Sometimes it's just not your day.

Day hasn't gone well. Which sucks because I was having a very good run there!! I feel as though I may have knocked myself out of my comfy little bubble by driving to Detroit and bringing old stuff back into my life. Like some of the old bad Texas juju was in there as well. 

Gross. 

I came home (to my moms) to find that all my stuff had been moved and thrown into a small room by her boyfriend. He didn't seem careful with anything and I'm hoping he didn't break my new ring light. I tried to put that aside because that's his normal childish behavior and carry on. 

I brought half my stuff in and I started organizing. I put some stuff away and then I looked at the piles of clothing and honestly just didn't know what to do with it because I have very limited space where I am currently. But then I just got very angry. 

I was angry that I couldn't have my stuff. I was angry at the space I don't have. I was angry at the non-welcome environment that I live in. I was angry that I can't cook there. I was angry that my food always gets eaten. I was angry that I'm confined to a 10x10 room with only a tiny walkway to get to the bed. I was angry that I have no space to do my hair or my make up. I was angry that I don't wear my clothes just because I can't see them or get to them and I really love my clothes. I was angry that I keep diet coke cans in my room just so I don't have to walk by my moms boyfriend when he's drunk and put up with his comments, sometimes groping or him potentially throwing beer on me. 

I.WAS.ANGRY.

So I quit. I put everything back into the boxes and I left them there in my room. I ordered my favorite pizza and I went to bed. I slept for 12 hours. 

I got up and I spoke to my friends about whether or not I should get an apartment. Since, that really wasn't the plan. I just got out of debt and now I wanted to be saving for a house. Which obviously would take some time. But apartments here are both expensive and shitty. And I don't want to get into a position where I'm spending $1400 a month plus whatever on top of that for a space that I hate being it. Because I would be sleeping there and working there. 

Some were for it, some were against it. I still don't know what to do but I did email about a couple places. One I really really like but it's $1700 a month. Ugh!!!!!!!! No one I know who owns a home pays that for their mortgage!

And then, work today was just....weird, I started a ton of things and didn't finish most of them. I started working on my person stuff and decided I hate all the new branding I made or....I'm questioning whether or not it fits into what I want to do. At the end of the day one of my clients kind of came down on me and insulted me but in a nice way which was still shitty. And the one apartment I liked is being signed for tomorrow.....so there are only basement holes left. 

The universe may be telling me to stay put for now. But all the rest of it I'm unsure why it's all been so hard today. 

We did get a new moon if you believe in that type of stuff. 

NEW SEPTEMBER MOON:

"This is a cleansing, healing and transitional month. It is a time for tying up loose ends & completing cycles that have repeated over the past 9 months or 9 years. 

Old habits and harmful connections and patterns will fall away and be replaced with profound wisdom and healing. Doors will be closing, chapters will be ending and areas that have felt bewildering finally come to completion. 

September vibrates on a magical, mystical and abundant frequency. It resonates with luck & amazing fortune, so expect to be blessed with miracles, positive news and a flow of unexpected opportunities and new possibilities. 

This month brings insights, clarity, spiritual answers and enhances intuitive abilities. Persistence pays off hard work is rewarded and all accumulated harma is repaid. Numbers 11:11 333 66 & 99 affirm your destined path."

So today isn't my day. But instead of pushing harder like I would have in the past I'm going to let things sit and settle. Something will come up along the way to push me in the right direction. No decisions need to be made today.