It can take time, 2021 to 2023 - Artist real talk

I've always been quite a harsh critic on myself, I think we all can be like that with one thing or another, I remember when I first started drawing Endhawks if I'm being honest, not having much fun because I just couldn't get it to look how I wanted, which was funny considering I had barely ever drawn male anatomy until I got into drawing Hawks and Endhawks, I was basically ripping myself a new arm for not being magically good at drawing something I had no experience drawing before, somehow in my mind I thought I had to do it perfect from the start back then.

So you can understand my surprise when I redrew this sleeping Endhawks sketch, and now I fondly realize not just the obvious anatomy errors of the old 2021 version, but how far as an artist I'm come with the style, faces, anatomy structure, even more interesting of a revealation was how to convey weight and body interaction as well, things that sometimes as artists we don't always tend to think about until you drawing NSFW or two bodies interacting.

Seeing the side by side of 2021 vs 2023 version I've found a sense of pride in myself, like wow, yeah I really have come far, I took longer than other artists did, but I found a way to draw them both eventually!    Am I entirely happy with how I draw Enji? Not always, and i'm okay admitting that, but I am 10 times happier with how I draw him now vs back then, I laugh cause I never realized how scrawny I drew Enji back then! I draw him so much thicker now! xD

But the biggest eye opener is that, it takes time, everyone learns at different speeds, it took me two years to get to this point and it literally could of taken me longer, it's still on-going honestly! But I only got this far because I loved Endhawks that much and everyone in the Endhawks fandom was so kind and inspiring that I refused to give up, and I'm glad I didn't, otherwise I honestly believe I wouldn't of learned as quickly as I did.

I think this is something everyone should do! Go back and see where they started from with a hobby and see the sweat, tears, determination, love, and more that you've put into getting yourself to this point current point in time.

Just something I wanted to share, because the difference is so SO startling to me, especially  considering it's only a 2yrs difference!
Thanks to everyone, everyone that has followed me, when I say I'm stumbling through doing art, I really do be telling the truth! 🤣