It has been more than 30 years since I started painting. I was influenced by various artists and wondered if I could bring out the feeling I had when I was 20 years old, when I was searching for my own style.
I don't think my style has changed that much, but in fact it has changed quite a bit. But I don't realize it well, and I think that is because I am not able to look at my own pictures objectively.
I have been thinking for 30 years that I should look at my paintings as if they were other people's paintings, but it is a difficult thing to do.
絵を描き始めてもう30年以上経ちます。いろいろな作家さんに影響を受けながら、自分の絵柄を模索していた20歳の頃の絵の感じを出せないかなあと思ってちょっと落描きした絵です。
自分ではそんなに大きく絵柄が変わったとは思わないのですが、実際は結構変わっていますよね。でも自分ではうまく自覚できなくて、それは自分の絵を客観的に観られていないからだと思います。
自分の絵を他人の絵のように観なければ、と思ってもう30年ですが、難しいもんですね。