Ever since I had cancer, I've heard this a lot.
The truth is, I'm not really happy with my body. I know it might sound absurd, but it's just how I feel at the moment.
I used to look better. The anti-nausea meds f*cked me up during chemo and made me a hungry beast, never feeling satiated. I could eat as much as physically possible and still feel hungry.
I gained 10kg/22 lbs. It was hard seeing myself change, and while I lost almost half of that today, it's still hard to see how much my body was altered.
It takes much more than I thought to discipline myself. In fact, I feel like I have no discipline. Losing weight isn't easy, I feel very addicted to sugar, I've always had a sweet tooth. Even realising those things isn't making it easier.
But I'm working on it. I'm trying. I'll keep trying and I will make it at some point.
People online don't care what you go through, or won't bother to understand your journey. They'll just comment mean things as a hobby and move on. It's fine, I'm putting myself out there after all, I'm used to it. It's just sad
I wasn't sure if I should share this but maybe talking about it makes it less of an obstacle
If you read until here, thank you
Have a frog πΈ
jim zepeda
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