Updates and serious issues

well not so serious like, Im not dieing or anything XD;

but you guys probarly notice the lack of content here again and the general silence. This is mostly do to me beeing serious sick all october but ALSO I got awared of major leakings of my art again and not only that also the person on my patreon that does that (or at least, was told he is the one).

I gotta say Im really happy for my fanbase cause usually I would not find out such stuff at all unless someone points it out to me and that happend now. the problem I have now is that I dunno if I should just ban/block said person right away(but with the danger of maybe banning someone innocent D;)or if I should change the way I do my uploads here.

I generally know that leaks are something that happend and I dont mind it happening from time to time but if it happends in big bulks + kinda even trash talk me as if I was hoarding my art behind paywalls(which is not true, I simply dont post all my art at all) its discouraging a lot and while Im not a whiny person I do notice my focus shiftinge away from patreon and that sucks.

As some of you may knew I wanted to try make my patreon a good stabil incoming for me to concentrate on art more. but what I notice is that I took on a lot more private commission jobs, printed projects and so on which got me the money but sadly no right to post my art (which I normally hate)and I accepted that because they actually made me feel like my art is worth something(yeah sounds sad but its true lol)

I wanne try and get back to a better posting behaviour and hopefully sort the leaking issue somehow, Im awared I cant stop it all but I hope maybe the person wants to speak up to me and we can talk about it. I dont want drama really.

Im always here for an open ear and feedback and I cheerish you guys for even staying around without hearing a word from me at all. Its the true reason why I even thought about speaking my mind a bit about what bothers me.

I havent been really open about personal stuff like that in years cause urgh you know "artist are whiny" "drama drama yadda yadda" "they only want my moneyz" but now that it has been on my mind for longer I just wanted to get it out <3