August summary.

Umm, I guess I should start with a TLDR for the people who do not have time to read everything I have to say and then get to the specifics of what happened this month:

I do feel really bad for giving you all less content than usual and I will try my best to post more in September, but this month was the crazies in the last like 5 years of my life and I'm basically falling apart right now. I will post part 8 of "New Beginnings" on 30th-31th.

Now I will get in more details and... I'm sorry if you will see a lot of misspellings here, but I just want to speak from my heart right now without overthinking if I spelled everything correctly, English is my third language after all and I spend I lot of time re-checking what I write before I post it and even then, I'm sure you guys can see it's a bit clunky sometimes (i'm planning on working on that, tho).

I know it's August summary, but the first thing I want to talk about happened back in July and I still can't just forget about it. I'm talking about the fact that I had to delete a story when I was literally writing it because the model changed her mind and didn't want me to use her pics for my story after saying yes right away. I'm not trying to blame the model or anything like that, she didn't have to say yes at the first place, I understand that, but it still feels awful to just throw 3 weeks of my work away.

Then, after I found a new model and started writing a new story, everything was fine-ish untill August 3rd when my tooth started to hurt like crazy and I couldn't sleep for 3 days before going to the dantist because it only hurt when I was trying to sleep and everything was good during the day and I was hoping the pain will go away at some point. It didn't go away and I ended up getting it removed. Things got better and the only thing that bothered me was the fact that I couldn't go to the gym and even though I'm not really "I can't just sit at home all the time and I need to see other people/talk to them every single day" type of guy, I bet the people who goes to the gym on a regular basis will understand me when I say how frustrating it is to not being able to do it when you want to, it becomes like a habbit at some point and you feel kind of bad without it. Then, after almost 2 weeks of eating mostly yogurts and other types of soft food to make sure I won't screw everything up, when I thought I have nothing to worry about anymore, on August 20, my birthday, I decided I can cut myself a little slack and eat ONE VERY SMALL PIECE OF MY DAMN BIRTHDAY CAKE and oh boy how wrong I was, There were teeny tiny pieces of nuts inside it and one of these pieces got right into the nearly healed hole, the whole right side of my face got super swollen the next day and I had to go to the dentist again to see if everything is okay. It wasn't okay, but nothing like too bad, just had to take another short course of antibiotics and go back to soft food for another week and by now, August 29, everything is fine on that side of things.

More recently, literally this night, my dad got super sick and got taken to the hospital this morning, which is, of course, worries me a lot all the time because the diagnosis is pretty serious. Don't want to get into too much details here, just will say it is heart-related problems and his doctor is expecting him to stay in the hospital for at least 2 weeks if the treatment goes well, if it doesen't - who knows...

In the end I want to say that I never really talked about my persoanl life on social media and it does feel weird to write all of this right now, but I want you all to know that I'm not just slacking here and, as I said in TLDR, I feel really bad about not giving you the "usual" amount of content, but I hope you can understand that even the guy who's writing erotic stories and post them online is a real person too, and when a lot of bad things happen in such a short time, I simply can't focus on writing like some type of a soulless robot. Hope the next month will be better and I will be able to post more. Love every single one of you, stay tuned <3