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[General] Rambling About Life
Added 2024-03-19 01:32:42 +0000 UTC
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For this, I'd have to thank my depression and anxiety (not my autism though). Whenever people see me in the past, I did not get threatened indirectly and maliciously, people would just openly mock me. I don't think I was attractive enough to be "hunted", I kinda wished for more protection in hindsight; since the aggression (from those who didn't like the fact that I existed) is just way too much for someone who had been bullied for their entire life (read: from late kindergarten to middle-late high school). Also, by protection, I meant "guidance" (e.g. self-defense, argumentative skills, self-confidence, (proper) therapy, etc), not the babying you mentioned. I also got the "suck it up" treatment, but with the delicious (not really) addition of "your feelings are invalid, you should socialize more, if people hate you then you should change yourself" etc (that's why as a child, I couldn't find many adults to look up to; most of the adults I look up to as a child are no longer in this world [musicians, philosophers, authors, scientists, medics, etc]). It's a cruel world for everyone, yet it's uniquely cruel to everyone of us.
Estahv
2024-03-31 08:06:01 +0000 UTCYour comments are always so sweet and thoughtful <3 Times definitely have changed and you would think parents would be different nowadays but it seems like they are less caring.
ASMR Serena Valentine
2024-03-20 20:18:49 +0000 UTCSecond person who I have heard online talk about incidents they have had with predation. Iron mouse talked about similar scenarios like yours growing up in the city. I'm kinda just left stupefied, I couldn't see myself behaving that way yet I know there are folks like that. And as a guy I just have to sit here and wonder how women continue on and make relationships with men when throughout their life their being preyed upon. I agree that my brother has babied my niece, yet in your stories you had your sibling there or someone to help like the lady at the Bodega. Yet God forbid that one time your alone... Scares me to think it. Back then the neighbors knew each other, they knew whose kid you were and would all watch you walk down the block from school or to the bodega for snacks. Now....no one pays attention no one connects. I remember my mother telling us to fight if someone put their hands on us. Yet we're boys statistically it's a lower chance. I dunno there doesn't feel like an easy choice, either the world's gotta change for the better or you enrole your kid in boot camp for basic training just to survive. Also I like hearing you talk, I look forward to it every night. It's become so clock work I know when to grab my phone and check. I remember your stories and regardless if you retread an old topic, I rather hear it again because it means something is on your mind.
NightofTwilight
2024-03-19 02:21:02 +0000 UTC
