hey ho!
Added 2019-11-17 18:14:28 +0000 UTCI gotta take a break for a while, I wrote a rambly post on deviantart about the situation https://www.deviantart.com/remarin/journal/Heyho-update-820594466
But in short I'm basically getting myself into a burn-out from not being able to meet my own expectations :'I
it's been going "fine" for a very long time, but my physical health started getting impacted from the stress just recently. So, now in hindsight I've not actually taken a proper break from everything career/projects related since more than a year ago. (like yeah I kept taking breaks to deal with the stress, but I never actually let go of the underlying pressure/guilt of "gotta be productive" during any of those times)
So while school is basically just a routine for me, the things I do at home, online or productivity wise, was basically directly connected to "personal progress towards career stuff" which has gotten to a snail's pace or even a standstill.
I'm still rambling over here I feel like, but the conclusion was that I just really needed to take a clean break from everything I feel like I'm "supposed" to be able to do - regular updates, activity, personal pieces, commissions, studies etc, because my inability to do them just caused constant stress? And I totally forgot to just.. you know... have fun? It was difficult to pin point since it still worked occasionally, but I had forgotten that that used to be...like...the norm.
So YEAH! Brain stuff is weird. I'll take a break from online activity, but still, I thank you guys so much for your patience with my unpredictability. It might be weird to say, but I couldnt have wished for a better environment for a situation like this? Anyone I've spoken to has been so understanding and I love you all so! I might recover quickly to be able to just post fun stuff again, but promising anything would basically defeat the point of taking a pause from stress wouldnt it now. But still, I hope I'll be back on track soon
