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I just posted a very emotional video

Hey guys,

I just wanted to let you know that today in recognition of World Suicide Prevention Day I decided to tell my emotional story of my battles with depression and the suicide attempts I've made throughout life. If you know someone that needs to see they are not alone please point them to this video. It's not monteized and I don't benefit from the video beyond helping people in need.

This video is probably going to open me up to all kinds of attack since I pretty much show all my vulnerabilities in the video but I felt it necessary to do it so people could see the truth and not just another person talking about a distant experience. I would appreciate your feedback on the video if you watch it.

Suicide effects us all from the people we love leaving us early and it's preventable with the right people paying attention and the right messages out there showing people they are not broken but rather are just acting on impulses that one has when they feel cornered and that there is no other way out. I hope this video just helps a single person.

I want to thank all of you Patrons for all your support and I promise the next video uploaded to the channel tomorrow will be VR related and we'll start back with the technology, 3d printing and educational content. But after reading so many tweets today from people struggling with depression and having a spotlight on the topic today it was the perfect time for me to share my story to reach as many people are humanly possible and that to me was more important than making a funny VR video so I changed gears.

I'll see you all tomorrow on Morning Coffee! Sorry I couldn't do it today, I woke up too late after going to bed at 5am because yesterday I had 8 shots of espresso and was wired beyond belief. I'll try to get back on schedule tonight so I'm not yawning through the show tomorrow.

Love you all,

Jerry (Barnacules)

I just posted a very emotional video

Comments

Thank you for your video. I lost my brother to suicide and I know he would regret it if he could. It's just not worth it. He has missed out on so much, we both have.

Thank you and I’m sorry about your friend but now you can help others in his memory!

TL;DR: I can't thank you enough for sharing your experience and raising awareness about depression and suicide. Longer version for anyone looking for some inspiration: I was lucky enough to survive my own attempts at 16, when I was at the lowest point in my life, as a homeless, gay teen. I took my failures as a sign that it just wasn't my time to go, no matter how difficult "living" had become. While I still fight with occasional bouts of depression, twenty-two years later, I've never made another attempt to take my own life. I've seen so many young people in similar situations to my own that weren't as lucky, and it breaks my heart every time I hear about a successful attempt. Although nothing has hit me harder than losing one of my closest friends to suicide in June 2017. It was an all too typical case of "no one saw it coming" and I can't help but wonder if perhaps I, and others, didn't see it coming because no one in our circle ever discussed it, ever told each other our experiences, or attempted to raise awareness. I'll forever be stuck wondering if the outcome had of been different if we had. So I've been pushing suicide and mental illness awareness in all of my social circles ever since, and everytime I see someone else doing the same it simply warms my heart. So thank you from the bottom of my heart for not being afraid to speak out, Jerry. Saving a life is one the most admirable and heroic things you will ever do <3


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