Status update (Psychologist, diseases, party hard)

Hello people, Natsume here, as you have seen this month I was a little.... missing in internet, no streamings, only 2 or 3 Sketches Nights, no comments here or in my Discord server and I´m comming to give you a explanation about that.

As you know I´ m a Artist that have a tendence to "burn" myself, for example a year ago I had 1 or more weeks where I could not draw nothing, well this time is something like that but different, I was completely apatic, make no mistake, I dont mean I was lazy "oh I dont wanna work I want play mom", the apathy is something more serious, enought serious to " abandon myself " and, for example, have my home in the worst state in years, a empty refrigerator for days or the toilet... well.... you dont want know about it XD , I had not energy or motivation to do literaly nothing, I was bearish (Is that the word?) and frustrated, and, the best part, I was sick all the week with a cold, so I had ever less energy to do nothing. I Dont know how I could go to Madrid to the manga event this past weekend really.

This is no new for me, I mean, I have had "moments" like this all my life, maybe no so strong or long, but "depression" or be lack of self-esteem is something normal for me, and this time was when finally I said "I think that is enough", then I killed myself and I´m a ghost now and... no, is a joke, I finally ask for a sesion with a psychologist, and today was the 1º day, enought to have a basic diagnosis and start to work. I have another sesion the next month and another 2 in May when I come back from Japan, and well this one was not "hard" but apparently they will be, because, in his words "I must attack and destroy your "shield", and in that way you wil be able go out and start to feel better", well this will not be funny.... but neccesary, really when I could become independent from my parents I get a little better, live there was very toxic (my parent are wonderful but you know "you are 32 years old and bla bla bla....", but my "problems" were in my head yet, hidden and crouched, waiting the moment to jump to my neck, but I hope that from now I can... get really better and overcome part of those problems, wish me luck.

Well that is the reason that I was "out" all this time, in this moment I´m with a cold again (I think that is the same cold of the past week who come back after the event really), with a little fever and very tired, the apathy is apparently out thanks to go to Madrid and start to do "stuff" again but I will not be able do all the pages that I usually do this month, well I would be able draw them but very fast and with no quality and you know that I prefer do less pages but with good quality than a lot of shit pages, so this month I will draw the pages of Voralien and the pages of Vore in deep space, I will be drawing the pages of this and the next month of Naga Story the 1º week of March.

The Sketches of the 40$ patrons will be drawed in time, or that is my plan, if you have not sent me what do you want yet, please send me it as soon as you can.

And well with this I said you see ya, I hope be better tomorrow to start to work, I already have the desing for the new Voralien and I only must start to draw the sketches of the pages.

Oh yes I want use this post to talk about another thing, this next 14 of April I will fly to Japan again for 3 weeks, then this next month I must draw all the stuff of April that I can to have it finished in time before I go, then here is the question (I will do a poll anyway in some days), you prefer the usual stuff or that I use that month to draw something special?, I dont know what yet, maybe a mini comic, or ilustrations or something like that, diferent, think about it and as I said I will put a Poll in some days (probably day 28). (Fast idea, maybe pictures of oc vore characters of other artist if they are agree?, for example the pod girls, or the green witch, or something like that...)

See you later people

P.D: BTW here you can find the link to join to my discord server: https://discord.gg/FENPTBW