IMPORTANT: Burnout, Mental Health, and Taxes
Added 2024-05-24 17:58:31 +0000 UTCSorry there wasn't a lot of content this month, I try my best to have at lest 3 or 4 posts in a month but that's probably just not gonna happen this time. Frankly I'm exhausted dealing with IRL shit right now on top of trying to burn through my commission backlog so I can hopefully get more sales and make rent this month.
I'm not usually one to let me problems be public unless it's an emergency scenario but right now I think I might just need to come clean about some things happening in my life. If i'm lagging behind and underserving you then you deserve an explanation.
I'm struggling with debts that I just can't seem to ever get ahead of, and while that situation has been improving slowly it's still a huge constant weight on me. Along with that I've been hiding the fact I'm not mentally well for a long time now, something I've only begun to accept myself very recently.
I have a personality disorder that has been fueling a lot of my manic behavior online and irl, straining relationships and causing me fall behind in my responsibilities (both in my career and in my home). This has included some severe mood swings and increasingly worrying memory loss. I have accepted that something is wrong and begun to seek help for it.
While I hope by acknowledging the problem and getting help will make things easier, that will not make anything less expensive. I'm currently still trying to get my insurance back but the IRS is still holding my 2022 taxes and until I can get that sorted I'm not sure what kind of help I really have available to me.
The truth is I'm struggling right now. That' not your fault, nor is it your responsibility and I'm sorry this has been effecting you all. Thank you for sticking by me, and if you can continue to support me I'm sure I can turn this around soon.
I'll be posting some unfinished sketches and concept art for future projects later today, It's not my usual finished pieces but I hope it can compensate just a little for this month being a bit light.
Comments
best of luck!
hemovore throwaway
2024-05-24 22:35:15 +0000 UTCThank you, I'm really happy I have friends like you around. It really does mean a lot.
Oh Lordy It's Jordie
2024-05-24 19:38:34 +0000 UTCI'm really sorry you're going through so much. The fact that your circumstances are preventing you from obtaining help sounds incredibly disheartening, but please keep being hopeful, taking care of yourself as much as you can, and don't hesitate to reach out to your friends. I'm also going through a similar fight with burnout/mental health, and while of course I can't compare my own struggles with yours, I can very much relate to the pressure of posting/keeping an active patreon during these tough times. We can't be the perfect and hyperproductive "content creator", because that idealized person doesn't exist in the real world. There's going to be periods of inspiration and growth, and periods of personal struggles and creative drought - it's all part of the cycle and it doesn't mean we're incapable of moving forward and growing. I hope things turn out for the best soon for you soon. You deserve it, after all the joy and horniness you brought into the world :)
LazySnout
2024-05-24 19:32:45 +0000 UTC
