hisano_x

Depression

Added 2019-05-30 16:52:33 +0000 UTC

This has been heavy on my shoulders lately. Everyone deals with their own unique hardships and is fighting their own battles. But I came across something that I'm trying to sort out in my mind.

Although my projects are generally lighthearted and lewd, I do care about them. And it means so much to me that other people care about them, especially the people here such as yourself that care enough to support me and my significant other in a very tangible way. That said, it hurts to varying degrees when I see that someone has deleted their pledge here, and I find myself questioning why. Most of the time, that question is easily answered by the fact that I don't update nearly as often as I would like, but still, it's a morbid curiosity for me. For that reason, I find myself occasionally browsing through Patreon exit surveys to see the reasons people are giving for deleting their pledges.

One long-term supporter recently deleted their pledge with a general response of "my financial situation changed," but still, the fact that they have been supporting me for so long made me curious. I looked at their Patreon profile, which was a bit sparse except for a lonely link to a blog that I couldn't keep myself from clicking. I read. This person has significant depression and is fighting hard through a tough battle with it.

I know I can't take another person's burdens as my own or fix anyone's problems. I know this, but I can't help but fight back tears right now. I have to do something, to react somehow. So I'm putting this out there for you all. If you need someone to talk to, message me. I don't have helpful advice, or a lot to say, but I can be a sounding board. You mean something to me, and I want to show it, even if it's in a small way. Even if we have never been in contact, or only exchanged a few words. No one should be left alone in the dark.