lovesickva

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Added 2025-01-20 20:00:02 +0000 UTC

hello my sweet sweet followers! (๑╹ω╹๑ )

i know i know, i havent updated my blog in a while, and no i dont have any good reason why i havent- ive just been enjoying life as it comes, and boy life been coming fast!!!

number one: my therapist says we can go off my medication! ★彡
apparently my levels have stabilized to a point where i can begin the process of getting off my meds >w<
he always said that they were a temporary tool, but ive been on the for so long i really thought i would be stuck with them forever!! so when he told me the good news i could not believe it!!
i am so excited to start my new life medication free >w<

now for the really really cool news:

I HAVE A BOYFRIEND!! ٩(ˊᗜˋ*)و ♡

kinda

i hope?

honestly im not really sure what we are yet, but i REALLY really like him! we have been going out on dates and ive even met his parents! but he has never asked me officially to be his girlfriend, so like what am i? im not sure-but i really REALLY hope that i am his girlfriend, or that i am going to be his girlfriend soon.
(づ_ど)

everytime my mind wanders at work all i can think about is him. all i want to do is be near him. i wonder what he is up to right now? if i could i would just watch him all the time. but even that isnt quite enough. i HATE how i cant hear his thoughts because all i wanna hear is what he is thinking. his voice is like velvet- i could never get sick of hearing it. ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡

i wondered if i should tell him about my problems- the hardships that ive had to face... my issues.

but for once in my life i think i deserve a clean slate. ive been doing so so good, i deserve to be happy for once in my life and not scare someone off with my obligatory warning label.

this time will be different. i will make sure of it. ദ്ദി(｡•̀ ,<)~✩‧₊