Just some thoughts..

Good morning.

I had some thoughts I wanted to share about (hopefully) a positive future for my patreon.

But first the hard stuff..

I think its no question that i want to be a comic aftist and character designer full time but shits been rough for me these past few years and ive been doing my best to stay hopefull “after i deal with this all will be better!!” Ive said after every single thing and the fact is… it was never true. Ive been struggling none stop for several years now with no let up and it just seems like things have gotten worse and worse…

Ive come to the realization that I just… wont be getting peace right now for whatever reason and instead of trying to force myself into public desperation or crashing the actual fuck out some way thatll end me up in a padded room or behind bars im just…. Going to accept this life that im dealing with. Idk if shit will get better, i have my doubts but at the end of the day… me doing something to myself will have unhealthy affects on people around me… so as badly as I may be tired and over this planet… im not going anywhere.. wether i want to or not. Im sharing this to be transparent. Ive been lying to myself and in that ive also been lying to you all.

Im not okay. I havent been for years. Nothing has “gotten better” shits been shitty. For years.

And I have to stop acting like im gonna be productive and back on a healthy schedule when my enviornments are anything but healthy and positive.

Truth is.. I’m burnt the fuck out

12hr stream 24hr streams 7 days a week me is gone until further notice. Im deteriorating too much to keep up with my oh so awesome content schedules anymore and it has nothing to do with how often i did them and everything to do with outside sources. I want to make that 1000% clear in no way do I feel like my burn out stems from my actual passions or career im pursuing. I LOVE WHAT I DO AND THAT WONT EVER CHANGE. My mental health is just at a critical state right now and I need to preserve myself or else..

This being said. Works will be slow. Im so sorry.

I wish i could snap my fingers and go back to posting five to seven times a week but i cant. Im strained and I want you to understand that its gotten so bad that sometimes drawing triggers actual pain through the fatigue the panic and anxiety attacks to depression… its hard and even admitting that is a stab in the chest. Im sorry.

But it wont be like that forever i hope. Im currently looking for two jobs, so that was i can save up and pay bills and hopefully releave some serious stress in my life. Once i do, im hoping a better and stronger me will come. A me that can take things back to how they used to be! Posting regularly, hosting streams and monthly gifts and polls. All the great things that you guys support me for.

Which for a moment of positivity here the big project list for posting, from slow posts to regular again

SugarHotline- slice of life sex Ed comic series

Shark Week- short beach breeding comic

PolterGuys- a hot horror comic series about ghost frat boys trying to coming back to life!

Cowbells- a semi- spicy slice of life about a farm girl and a super star guy

Train 0069- a succubus quota comic series about sug and her missions on a week long ride on a luxury train ride

I have so many more stories I want to share and publish so you guys can enjoy them. I also really truly would like to reawaken some old AUs (yes fnaf). I just ask for your patience and to continue to support me while I strugle out of the trenches. I appreciate every single one of you. I always have.

Thank you so much