Lifeupdate // NEED YOUR OPINION

Hi there guys!! I'm here again, giving one more lifeupdate and needing your help once again! Sorry! haha

So as you guys has noticed, since the year started I've been pretty quiet and unactive. I deeply apologize for it. On my last lifeupdate I mentioned about one relative getting so sick.

It's my uncle and he has cancer. I've been visiting him at the hospital and taking care of my family, among other personal stuff that didn't work so good (happy valentines lol)

I'm alright tho!! I just needed to give it some attention and thought you needed some explanations on why.

But there's other reason on my inactivity and i want to be honest, Is important to me that you read this:

You know I always try to be as transparent as I can. As you can see, my art style is changing a bit. You can tell, I was getting burn out. It happens from time to time and it's painful when it does.

I wanted to develop my career as a solo artist and I felt I was always on BMP's shadow. I tried adding a bit of myself on the pictures, but didn't work so good. But i found the right balance: I draw furry outside patreon and yaoi in patreon. And it's a good balance! I enjoy it! BUT...

There's always a but, right?

I've been so artblocked relating patreon monthly rewards. and NO, no cause it's yaoi. The thing that blocks me the more are... sequences. I hate them a lot. Its horrible cause I can't make as cool pictures as I wanted to, since I need to take care on how I set the layers to make sequences later. It's tedious and requires a lot of time, but it's not drawing. I can't seem to enjoy it. Not only that, i hate it so much I get blocked when it concerns it. I want to draw, but then I think on the sequences and loose all the motivation. It maybe sounds rather silly but it really is something that blocks me.

I tried to practice, under a friend instructions (Thank you Maz :*) and tried to love them but as the time passes, it only got me more and more delayed.

For example this January, rewards been ready since 2 weeks ago, just waiting on the sequences. But I can't seem to make them alright ;u; More like a pain.

If sequences are the main reason you want my art, or support the $10 tier, I'll keep doing it. So... I wanted to hear your opinions on this matter ;u;

I was thinking in different solutions such as offering maybe small comic pages instead of cgs or maybe i could try to find extra time and make a third monthly picture...

Sequences, such as normal-cum-postcum without expressions changing is a yes to me, but the others... having to change the faces and the arms and that stuff, kills me. I'm an illustrator, not an animator, when I draw a face i try to give my best on how it looks, but get demotivated when I know I'll have to change it later.

What do you guys think?

Sorry for the long text, but I really needed to be transparent on this as it was killing me.