The state of Liquorice

TL;DR at the end.

Hey everyone, I did promise you guys I would give you a little update and why my art is being halted so often.
I'll keep it rather short, but with enough detail so you can at least kind of understand what situation I'm in, so here we go.

In October 2018 I had a mental crash, which resulted me in taking a break from my job and such. I've had loads of support from my colleagues and friends which helped tremendously. Slowly but surely I was looking for something that could make me focus on myself and make ME happy, so I started Liquorice. 

I love making stuff for Liquorice, but throughout the years I started making more promises, with an entire idea of it building up to be able to sustain myself if I left my job, which isn't bad on itself. But to work on a business you shouldn't be... mentally incapable of managing a "company".
So in the early days it's been up and downs because I was horrible with management of energy. I started going to a psychologist and started to learn what I need to do to manage my energy and my emotions. Slowly actually building up to having Liquorice work out the way I wanted it to be.

Fast forward to end 2019/beginning 2020 I got let go from my job. Here I had the idea I could give a shot to live off of commissions along with Patreon. Guess what? It didn't work. COVID hit and I was trying to live off of social assistance benefit, which wasn't providing nearly enough money for me to pay my mortgage. 

Next to this, the last few months I've been in a rough spot art wise. Physically not being able to draw and it's FUUUUUCKING FRUSTRATING. Because I want to. I want to so badly, but it won't come out.

To keep it somewhat short, now I'm here, supposed to work on myself while I see everything around me crumble slowly. It's really scary, and to be creativally blocked along with that brings a lot of doubt to my own abilities and honestly my own future plans.

All I can say is that I AM planning to finish all the Patreon pieces I started (Ryuko, Helltaker etc). I just need to do it on my own time, when I'm back in gear. Until that time I'm keeping my Patreon paused. Not only that, after I finish the pieces I'm gonna unlaunch my Patreon to make some adjustments and relaunch it whenever I feel like I'm ready to make content again. I'm riddled with guilt and anxiety writing this. I hate letting people down, especially people who support me so I can do what I love. All you guys from Patreon to Twitter have given me is support and I want to keep providing you with content. But for now I have to wait, because real life is getting in the way in the worst ways possible.

Either way, thank you all for reading this and for all the love you've given me. I hope to be able to give you just as much back in given time.  

TL;DR
I'm not supposed to work due to my mental state (initially started end 2018) which is worsening because I'm slowly going broke due to COVID and said mental state. I'm getting professional help, but it's a slow process. I'm trying to live at this moment, but have to put Liquorice on the backburner and will return to it when I'm feeling better. I WILL finish works I started and will keep billing cycles paused.