a difficult update

Without going into too much detail; stuff over here at House Foulveins is not grand. 

There's been a lot of personal issues that are getting in the way of my mental well being, to the point where it's affecting what is now more than a hobby; my artwork. I won't divulge what's what; I want to keep my personal life separate from work; but throwing myself head first into work is obviously not the best way of dealing with things outside of it. And it's beginning to show. 

For example: a enormous percentage of what you see in my artwork is ported over to the Source engine, entirely by myself. Not just characters, not just the nude models, even things as inconsequential as background props. 

These things take a lot of time to port across and made usable. Even something as simple as a chair or a table can take as long as half an hour for me to port to a usable state from one game or source to Valve's Source format. When you have a lot of models like that, it all adds up. I have spent entire days doing nothing but researching how to rip from games nobody else is doing (such as recently, Idolmaster or FATE/Grand Order Extella), or fixing models that have ended up mangled by the limitations of the Source engine, or porting tons of smaller, static models, to the detriment of my own well being.

I have gotten up in the morning, taken a shower, had my breakfast and I've sat down at my computer, only to be like "Fuck, I guess I have to do this now." Coming to that conclusion scares me.

I don't want what I actually enjoy to become a chore.

I haven't had time to decompress and unwind. I'm getting aggravated by the smallest of things because I'm not allowing myself to stop working. I'm running a business (as minor as that is, I am being paid for the work I do whether its by my Patreon subscribers or independent commissions) and business should also not come at the expense of someone's well being.

So the tl;dr -- I'm pulling back a bit.  Updates are going to be spaced a little more now. The weekly 4K upload may become monthly. I may have to limit commissions solely to Patreon. 

I'm not thinking of quitting, no way. I enjoy doing lewds way too much to quit. But at the same time, I don't want this to become something I dread doing, something that I end up doing because I feel I have to. When it gets to that point, that's when I will quit.

But I don't want to get to that point any time soon. This is necessary for me not to end up flipping the table and quitting something that I actually enjoy doing entirely.

I thank you all immensely for the continued support; and I hope you understand. 

I'm not going anywhere; but I do need space to breathe.