We need to talk...
Added 2025-02-17 00:10:33 +0000 UTCNo, I am not breaking up with you. :P
So, I am going to be honest with everyone. Who I was when I started book 2 is not who I am anymore. There has been far too much loss in my life in a very short time. Also, death brings out the ugly in people and hoo boy did it bring out the ugly in some people that I know. It's been a lot, and it has affected who I am as an author.
I've been telling myself that I am just going to push through it and do the chapters anyway. That this is my job and money doesn't really wait for you to grieve. And while that is true... also, kind of fuck that?
I do not want to stop writing the Night Market. This is by no means saying that I am done. I pick at it occasionally. But an intense, multi branching story that deals with death, identity crisis, forgiveness, betrayal? A little too much for me while working through some things that have been unearthed through this process. I am writing a novel on the side as well, and it has all taken me in directions that I feel I am not giving you the best of who I am anymore.
I'm proposing a compromise.
I am considering taking a few more months before I dive back in. Really allowing myself some time. Because where book 2 has gone is not actually something I am happy with. Instead, I was considering writing a short Night Market sexy/cozy game. Something a bit less intense. Still with your MC. Still with your RO. I'll put it out on patreon monthly. I'm not sure how it will work with the tiers yet, but I will let you know. But is this something you are interested in? Also, what cozy vibes would you like to see?
I know you all signed up for the angst. I can't deliver that at the moment. But I still want to be a part of this. I still want to create. I still want to talk with all of you.
Let me know your thoughts below. I am willing to brainstorm. Tomorrow I will be beginning some of the writings. Getting something sexy up for the month of Feb.
Thank you all for loving me through this.
Zinnia
Comments
You rock Zinnia. Do what’s best for you. I will support you for as long as I financially can! So unless I go completely broke, you got mé 😭😭😭🥰🥰🥰
Wattisabi
2025-02-18 00:37:41 +0000 UTCCozy isn't to my usual taste but I do enjoy it from time to time and as you've said it's what you need to write. I'm sure it will be a delight.
Anarcho Tribadist
2025-02-17 06:50:12 +0000 UTCI really do think that's what's gotten me. Not that my life is as dramatic as the MC's but just the constant touches of death is making me not feel like I'm escaping. It feels like a reminder now. I need things not to feel so fresh
Zinnia Demitasse
2025-02-17 03:10:00 +0000 UTCThere would be a choice to skip those portions as always in the fiction. I don't like the idea of making someone skim through that if they don't want it.
Zinnia Demitasse
2025-02-17 02:18:05 +0000 UTCCould never hold taking a break against you, sometimes when the lines between fiction and real life blur and cross over in unpleasant ways, you can do nothing but take a step back and work on being okay with getting in that headspace again without the baggage of very real and very potent emotions and memories. 🩵I’d love to see a cozy sexy game, I love the glimpses in the short stories we get of domesticity with the ROs and any chance to play in the sandbox you’ve created is always exciting!
kingdom-dance
2025-02-17 01:21:36 +0000 UTCAfter everything, you definitely deserve a break; what that looks like to you, only you know that answer of course. As for the rest, I personally prefer my stories to be 75/25 cozy to angst so I am 100% on board for cozy. Sexy: I can take it or leave it, as long as it isn't too graphic.
lincrystal
2025-02-17 01:04:50 +0000 UTCYou deserve all the love in the world 'cause you're such an amazing writer :) The angst in the night market is super compelling (I think I thought more about a certain decision in book 1 than any other video game choice I have ever encountered , lol) but I think happiness and silliness will also be super compelling in your wonderful setting and I'll also be (metaphorically) queuing up for cozy content if/when you write it :)
Bethany Hopkins
2025-02-17 00:52:37 +0000 UTCHazel sitting in the background trying to give her pointers but Bella refuses to listen out of pride lmaoooo
Vinny
2025-02-17 00:45:16 +0000 UTCBella keeping a house plant alive is a must!!!! She would get so angry when they started to wilt.
Zinnia Demitasse
2025-02-17 00:37:10 +0000 UTCI would LOVE a cozy game! But most importantly, I would love for you to write what brings you joy and inspiration, whatever that is.
A sandwich
2025-02-17 00:32:11 +0000 UTCObviously priority #1 will always be your mental health/happiness. If you’re not up to writing the main story at the moment, then people will just have to accept that. And if they don’t, then screw them. That being said, I am SO on board for a cozy/sexy game. I personally am not the biggest fan of angst so this idea actually has me more excited lol! Just think of all the scenarios you could write with Belladonna trying (and failing) to be domestic. Like imagine her trying to cook something for MC, or attempting to keep houseplants alive. I would never get tired of reading these! Also I think another story involving our child would be incredibly sweet.
Vinny
2025-02-17 00:23:05 +0000 UTCWould love to see cozy/happy content with the ROs. Even alternate universe content! Where everything is soft and nothing hurts!
Sonia
2025-02-17 00:19:36 +0000 UTCGabriel trying his hardest to be a house husband... trying to understand what a romantic date would even be. You mean you don't work during that? Wha????? :)
Zinnia Demitasse
2025-02-17 00:14:42 +0000 UTCCozy content with Gabriel? How could I be mad about that? 🥰🥰🥰 *hugs*
Daisy Meade
2025-02-17 00:13:24 +0000 UTC
