grief.
Added 2023-05-06 05:32:51 +0000 UTCgrief is something i dont think i will ever understand. i experience grief in a very unnatural way, and it hurts. i love people so much when they are in my life, and when they leave, whether that be through death, or through moving on, i cannot describe their absence.
losing someone to me is very confusing. because most of me still feels like they are there. its never truly felt like ive lost them. its like theyve just become invisible. i do not get sad when people die, but i yearn to hear their voice again. when people move on from me, i am not sad that they arent in my life. i only wish them well and i hope one day we will cross paths again.
sometimes, when i experience grief, i find the selfish desire to wish someone grieved for me as i do for others. i do not want them to be sad, but i want them to wish i was present. i do not know why people cry after death, i think death is the most poetic part of life.
