This Weekend Was Awkward (In a Good Way)

This weekend was filled with awkward confrontations of my own Whiteness, and it was great.
Friday night I went out to see Get Out with some friends, Saturday was the SEAF Black Tie Affair, and then Dear White People on Sunday.
I have long been aware of my own White-ness and work very hard on myself to be a good ally, which is mostly just shutting the fuck up but being ready to speak up or be a human shield as needed. As someone of Irish and Italian descent, I know the struggles my own people went through and am ashamed at the 'feed into the system of opression' methods my ancestors most likely adopted to blend and avoid that same discrimination. People don't put up "Irish Need Not Apply" signs anymore, and the Italians aren't spit on as they were in the past. I am privileged in that I can blend, in that I can say proudly my heritage and not fear someone lashing out at me for it. I am white, in a country and climate where that works in my favor. Even though I have never had to face oppression because of my bloodline, I try to remember the pain of those in my family who did to grant me further empathy for those who face it today.
There have been nights where I lay awake in worry for my friends. Not just my friends of color, but my trans friends, my gay friends, the list goes on. There is a very real fear in my heart that any one of them could be attacked and killed just for being who they are. I understand this fear on some level as a woman, but if being a Cis White Woman is difficulty level "Medium", than adding in factors of Color, Gender/Sex not aligning, Queerness, etc bumps it up to "Hard" and "Nightmare". The wonderful Briq House expressed it beautifully in her act last night, with layers of underwear featuring different targets for each of those factors.
I'm not sure what my point is here, to be honest I just wanted to unload my thoughts after this weekend. There was a lot of unpacking done (and still to do), and sometimes it's awkward or painful, but it's important and needs to be done. Not just for our own sakes, but because there are some very real threats of violence and harm against people for the stupidest of reasons. And if that is Goodness, if that's what "We The People" voted for and are in favor it, than that's just one more reason for me to be evil.