The truth
Added 2023-02-06 19:28:43 +0000 UTCi want to be totally honest about something im going through currently.
It’s extremely embarrassing and makes my eues watery to even type this out.
I’ve been having sever depressive episodes and experiencing involuntary regression in a VERY negative way.
I’ve been in my little room not eating anything or sleeping very much at all. I’m laying in one spot watching anime and playing video games for 3 days now. the only productive thing ive done was film a low energy unboxing after receiving a surprise in the mail from my wishlist… i was so happy to receive those gifts but i could barely even show it because i feel so drained and worthless.
This feeling happens all the time but ill never get used to it.
i dont want to get ised to it!
While i was breaking down, sobbing like a baby and hurting myself my partner (the male that keeps trying to convince me to be his little again) he was so angry and mean the entire time. Making everything 1000x worse.
it was like he was stabbing me while i was already bleeding from a beating.
Being so raw and vulnerable with someone only to have them tear you apart and laugh at you when you need them the most is not something a baby like me (or any baby for that matter) could handle very gracefully.
I habe sever trust issues already and this sent them over the edge.
i dont know if i will ever be able to share my deepest most innerbaby self with anyone ever again after this..
thank you guys for listening, i wont be posting about any of this on my other socials but i wanted to be raw with you guys and clear up any confusion you might have about my lack of energy/situation
