Personal news.
Added 2018-04-19 15:33:25 +0000 UTC
Today is a sad day.
For those who know, my mom passed away in July last year, after fighting nasty cancers for years. Due to a genetic mutation called BRCA1, it just wouldn't go away.
Today I got the results of my genetic test and I turned out positive for the mutation.
I'm really crushed, I tried to prepare myself to the eventuality it may be positive but I wasn't really ready for it
What passed through my mind first today is how much my mom suffered, even ehile standing strong as much as she could, and that I could end up the same way.
I'm very scared of when I'll be 40 and I will need to remove my breasts and ovaries to lower the risks of getting sick.
I know it doesn't mean much to all of you, I'm just a random cosplayer on the internet, I guess, but it's important for me to keep in touch with all of you. You're the reason I keep going the way it is and I couldn't make it without all of you.
I'm not ready for what the future holds but I have time to prepare myself to it. And I hope to have you all around still by then
Stay awesome everyone, and thank you for all the things you do, know that I read every of your comment everyday, and answer to everyone I can.
A special thanks to YuzuPyon for being the awesome friend she is, which supports me through everything I have to endure. I'm lucky to have her by my side
~ Miko
I was drawing so I decided to scroll down your patreon till find some interesting pose, and I found this
I know it can sound fake since you are someone who I'd never talked to, but it really broke my heart to read it, since I can see the good person you are, I totally realized it when you decided to tell the problem with the house in your Instagram stories, keep fighting Miko, you can overcome this!
Genos
2018-11-28 02:34:17 +0000 UTC
keep fighting Miko <3
2018-05-29 14:48:31 +0000 UTC
[je crois que mon précédent com a bugué, je te le remet ici, en espérant pas de redite !]
Réaction un peu tardive de ma part (et en français pour mieux m'exprimer), ayant eu besoin de faire un certain process de mon côté face à cette nouvelle, je suis moi-même assez jeune et incertain face à l'avenir, aussi ça ne laisse pas indifférent, et je compatis !
Je te souhaite de pouvoir garder espoir et que tu auras aussi facilement que possible les moyens d'affronter ça, mais surtout en premier lieu, que rien de tout ça n'arrive, évidemment ! Sans compter le parallèle avec ta propre parente qui, en soi, doit être bouleversant…
Je dois avouer que tu n'es pas "a random cosplayer" pour moi. Je dois même avouer que je suis souvent un peu jaloux d'autant de succès, de talent, et de beauté !… Même si ce n'est évidemment que mon gosse intérieur qui réagit de façon aussi puérile. Et quand je vois tous les petits c**s (ou même petites c***es peut-être) qui te harcèlent ou te critiquent (en message privé ou commentaire, ou en vidéo Youtube), je ne peux que coller une double-claque à mon gosse intérieur en lui montrant que ce n'est pas la peine d'en rajouter ! (et je trouve excellent que tu sois allée voir un avocat pour clore le bec et obtenir justice contre la personne qui te manquait ouvertement de respect sur YouTube).
Je follow un certain nombre de Cosplayeuses (heu je veux dire de Cosplayers…) sur Twitter, mais il y en a très peu dont le Patreon m'intéresse réellement ou autant, et attire aussi régulièrement mon attention (mais quelle attention !… J'en ai de légers frissons de chaud et de froid rien que d'y repenser ^^ Et c'est plein de couleurs vives ou plus douces, et de belles lumières…).
Il semble certain que tu as une carrure plus grande et profonde que quelqu'un qu'on appellerait "lambda" (impliquant que qui que ce soit correspond à ce terme, assez abstrait, subjectif et un peu injuste…). A toi de voir ce que tu souhaites en partager et en faire. Quoique tu en fasses, ce sera assurément toujours le bienvenu (au moins pour moi) sur ton Twitter comme sur ton Patreon ou ailleurs !
Et je te souhaite que ça dure, tu nous donnes beaucoup de très belles et bonnes choses, ce sont de véritables cadeaux, et ces choses sont précieuses "dans ce monde de barbare" (je commence à parler comme un vieux poète réac donc je vais essayer d'arrêter là).
Bon courage pour l'installation !
✬✦✩ See you, Space Cowgirl… ✵✶✧
SGTim
2018-04-23 01:55:39 +0000 UTC
My heart goes out to you. But, you are ahead in some ways. First, you are already on top of looking for this cancer. And second, having the mutation does not guarantee you getting the cancer. Please, keep on top of current research. We (your fans) are out here rooting for you!
2018-04-20 21:06:07 +0000 UTC
Thank you
Mikomi Hokina
2018-04-20 17:38:26 +0000 UTC
I'm sorry to read this i just became a patreon today but i follow you in Twitter and instagram. I know is hard to know this but you're strong and you overcome this situation. Stay strong and healthy.
German Juarez
2018-04-20 17:37:10 +0000 UTC
You are in my prayers. Keep your head up because even after a great storm there is a rainbow.
Auston
2018-04-20 16:00:05 +0000 UTC
I think you have ssen my message in Instagram, in your secondary profile I've posted that message: Oh, no, how bad, horrible, how strong all this! But I know you can. Keep it on! Be strong and don't fall to a worse moment! We all are you! We'll pray for you! You can trust me, I can help you whenever U want. We love you for something! We love you 'cause you have always a smile on your face, and you always make us want to be with you because of how good you are with us and with yourself. We love you because you make us laugh, you make us cry, you make us love you for what you are. One of the best and most important people in the world. I know this is a hard blow and very difficult to overcome, but everyone (I guess, at least I will) will be always there to help you as much as possible. Call me whenever you want. If one day you're down, talk to me and I'll help you. I'm at your dispose. Go ahead and never stop to think the bad things in life. Not everything is good! We love U, you know it! It hurts to know all this, but never forget us. First your health, and then everything you want. Always Miko!💪💖😢 ~Marc
2018-04-20 15:22:16 +0000 UTC
Stay strong and it will be ok beautiful girl. You’re beautiful no matter what- N-pool
Nick A. Montenegro a.k.a. N-pool
2018-04-20 15:15:14 +0000 UTC
After the storm comes the rainbow
2018-04-20 14:22:47 +0000 UTC
This really warms up my heart, I can't express how grateful I am for such kind words
Mikomi Hokina
2018-04-20 10:08:52 +0000 UTC
Thank you
Mikomi Hokina
2018-04-20 10:08:30 +0000 UTC
Stay strong Mikomi. It may be easy for me to say it when you have to face it. But positivity and support feom love ones do help. My aunt passed away last year from cancer. Her daughter is also diagnosed with breast cancer and had gone through chemotherapy. Not easy for me as the people i love was lost from it now i'm afraid my cousin will also face the same ordeal. Lucky for her she noticed the lumps early. So be strong 'cos chemotherapy can make you weak and even feel very2 depressed. Pray for your health and be strong. Don't think about it too much and be happy as much as you can.
2018-04-20 08:06:28 +0000 UTC
Wishing u all the best lovely ... I’m sorry to hear about ur bad news ... keep strong 💪 I know the cosplay community will support u no matter what
Jeremy Rackley
2018-04-20 02:05:02 +0000 UTC
Je viens de voir la nouvelle, et j'ai juste envie de te réconforter autant que possible. Moi-même étant un random peon de Patreon, je ne pense pas pouvoir peser avec mes mots, mais je ne peux pas m'empêcher de penser à ce que tu traverses... Une épreuve certes personnelle, mais pas forcément solitaire. Je suis avec toi.
2018-04-20 01:00:09 +0000 UTC
*hug* You're someone who's hurting, that's more than enough to make me want to wish you the best and pray I could take any of your pain away. I've only followed you for a little while so I don't feel comfortable saying I know your full measure but from what I do know and from the interactions I've had and seen you have with others, you are a good, strong person. I don't know much about the specific mutation, whether it's a guarantee that you'll have the same issues or if it's just a possibility. I know this is terrifying and as much as everyone would like to, we can't take that fear from you. But do know we support you and care about you an so your well being.
2018-04-20 00:39:15 +0000 UTC
do not resign yourself to any fate. Be strong, Live healthy, and try be positive. I know its hard, but there are NO certainties in life. Good or bad.
Benjamin Nuzzi
2018-04-19 21:52:35 +0000 UTC
While it is true that there is too much going on in most people's lives to be able worry about every "random cosplayer", or person, out there, nobody wants you to get seriously ill, or ill at all. I haven't been following your pages for very long, but you seem like a positive part of the community, and I enjoy your posts. I hope that you will stay healthy, and that you can live your life the way that you want.
Andrew Kranak
2018-04-19 21:39:20 +0000 UTC
Sending you good thoughts and internet hugs! I’m sure that not only your fans but alot of us fellow cosplayers are here for you, it’s good opening up like this, don’t be afraid to lean on ppl, I’m positive you’ll be well and vigilent with your health! Stay strong! ❤️
Hidori Rose
2018-04-19 20:56:15 +0000 UTC
Miko! Try to stay positive! Gotta live happy and hard for as much as possible! I know is easier said than done but we gotta try! So hang in there your community loves you!!!!
2018-04-19 20:26:56 +0000 UTC
You’re definitely not just a random cosplayer to me Miko. You are an important part of my life and a big part of my happiness. It’s not only your craft that is awesome but also you yourself too. I truly enjoy your company on discord because those times are fun and filled with laughter. I hope the test results don’t bring you down for to long because you honestly deserve all the success and happiness in the world. You’re an amazing and very kind person and I hope that health won’t be an issue going forward. I’m truly lucky to know you and be a part of your life. So I hope you’re around for a very very long time because I never want you or this community to go away ❤️
2018-04-19 20:02:24 +0000 UTC
That sucks, but guess it only raises the chances for you getting it doesnt mean you will get it still in general. Also Medicine is getting so forward the last days so it might be cureable when you reach that age. Dont get your positive energy go down. You still have alot of time till then aswell. Enjoy what is up ahead even though its understandable that you worry about it. I still hope it will go as well as possible
Bene R.
2018-04-19 19:43:48 +0000 UTC
First off, you're definitely not just "some random cosplayer" and I'll definitely be sticking around till the very end(and may there never be an end). I'm sure it's a shock and I'd be lying if I said I know how you feel but I wish you the very best and to stay positive and hopeful. Modern medicine is improving and something might be on the horizons in the near future. Keep your head held high and most of all, keep smiling and stay awesome 😊
Aura
2018-04-19 19:13:03 +0000 UTC
Thank you, it means a lot to me, I'm glad to be surrounded by such wonderful people
Mikomi Hokina
2018-04-19 18:47:30 +0000 UTC
I wont let myself go down, but I'm surely in a bit of shock after today's news
I think time will ease it
Mikomi Hokina
2018-04-19 18:47:21 +0000 UTC
I'm sorry for your losses, I know how hard it is
I hope to do fine if it ever happens, just a bit shocked for now
Mikomi Hokina
2018-04-19 18:46:39 +0000 UTC
Thank you so much, I hope she'll be doing fine, no one deserves this kind of things
Mikomi Hokina
2018-04-19 18:46:03 +0000 UTC
Thank you
Mikomi Hokina
2018-04-19 18:45:27 +0000 UTC
I really hope they'll find something to fix it soon, in the meantime there isn't much I can do, I'm just shocked by the news tbh :(
Mikomi Hokina
2018-04-19 18:45:18 +0000 UTC
Stay hopefully who knows what medication can be available in the next few years don't give in to despair
SithLordMethos
2018-04-19 18:21:10 +0000 UTC
Really sorry for you, I wish you will be ok now psychically and in the future physically.
Affectively, Yvon ♥
Yvon
2018-04-19 16:56:34 +0000 UTC
I truly feel for you. My mom died of lung cancer when I was four. My stepmom died of cancer as well when a different type of cancer spread to her brain. But at least you know to look out for any symptoms, catching a cancer as early as possible is pretty crucial in any case.
Zalminen
2018-04-19 16:54:39 +0000 UTC
Jeez, that's heavy. My girlfriend is currently in a similar boat; her father passed away due to complications caused by agent orange (Vietnam vet), and she's worried that his exposure to it will have consequences for her. She isn't certain yet; can't afford to get the DNA testing at present, but with that kind of thing it's almost certainly going to factor into her life at some point down the line. I'm so sorry to hear this news from you, but know that you're more than just "a random cosplayer on the internet" to a lot of people, and we're all here for you.
Denizen Blue
2018-04-19 16:17:27 +0000 UTC
I'm sorry for you, hon. I'm sure you will be OK, but all my best wishes are headed your way.
Vex (Mark) Vocalord
2018-04-19 16:14:10 +0000 UTC
You have my deepest sympathy. I have already said more on Facebook.
2018-04-19 16:00:06 +0000 UTC
When you believe your future and having relax mind, you will see bright future! Stay strong and relax.
2018-04-19 15:59:44 +0000 UTC
Keep strong and vigilant, Miko. You are in our best thoughts.
Jerry
2018-04-19 15:49:56 +0000 UTC
If you were just a random cosplayer on the internet, I don't think we'd be supporting you. I wish you the absolute best, and urge you not to lose hope. Gene Editing is becoming a thing rapidly, and correcting something like this is exactly what it is made for. Hopefully in a couple years they'll be able to correct this in you.
Joseph Loder
2018-04-19 15:47:06 +0000 UTC
I didn’t know this about you. Thanks for sharing something personal Miko ❤️
starsrm
2018-04-19 15:45:57 +0000 UTC
I will always be there for you Miko, and we're going to make sure you stay healthy all your life, you will never have to suffer the same fate cause we'll make sure you go under tests and make all precautions necessary. I think you have a great future ahead of you and you can accomplish so much more than what this result means, your future is more than that. Stay strong! You're not "just a random copslayer" for most of your supporters I think. I'm sure our communities cares a lot about us and always wishes you the best :)
YuzuPyon
2018-04-19 15:45:33 +0000 UTC
Your mother sounds like she was an amazingly strong woman Miko, I'm glad you had someone like her in your life. It's tough to go through someone passing away, I know it. I know it's scary to have something like this, I've actually been through something in that nature too. Medical science is coming a long way though, so there's always hope there. I guess my outlook is always positive though and I don't know why. The way I see you now is that you're like your mother and a strong person. I hope you can always keep that about yourself. Even though I only started following you recently I don't think of you as some random cosplayer. You seem awesome and I view you as a friend. Hopefully you feel the same way to some level. I try my best to care and love every person, and you are no exception. If you want to talk to me I'm always available on discord. If you ever need anyone or anything let me know, I'm always willing to help someone else or just be there for them. This is now a huge wall of text and I probably didn't express everything i wanted to. If you want me to be here with you til you're 40 for support I will! Thank you for all the things you do for us!
PeppermintBanana
2018-04-19 15:43:20 +0000 UTC
With the gene editing they are doing now, there should be a retro-virus that can correct the gene in a few years, so the would supply of perfect breasts will not diminish.
bil Jeschke
2018-04-19 15:42:55 +0000 UTC
Don't lose hope Miko, don't let something out of your control consume your life 💚
2018-04-19 15:36:57 +0000 UTC