My First Apartment Chapter 12

I worked until 6 that evening, cleaning and sweeping. Bunny came over just as I got out of the shower. We spent the evening together. We talked about our upcoming date with Stan and Charlie. I have never been to a concert before.

I wasn't very familiar with Lady Gaga's music. I saw her Super Bowl halftime show a few years ago. I knew she was a first-class entertainer. Bunny and I made plans to go shopping for clothes for the concert. I was excited and still nervous about dating Charlie.

Wednesday night I picked up Bunny and we went to the mall. We were trying to find outfits for the concert. We were looking at Lady Gaga-inspired Harajuku style outfits. We both bought black and white graffiti pattern leggings with matching tops, Black faux leather spandex mini-skirts. We bought a large black circular sunglasses and black bowtie gloves. We bought satin hair bowties, mine is white, her's is black. We got short matching black borelo jackets.

We both had black Chunky leather boots already. Bunny and I were giggling the whole time we shopped together. We had to go to several stores to find everything. We were finishing when we realized we needed matching hip purses. We got the last two at Target.

I dropped Bunny at her place and went back home. I was halfway home when Charlie called.

Hey Beautiful!

Hi handsome! I said.

We're still on for Saturday and the concert?

I just finished shopping for it! I said.

You didn't have to do that! He said. He sounded impressed.

I just wanted to fit in! I said.

You look great all the time!

That's very sweet! I said.

We'll pick you girls up at 5 pm at your place. Stan and I made dinner reservations.

I can't wait! I said. I sounded excited, but I was also very nervous.

See ya then! G'night Lana!

G'night Charlie!

I went to bed that evening and had some crazy dreams.

Thursday was another regular day, and I did aerobics and yoga. On Friday it was a bit busier. I was swapping light bulbs, and fixing all kinds of little things in several apartments. Many of the residents complimented me and Bunny on our Hula dancing. A few mentioned support for us with the "Lou incident".

As I got back to my apartment from work, Bunny arrived. She was spending the night so we could get ready for Saturday night. I was up at 8 am Saturday morning. I cleaned up the pool and patio. I dumped the trash. I went back to my place. As I walked through the door my phone started buzzing. It was my Dad.

Hi Dad!

Hi Larry! How are things?

(If he only knew!) I thought to myself.
Great, Dad! Work is going well, and the apartment is great. I'm going to a concert tonight.

Really! With your girlfriend? He asked.

Yes, and a couple of friends! There's a group of us going together! (I had no intention of telling him it was a double date with two guys)

That's great! You'll be safer with a group of people around!

How are you doing? I asked.

Things are going well here. My job is great. The reason I'm calling, Larry, I met someone. She is very nice, her name is Bianca. We have been seeing each other for about a month now.

That's great news, Dad. I'm happy to hear that!

Thank you, son. We plan on visiting you over Christmas, unless something comes up over here.

We talked for about 30 minutes, and I had the phone on speaker. Bunny could hear everything. He told me all about Bianca. He sent me pictures of them from their weekend trip in Milan.

I told him they looked great together. (They really did look good together). I haven't seen my Dad smile like that in a long time.

You need to send me some pictures! I'd love to see a picture of you and your girlfriend! My dad said.

Bunny smiled, but she caught herself laughing. My jaw hit the floor! I had to think fast!

I don't have anything at the moment! I said. (Which was the truth).

When you get a couple, send them. I don't have anything current. He said.

Okay, Dad, I'll work on it! I said.

You better! Dad chuckled. I love you, son! We'll talk soon!

Okay, Dad! I love you too!

When I ended the call Bunny started giggling.

Wow! That was interesting! Bunny said. What are you going to do?

I guess you and I will have to take some pictures together! The only thing is, I will have to dress up as Larry for a few hours. I said.

Do you plan on telling him? Bunny asked.

I want to! Bunny, I do! But, once I tell him, I have no idea what he'll do or say!

For now, you have time! But that clock is ticking. Bunny said.

Thanks, Captain Obvious! I joked.

We laughed.

I have an appointment with my therapist on Tuesday and the endocrinologist on Wednesday. If everything goes well, I'll be starting HRT very soon! I said.

I'm here for you, Lana. Just make sure you are doing this for yourself, not me or anyone else! Bunny said as she kissed me. Her kiss only confirmed what I was feeling about myself. I did feel more comfortable as Lana. Lou and his friends definitely gave me some pause. The more I thought about it the more I felt like Lana. Being around Charlie didn't hurt.

Until my dad called, I hadn't thought about it in a few days. Being with Bunny, I don't think about anything except how happy I am. I've never been as happy as I am right now. I have other things to do right now. Getting ready for our double date with Stan and Charlie.

Bunny played Lady Gaga while we got ready. She wanted me to be halfway familiar with her music before we got to the show. Bunny and I spent the entire day getting ready. Bunny changed her hair color to blonde with black streaks.

She added blonde streaks to my black hair. Bunny used four different shades of foundation on my face. She added false eyelashes and heavy eyeliner to my eyes. It was a very dark and dramatic look she gave me.

Bunny almost looked like a vampire! She looked very sexy. Her facial complexion was almost snow white with dark red, almost black lips. We wore matching sword dangle earrings and cross dangles.

Stan and Charlie were right on time. They were dressed in all black with black work boots. They wore guyliner eyeliner. They looked hot! They took us to Lone Star Steakhouse for dinner.

We got to the Arena two hours early. We had reserved stadium seats. I was relieved, I didn't want to be on the main floor. I was actually surprised how well we blended in with everyone around us. Lots of guys were either dressed like Charlie and Stan or dressed in a form of feminine fashion. It surprised me to see so many feminine-looking guys, about half of them had girls with them. At least I think they were girls.

Stan and Charlie kept us close. It was a little uncomfortable at first, but they were just being cautious. When the show started everyone was on their feet! It was an incredible show. Stan and Charlie bought us T-shirts.

After the show, we went back to my place. Stan sat with Bunny in my living room and I somehow wound up in my bedroom with Charlie. We didn't drink any alcohol during the night. I was sober as can be. I'm not sure why but we ended up making out on my bed.

I wanted to say no, but I was enjoying his affection. I was a little scared at first, but it felt amazing. We both enjoyed touching each other. I heard some small moaning coming from the living room.

Before I knew it, Charlie and I were at third base. I didn't want it to end. He was so passionate and gentle. He wasn't aggressive at all. It turned me on. I started to take off my bra and panties. Charlie slowed me down.

Wait Lana! Charlie said. We shouldn't! Not so soon! I'm sorry! I really like you! I want you, but I think we should wait!

At first, I was upset, but I started thinking, maybe he's right! He was looking at me trying to read my reaction.

It's okay! I understand! I think you are right! I want you too! But I'm sure you are right! I kissed him for being a gentleman. I put on my top and skirt. We walked out of the bedroom together.

Stan and Bunny had their clothes on.

How about next Saturday? Stan asked.

Sure! Bunny said before I could say anything. We'll call you this week and let you know!

Sounds great I said. In my mind, I was wondering where all this was going.

We kissed the guys goodnight and thanked them for a wonderful time.

I was both excited and terrified! I was curious about what it would be like to sleep with Charlie, but I am very happy with Bunny. I could see Bunny was getting friendly with Stan. That sight made me both more curious about being with Charlie for a night and jealous at the same time.

I already had a big question mark about my gender identity, now I'm having a sexual orientation crisis! My mind was spinning again! I had an appointment with my therapist and the endocrinologist this week. I was actually looking forward to both. I've been contemplating starting HRT for a couple of weeks now. I was ready to take the plunge into the Estrogen pool.

I didn't need Charlie or Bunny's approval. I was thinking about it a lot. Almost everyone at the complex treated me as a young woman. Mr Partenza (Tony) always seemed to be looking out for me like I was his daughter. He was very nice. Chloe was like a big sister. We talked multiple times about my decision to start hormones.

Bunny was my girlfriend, and Charlie was acting like a boyfriend to me, or at least the way a nice guy should treat his girlfriend. It was great and I felt safe, but it was confusing too! The other problem I had was, when and how to tell my Dad. He was halfway around the world.

I was scared about what he would say, think, or what his reaction would be. He had a new woman in his life. I liked the idea that he wasn't alone anymore. But how would my decision affect my Dad and his new girlfriend? It was time for bed and I had work on Sunday morning.

Bunny and I showered together and got ready for bed. We cuddled together and fell asleep. I slept in until 10 am. I cleaned up the patio and pool area and dumped the trash. I went back to my place and Bunny was on the phone.

I'll be there in about an hour, she said into the phone.

What's up? I asked.

I was called into work. Two stylists didn't show up this morning. I gotta go! She said. I'll meet you at the gym tonight, okay?

Okay! I said. See you soon!

Bunny kissed me and left. The timing seemed weird. Maybe she was upset with me, I wasn't sure. I decided to catch up on my laundry and straighten up the apartment. I was just about done when Chloe called.

Hey Lana! How was the concert?

It was great! Lady Gaga puts on a great show!

Would you like to come over? I was going to fire up the hot tub!.

Sure! See you in about 30 minutes!

Great! I'll be ready! Chloe said.

This was actually perfect timing. I really wanted to talk to her. With everything spinning through my head, talking with Chloe wouldn't hurt. I was more than 90% sure about transitioning. Every time I talked to my Dad seemed to give me pause. I didn't want to disappoint him. But I couldn't shake my newfound persona and happiness. I finally felt like my heart and soul were lining up.

I packed a bag and headed to Chloe's place. We soaked in the hot tub. We talked about my upcoming appointments. She grilled me about making sure it was what I wanted. At first it felt like she was trying to talk me out of it. I realized quickly that she wanted to confirm I was doing it for myself. A true big sister!

Chloe and I got to the gym 30 minutes early. Bunny arrived about ten minutes later. I could smell the chemicals from the salon on her. That actually was a comfort to me.

I'm sorry I ran out on you this morning. They were swamped for a Sunday. How about we order in at your place! My treat she said.

Sounds great! I said.

After our workout Dana wanted to talk with me about my appointments too! We ended up eating dinner at an all-you-can-eat Chinese restaurant. Everyone had an opinion on the issue. In the end they agreed I was doing it for myself.

Everyone seemed to have an opinion or an idea of how to break it to my father. Chloe had the best idea, make sure Dad was alone and do a facetime call. While the idea scared the daylights out of me, it was about as open and honest as it would get. Almost like an intervention.

I felt almost ganged up on. The truth is it felt good to know this group of people cared about me. I had a real group of friends that cared. Not because I dressed like a girl, but because I was open and honest with them. They were honest with me too.

Early Tuesday morning I went to the lab at the hospital for blood work. At lunch I visited with my therapist. My therapist said I was ready to make my decision and it is my decision regardless of what anyone else thinks or says. She suggested that before I talk to my father, I attend a support group for some guidance and ideas on how to handle it.

On Wednesday, I left work early and saw my endocrinologist. He prescribed my HRT regimen. I called Bunny and we went to dinner at Chili's. After dinner, Bunny went to the pharmacy with me to pick up my prescriptions. Bunny followed me home.

We got into my apartment and Bunny and I went through my medication together. Bunny and I set up a schedule for my hormone pills and injections. Bunny recommended I rotate butt cheeks for my injections.

Bunny helped me dress up as Larry and we took pictures together. My Larry clothes barely fit. I'd lost more than 20 pounds. I was a lot more fit and trim than ever. My skin was as dark and smooth as ever thanks to the home laser hair remover Bunny helped buy. I had no face or body hair. My eyebrows were a lot thinner than they used to be.

Bunny and I took several pictures in different clothes at a few different spots around the complex in different clothes. I took out my nose stud and earrings. I felt very strange not wearing jewelry or makeup.

I looked at the pictures and I didn't see much of Larry left. Even without makeup and wearing a baseball hat I still looked feminine. Bunny said it looked a bit feminine but I should pass for now.

By the time Christmas gets here, you will not be very masculine-looking. Your face will look more feminine and softer. Bunny said. Your body will become more curvaceous and you'll have the beginning of perky breasts. You'll love it! Bunny said.

What will my Dad say? I asked.

You can't worry about that! This is a decision you make for yourself, This isn't a selfish decision. This is a decision for yourself and your happiness. If your father loves you, he will accept your decision. Bunny explained.

I hope you are right, Bunny. He's the only family I have left.