My First Apartment Chapter 9

I went back to my place and called Bunny to see if she wanted Pizza again. Bunny said she was going to bring over dinner. I started getting myself ready.

I just got out of the shower when my phone rang. It was my Dad!

Hi Dad! How are things?

Great Larry! Things are going very well here. How are you doing?

Everything is great! I have company coming for dinner in a few minutes.

Company? Did you meet someone?

Yes, Dad, she is very nice too!

That's great! I'm hoping I'll be able to meet her at Christmas this year.

Christmas? (I started to panic!)

Yes, I'm planning on coming home for Christmas. I reserved an Airbnb house a couple miles from your place over the holidays.

That's great Dad! I can't wait! (Inside I was terrified) How was I going to explain my new lifestyle and persona! I was just getting comfortable with who I am. The good news is I had time and a heads up. The bad news is once my Dad finds out everything becomes real! I felt like I was living in a dream! Now reality was knocking at my door.

As I was listening to Dad talk I saw Bunny's car pull up.

Dad! I hate to cut this short but my girlfriend just pulled up!

Okay, son, stay safe; I love you!

I love you too Dad!

I opened the door for Bunny. She was carrying Chinese food. We kissed at the door and I took the food out of her hands. I laid out the food on the table and turned the lights down. I was distracted all through dinner. I was happy being with Bunny, but I couldn't get Dad's phone call out of my head. Bunny was smiling at me; by the way she looked at me, she could tell I had something on my mind.

A penny for your thoughts? Bunny asked.

My Dad called just before you arrived. I answered.

He doesn't know, does he? Bunny asked rhetorically.

No, he doesn't! Not at all! To make things worse, he's coming home for Christmas! I said.

At least you have some time to figure things out! Bunny said with her perky voice! I'll help you!

What if he freaks out on me?

I'm not going to lie to you, that's a possibility. If he loves you, He'll come around! The people who love you will accept you. But it can take time. My mother understood almost immediately. My Dad freaked out and didn't talk to me for months, but he came around.

I don't have a mother to talk to him. I said.

I know baby! But you have me, you have Chloe to lean on! From what you told me, several residents here really like you! You're a good person! You need to relax and be yourself! It will take time but things will work out! Trust me! I know!

Bunny reached across the table and held my hand. She looked into my eyes. You got this! I got you! Bunny said reassuringly.

I smiled at her and we kissed. I was still worried about what my father would say, but I also knew I was in a better place with myself than when I moved in. After washing the dishes Bunny and I curled up on the couch and started kissing. One thing led to another, and before we knew it, we were making love. We went from pleasing each other orally to making love to one another.

Her skin is so silky and smooth, I was jealous! I loved how pert and sensitive her nipples were. When Bunny started sucking on my nipples I noticed my nipples were more sensitive than they were a week ago. I could feel a slight mound underneath my nipples. I loved it! I was beginning to think about maybe trying hormones to grow them. I was thinking a lot about taking hormones.

My Dad's phone call kinda made me question my thoughts about my current lifestyle. The thought of giving up my current status scared me. The thought of disappointing my Dad scared me too. I decided I needed to see a therapist and soon!

Bunny stayed the night with me. I was thrilled to roll over in bed and see her beautiful face. Bunny looked like an angel sleeping. I got out of bed and started the coffee machine. I brushed my teeth and put my hair in a headband and went back to bed.

She rolled over and put her arm over me. I kissed her pout lips. She opened her eyes and smiled.

Morning baby! Bunny said

Morning darling! I said. Sleep well? I asked.

I slept great!

Want some coffee? I asked.

What time is it?

6:45 am.

Sure! I have some time but I have to be at work at 9:30.

No problem I have to be at work at 9!

Why don't you grab a shower and I'll make us some eggs! I offered.

Bunny kissed me and headed to the bathroom. I felt a little domesticated for the moment, I liked it! It reminded me of Mom and Dad in the morning. My mother made breakfast and Dad always kissed her before he went to work. I guess I was feeling nostalgic. Bunny left at 8. I showered quickly and put on my uniform leggings and blouse. My belly button and jewelry were on full display.

Chloe treated my face with the laser again. It wasn't nearly as painful as it was the first couple of times. I completed my morning schedule a little early. I wanted to talk to Chloe about my Dad visiting and seeing the therapist. Chloe told me almost the same thing Bunny did. Chloe said I was scheduled for a 1 pm appointment on Wednesday with the therapist, she also said I had a doctor's appointment the following day at 3 pm. Chloe offered to take me to both. I accepted!

On Wednesday Chloe and I walked into the office 30 minutes early. I had a questionnaire to fill out and another for permission to examine my medical records from my previous doctor. I finished the questionnaire and turned it in. I was still filling out my medical history when the receptionist called me up.

Lana!

Yes ma'am!

Cheryl will see you now! Room 3.

Thank you! Chloe held my hand as we walked into the room.

Cheryl asked Chloe about her relationship with me. Chloe explained she was my boss and friend. Chloe explained that she suggested I see a therapist due to the multiple questions I had and my strong feminine feelings and mannerisms.

Cheryl excused Chloe.

Okay, Lana! Tell me about yourself?

I explained everything from my mother dying all the way to the present. She asked about my relationship with my mother and father. I explained how my mother taught me about Hawaiian culture, cooking, and dancing. How my Dad taught me how to play golf, and my mom taught me tennis. I told her about my relationship with Bunny and taught her how to hula dance. I also talked about dancing at the potluck on Saturday afternoon. We talked for over an hour.

I'm going to type up my initial opinion and send it to your new physician. I'll be updating them after every session. We need a couple of sessions and opinions from other medical professionals before we can approve hormone replacement therapy for you.

Thank you, Cheryl!

You're welcome, Lana.

I made additional appointments over the next four weeks.

The next day I started work at 7:30 am. I did the sweeping and cleaning first. After 9 am I started the trash. Chloe and I worked through lunch. I wore my white denim mini-skirt and pink halter top. I wore my wedge sandals and painted my nails hot pink. I wanted to look my feminine best.

Chloe drove me to the doctor's office. I was expecting to go alone, but Chloe insisted on keeping me company. I was grateful, I was so nervous, but I also felt in my heart, I was doing the right thing for myself. I never fit in with regular boys.

We arrived at 2:25 pm. I filled out several forms as a first time patient. Doctor Beverly Carstairs was very nice. I explained everything in a condensed detail about my growing desire to transition and start hormone therapy. I explained that I have been living and working dressed as a girl for over a month. I explained that I was much happier being feminine.

She gave me a very thorough examination and physical. She explained the benefits and side effects of Hormone therapy. I was given several pamphlets explaining what to expect and even some of the possible dangers of the therapy.

She set up a lab appointment for testing my blood and urine the following day. I was told not to eat after 5 pm today and to be at the lab at 11 am for testing. She made me a follow up appointment for Tuesday afternoon next week to discuss my results and possibly starting a basic regimen of HRT. She also gave me a referral to an endocrinologist and told me to call immediately for an appointment to get a more comprehensive hormone therapy plan.

Thank you, doctor Carstairs!

You're welcome Lana! See you next week!

I left feeling better. As nervous as I was at the time I felt like I was making the right decision. Chloe hugged me.

This is a big first step! Chloe said. I'm proud of you! I remember when I first started I was just as scared as you are. It was the best decision I ever made!

I feel like I made the right decision. Now I just hope my Dad understands!

If he's half as good a Dad as you told me, he'll understand! Your father is a good man! Just remember to be honest, especially with yourself!

I grabbed Chloe's right hand on the gear shifter. Thanks Chloe! I mean it! Thank you!

What are friends for! Chloe said. Chloe smiled brightly at me.

Her beauty shines with her smile. It reminded me of my mother's smile. Maybe her smile was a sign that I made the right decision. My mother always told me, " The gods will always show you a sign if you look for them".

I started to relax just a little.

You have time to figure things out, Lana! I'm going to be right here, regardless of your decision! Chloe said with affirmation.

I just squeezed her hand a little bit, It was reassuring. I wish I could talk to my Dad, but I was just too scared. I knew he would return to the states, if I told him. He worked really hard to get this promotion. I didn't want him to give it up. Besides it's time I started making decisions for myself.

Chloe took me to the all-you-can-eat Chinese buffet. I was hungry after missing lunch. I ate almost until 5 pm. I skipped aerobics and yoga and decided to just get some rest. Bunny came over we spent the evening just talking and kissing. I told Bunny everything. She was happy for me.

Bunny held me most of the evening. I wanted this so badly! I was babbling and crying.

Trust me, Lana! I know exactly how you feel! I was on hormones for months before I told my parents. I know how hard this is.

I held onto Bunny tightly. Her calm demeanor and confidence helped slow down my spiraling thoughts. I was asleep before 9 pm.

I woke up to the smell of coffee brewing. I wish I could have a cup. I just grabbed a bottle of water.

Morning sunshine! Bunny said smiling at me.

What time is it? I asked.

6:30! I made a couple eggs, I hope you don't mind! Bunny said.

Not at all! I said.

I have to get home and change for work. I didn't want to skip out on you! Bunny said.

That's fine! I have to start early anyway I told her. (Which was true).

I was going to the lab this morning by myself and didn't want to fall behind on my work. I received several compliments on how clean everything was. Many of the residents would smile at me or say hello. No one seemed to care about my feminine uniform or my appearance.

Mr Partenza asked me about my hula dancing at the pool this weekend. He was bringing a lady he was seeing. He said she was excited to see my hula dancing. A few other residents said they were anxious to see me dance.

I arrived at the lab at 10:45 am . They took me almost immediately. They took five vials of blood and urine. They sat me down and handed me a plain doughnut and a small glass of orange juice. I had to wait 30 minutes before I could leave.

I stopped at Subway and got a 6" chicken sub before going back to work. I finished up an hour later than normal. Chloe ha already went home for the day. I saw Lou and his friend again. Giving me dirty looks. I kept my eye on them and made my way to Mr Partenza's apartment.

He let me in. I explained why.

Stay as long as you need too! He said. I was just starting dinner, care to join me?

Yes, thank you!

He made steak fajitas and Spanish rice. It was delicious! I haven't had a real home cooked meal in while. I can cook pretty good, but this was great!

This is really good! I said.

Thank you, my late wife and I cooked together quite often.

I saw the pictures of his daughters. They were beautiful.

Your daughters are beautiful I said. Do you see them often?

Not as much as I'd like to. They are married with their own families. I'm hoping to visit them at Thanksgiving and Christmas. He said.

My Dad is coming to visit me at Christmas this year.

That's great! He said. But you don't look too excited! He said.

I want to see him, but I'm very nervous about it.

Is it because you are thinking about transitioning? He asked.

I looked at him in shock!

I'm a retired cop! I notice everything! I'm not judging you Lana! Not at all! You're a good person! I've known plenty of transgender people in my day. I think you'll be a great woman!

Thank you, sir! I said respectfully.

Call me Tony! Lana!

It's getting kinda late I should be heading home. I said.

Let me check outside, I'm sure they're gone by now; but let me check anyway!

The coast is clear! Just to be safe I'll walk you back.

Thank Tony!

Tony waited until I was inside my apartment. I missed a few texts and calls from Bunny.

I called her!

Lana! I was worried! Where were you?

Those guys showed up again! I went to Mr Partenza's apartment. I stayed and had dinner with him. He walked me back just now.

I'm glad you are alright! I miss you! Bunny said.

I miss you too! I just didn't want to risk those guys seeing where I lived!

Are we practicing tomorrow night? Bunny asked!

Of course! We have our debut on Saturday! I'm excited! I said, actually I was nervous about performing in front of a group of people.

I'll bring dinner tomorrow night! Bunny said.