Burnout and Changes to Patreon Content

So it's with a bit of a heavy heart that I bring you this update. I've been debating this for a good long while, and I don't think I can try and run from it any longer.

I just don't think I can keep up with patreon. But before you reach for that unsubscribe button, please hold on and read below!

I don't entirely plan on canceling patreon. More so I plan on cutting exclusive images. This means no more voting, no more monthly sketches, and no exclusives. At least for the time being. I may post the odd exclusive image here and there, but it will not be the norm. If you want more info on why this is happening and what I plan to do with patreon from now on, read below. Or go to the very end for the TL;DR!

Instead, I plan on focusing more on keeping patreon a means for general support. I'll upload monthly packs of high res images as well as allowing for discounts on stream commissions and early access to the stream form. And if I'm feeling up to it; the rare exclusive image or collab.

Why am I doing this? Well the main reason is burn out. I've recently come to terms that what I enjoy producing, isn't really what people want to see from Klotzzilla. Though I enjoy drawing for others, I struggle to make art that my supporters enjoy when on my own. I'm actually not a very # horny person and I don't really get that, what do the young adults call it? Coom brain? Jokes aside however, this makes it really hard for me to draw content with heart. So when I feel like I need to create 4-5 images a month for patreon, with little to no drive, it tends to lead to burn out. Not to mention I don't want to make half baked content! I tried for a while to restructure patreon. Hoping a change would lead to less burnout. But turns out, the cause wasn't the formula, it's the whole thing.

Is it forever? Who knows! One day, I hope to be more financially relaxed so that I can continue to create for those who support me. Which is why support is important!

Does this mean I hate drawing NSFW? No not at all! I just tend to prefer being told what to draw. Less anxiety of having to create my own ideas. Plus I enjoy making people happy.

Will I be quitting my other 2 patreons? No because they line up more with my core interests and aren't as difficult for me to generate content for.

Am I unhappy with where I am currently with art? Well this one is tough. It's like being a factory line worker; do the work, get a stamp of approval, and send it on. I can't do that forever. I have to explore, experiment, find dead ends, and travel the labyrinth as part of my growth and self-care. Though I do genuinely enjoy creating art for people, I feel stuck. I really want to improve my art. It's just hard when I'm always so busy. Hopefully now I can spend this time practicing my craft to bring everyone higher quality content.

And the last thing I want to touch on, and probably the most important bit is my SFW account. Up until now I've been rather hush hush about it. This is mostly due to the fact that I do not want to be associated with NSFW material when it comes to this account. It's my safe place where I can just enjoy myself and draw the content that I genuinely want to make. Lately, behind the scenes, I've really been working hard on loving my art again through this SFW account. I honestly lost my passion for art ages ago and I'm finally starting to find it again. My goal is to one day have a following for my SFW content. I'd love to pivot away from commissions being my soul income to selling merch and dealing at cons. With support and the time granted from said support, I hope to make this a reality!

✨If you'd like to support me through my SFW account, please DM me here. I'll send over any accounts I can as well as a link to my new Ko-Fi.✨

It's not easy for me to say this, because... well, commissions are my life. Without them I'd be lost. I've found my friends, my life partner, all through commission work. And even though my heart might not currently be in it when it comes to making nsfw content for exclusives, I do still enjoy doing commissions for a living. I love seeing how happy it makes people and I love my commissioners! It's not just about the job.

I was afraid that if I opened up about this, people would leave and stop supporting me, either through patreon or commissions. I've since talked to a few of people, and I've gotten some really strong encouragement and support from friends and patrons alike, so... I'm hoping I have enough supporters who'll stick with me. I'm hoping I'll have the support to stay, and keep making stuff for you all!

So, thank you all for taking the time to read this! Sorry it was so long. In the end, if you no longer want to support me through patreon, that is more than okay! There will be no resentment from me.

But if you do continue to support me, know that it means the absolute world to me. You're all amazing, no matter what you choose to do.

TL;DR:

- No longer going to produce monthly exclusives (for now).

- Burn out and lack of a drive recently is the reasoning.

- I plan on using this time to improve my art style and to feel pride in the art I create.

- I don't plan on stopping commissions. I still enjoy working on them. (New stream set up works great!)

- ✨✨✨I have a somewhat exclusive SFW account. Here I produce content I am super passionate about. DM me if you'd like to support me there as it's what I want to do in life! (Make merch, sell at cons, connect with people more, etc.)

- I love yah all and you're all so wonderfully sweet for supporting me! ✨✨✨