Thank you all for your patience! Things are still going slow, but I'm already feeling much more relieved in general.
I made this a dA post as well, and wrote some more on that topic (the inbetween stage though is of course Patreon exclusive for now ;> )
The short of the dA post is basically: I am able again to approach personal pieces without a feeling of pressure/stress and able to enjoy free time from school without a sense of quilt! Progress! But I'm still being cautious
https://www.deviantart.com/remarin/art/h-822222126