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A heartfelt confession

Hi, guys.

I wanted to talk to you about something that has been weighing on me for a long time. I know that many people are frustrated because I end up abandoning the stories I start. And you have every right to feel that way, I feel terrible about it too.

The truth is that it was right after I abandoned Game Creator System that I realized there was something wrong with me... Even though I had written less than 100 chapters, I was completely exhausted, even though I had written stories with more than 300 chapters before, and I couldn't understand why this was happening to me again and again.

So I decided to seek help from a psychologist.

During this process, I discovered that I am autistic.

This helped me understand a pattern that had been with me for years... Whenever I start a story, I go into such an intense hyperfocus that I write nonstop, stopping doing things I enjoy (playing LoL or other games), stopping going to the gym, and ignoring all my body's limits, staying up until 5 in the morning writing nonstop.

This seems great at first, but after a while, fatigue sets in, I start to feel like doing other things, and burnout comes. In my head, the story becomes a huge weight, even if I still like it.

And then I completely freeze up.

I'm not saying this as an excuse. I know how much this affects those who follow my work. I just want to honestly explain what has been happening to me.

Since then, I've been trying to do things differently. I even tried to go back and write some of the old stories, as you may have seen here, because I really wanted to continue what I left behind, but I realized that I still have a huge block with them. It's as if I can no longer enter that creative space where everything flowed before. And as much as I want to, I still don't know how to get back there.

So, for now, I've decided to focus on continuing my treatment and getting stronger first. What I can promise is that one day, when I'm better, more prepared, and more balanced, I still want to finish those stories, since they're what brought me here.

I tried to get back to “Writing Manga in a Fantasy World,” but I fell into the same pattern of writing intensely and burning out again.

But the good news is that I'm already figuring out how to improve on that.

I've been writing a new story for a few weeks now, and this time in a completely different way: I'm setting daily limits, taking breaks, and being careful with myself.

And the results have been very good.

I'm managing to keep up the pace without burning out, I still do what I enjoy during the day, even though my mind never stops thinking about the story, and that has given me enormous confidence that this story will go far.

I would like to sincerely apologize to those who were disappointed in me. And thank you from the bottom of my heart to those who are still here. I am doing my best to change, with awareness, responsibility, and respect for you... and for myself as well.

Thank you for sticking with me.

Comments

You are correct that it is irritating however, that is only because the storys you write are that enjoyable. Please do focus on recovering first. That is the most important thing, the rest can come up later.

Dudeman

Now reading this i am ok now because though i am frustrated and i have been trying to find a book that's close to gamer superstar your health is more important

Kia YaHoon

Good luck from someone in a similar situation.

Frostypine

Hello everyone free user here. I have a question. I’m close to finishing MGMS on WebNovel and saw that the lowest sub price only gave 5 unedited chapters ahead of release. Does that include old ones? Like once I reach ch. 226 on Web novel am I only limited up to 231 on here? Or can I read up to 242?

Bunni


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