people from this city and plan an imaginary trip to this city with daily sexual activities and “book” in X encounters per day. At the end of X day +2 then let everyone know your trip is canceled but thank each one you talked to and that you are happy to keep if you will go there in the future. 
4. Do endurance nr 4.
5. Roll one dice to get another punishment from the humiliation category, except for this one. Then roll one dice again for a secondary punishment from the humiliation category, except for this one. You need to do both. You may reduce your severity points by a total of 4. You may choose yourself how to spread the reduction across these two punishments, minimum however is still 1.
6. Reroll all three dice and recalculate everything but add 1 severity point, and take photos of the progress of that punishment as evidence. Once done then you must look through the photos and you should pick one that you can crop or edit, which is humiliating and you feel okay to share anonymously. Then post it at some kinky site on the internet.

Endurance

1. Go for 5 + X hours without food
2. If you mostly drink water every day, then roll again and pick another punishment. Else drink only water as your only drink of choice for a day.
3. If you can go up anytime you wish tomorrow, then reroll. Else go up X*15 minutes hours earlier and spend that time doing yoga from different YouTube videos. If possible naked, or in fem-mode.
4. Have 2 + X hours when you drink a lot of water, make sure at least 1 glass per hour. You should, more or less, constantly feel you need to pee. Make sure to also drink something like a soda or sports drink every other hour so that has some salt and stay safe. Try to take at least one walk outside from these examples, you may create your own similar scenario: 
   1. If you can be in a private place then you should take a walk and pee in your pants while walking.
   2. Try to go on about a 1-hour walk and plan to reach a public toilet that you can relieve yourself in the middle of that walk.
   3. A forest or quiet area with vegetation, go into a hidden place behind a bush and relieve yourself like a dog standing on three paws while raising one leg in the air.
   4. Take a jog or a walk with a water bottle. Find toilets or hidden places and relieve yourself into the bottle if you feel any need to pee until the bottle is full and then you may return home.
5. Take a jog! (Walk fast if you are unable, or if you cannot walk then replace with a form of endurance exercise that you can do) for X*15 minutes. You may only count time when you actually jog but you take as many breaks as you wish. You may not cum, ruin or even touch yourself until you are done. However, if you are able, and have one, then you should do this with a butt plug in, in a pinch you can replace the butt plug with the shaft of a toothbrush, or fill yourself with sausages or grapes. Size depends on how stretched you are, so not so small it can fall out but not any bigger, and it should not be uncomfortable or cause pain. Time only counts while you are filled.
6. Reroll category and number, but before you do edge a minimum X*10 times to X*20 minutes of watching porn or images that turns you and keeps you in heat. You may not ruin or cum. If you cannot go on without risk to release then take a 1 minutes break. If you choose to put a butt plug in then you may reduce the minutes in heat in half.