Requests

Estella received another message on her page, a guy wants to meet her. It's not the first request she got. And It won't be the last. She have never met a devotee or admirer of paraplegia. Some don't like to be called that but how else should you describe it. For her it's scary and risky to meet one, because it's not easy to trust people especially online, and if they are anonymous then who knows what will happen. Mutual trust is needed to arrange a meeting. And she will never do it for nothing because to her, there is not really a benefit to it for her personally. For the guy there is. He describes her as his dream girl and he want to meet in secret so his wife won't find out. 

There is a grey area here.. It's not like they are lovers or  friends.. It's different. Most people in this world do not know what this fetish/interest is. The few who know, are the admirer themselves and the disabled people who get approached. You might say it's a taboo. Nobody really understands it. A lot of women like Estella would not even think about it. They see it at something disgusting. Estella doesn't like to judge like that.

She asked him why he'd never told anyone. "Because people don't understand". He is in contact with a few with similar interest, but only online. If the internet wasn't here it would be a very lonely world. He likes to watch pictures and videos of women with paraplegic legs and feet. He likes that they don't move and even if a woman would try so hard to move her body, it's impossible. 

Estella has accepted that there are guys like this, with this interest. She doesn't always agree with their approaching or how they deal with the situation. But she has empathy and can relate to not fitting in a box. 

Since she had an accident which left her paraplegic for life, she went through a lot. It's been very hard to learn to deal with the new situation and especially how the body is not   working anymore. Her lifeless legs she has to drag along with every transfer, every day, multiple times. Her arms became stronger because of a the lifting and rolling around in the wheelchair. Her legs are getting skinnier every week it seems. The bones are showing and the muscles are no longer giving protection. The bruises are a becoming regular and the skin is very dry most of the time. She has to be extra careful, she has to take care of her paralyzed body. 

The guy had seen her videos and he can't deny he gets really exited. He wants to meet her soon, when his wife is on a holiday. He doesn't wan to to cheat but at the same time he feels like this is his biggest dream. He wants to see Estella rolling around in real life. He wants to help her putting her feet in shoes, he wants to help her if needed. See her doing a transfer and  touch her legs. 

But Estella is not convinced, why should she meet with this guy? He wants to go on a date and touch her. It has to be in secret. There is nothing to it for her. It's just a risk.. meeting a stranger and how can you trust that? What if he forces things she does not want. All these questions are inside her head. Just attention is not a good reason, she can get attention from guys she knows she can trust and that are single. For the trill? She only  takes risks if there is a reward that's worth it. She is thinking about it because she gets these requests over and over again. Like there is no way around it. A guy should show he is to be trusted and there should be something in it for her. Then maybe, just maybe...

He wants to meet in a hotel, 5 hours away. To travel for a stranger that is just another reason to not do it. And she will never want to meet in her personal environment either. There is a lot to this. 

The only thing.. she can think of is that, it's like a little adventure, and she is curious to maybe meet an admirer who likes her disability. Usually people are scared of her and the wheelchair. People are afraid to approach her and they will never see beauty in her paralyzerd body. She might like it a little to be accepted on that matter. She doesn't see the beauty in it herself but she appreciates that another person can actually enjoy her paralyzed body-parts. But the Cons beat the Pros at this point. She wouldn't  want to meet with just any admirer, it has to be a friendly, respectful and understanding person. 

He might have to try harder... How would you convince her?