One Boy's Journey Chapter 47

Written by Brianna Demonet

December 22nd, May and Jii had us over for dinner. Vanessa, Taylor, and Lexi. My Mom, Dad, and myself. We had a great dinner John's sisters were getting bigger all the time.

They were both in ballet. We went to their recital the night before they were really good. They were both doing a pre-toe routine.

John, Lexi and I left to spend some time together. It was great spending time with them both together. Lexi was hoping for John's team to win their playoff game. Because the National championship was being held at Sun Devil stadium this year. Lexi was on the dance team for the halftime show.

We chatted for almost two hours. I didn't tell Lexi about John and I. But she could tell. Lexi knows me too well. She just smiled her wicked little grin at me. I could sense Lexi wanted to talk to me.

I'm going to check on our parents said Lexi. She touched my hand softly. I knew that touch, she wanted to talk to me about something important.

John and I found a dark spot and kissed passionately. I could feel how much he wanted me. I love being desired by him. I never looked at other boys in school.

Gosh knows I had plenty of opportunities to date other guys. But I was 17, too young for the nightclub scene, and too in love to cheat on him.

Besides I wanted to stay in San Francisco and go to law school at Stanford. To do that I needed great grades.

John and I went back inside and we said our goodbyes. We said we'd see them at Christmas dinner.

That night was the first night I slept in my old room in months; it was my first time as a guest.

Lexi and I had a very long heart-to-heart talk.

Ree, I need to show you something!

She pulled down her panties and showed me.

I had my orchiectomy two weeks ago.

Can I touch it?

Please! Said Lexi.

Her penis was barely a two-inch nub. The surgeon went in from the top on each side of her penis. The scars were barely visible. I touched her softly. Lexi moaned softly, but her penis didn't respond.

In the past, when we played, it would sometimes twitch and get hard. Now it was shrunken and limp. As I touched it and rubbed it, Lexi played with her nipples.

Lexi gave me a ball gag to keep her quiet. Aunt V and Taylor were at the end of the Hall. I could hear soft moans through the door. I figured they were making love.

Lexi and I made love. It's the only time I cheated on John. I didn't really consider it cheating. Lexi and I always maintained a very close and intimate relationship, Emma suspected but even she didn't know.

We kept things well hidden. There didn't seem to be the need to keep it hidden anymore with Aunt V and Taylor down the hall. Lexi and I agreed a long time ago to never get jealous when it came to boys.

Lexi was a year and a half older than me. She went to gay bars once in a while in Phoenix, but only when she was lonely. Like Emma and I she was on the Dean's list at school. She wanted to go to Stanford for grad school so did Emma.

Lexi and James broke up due to distance. He got a partial scholarship for football and wrestling at Hillsdale College somewhere in Michigan.

Emma and Evan had the same issue. Evan got a full scholarship for football at Indiana University as a Wide Receiver. The distance was a killer for relationships. James was the only boy in high school Lexi trusted with her secret. James kept it too.

It felt great being in my old room. My old bedroom furniture remained. Lexi had a brand-new Purple® mattress. It was very comfortable.

The next morning I went down for coffee like always and Martina was there!

Hola senorita! She said with a huge smile. I rushed and hugged her. Hola senora!! I said. Martina kissed my cheek. We started conversing in Spanish. Martina smiled.

We prepared breakfast together for the first time in over a year. It was like I never left. I thanked her for going above and beyond for me. Martina looked at me and said you are worth it! I'm so proud of you!

Taylor, Aunt V, and Lexi came down, and we ate breakfast together. We made Skillet scrambled eggs and sausage. It felt great being at Aunt V's home. It felt like home to me, more so than my parents home.

I lived here for two years, I went through a lot of adjustments and growing pains under this roof. I literally learned how to be a girl in this home. Years later I still think of it as home.

After breakfast, I went back to my house and started helping Mom and Dad prepare for Christmas dinner and our soon-to-be arriving guests. No one would tell me the whole guest list.

We worked the rest of the morning and the early afternoon on Christmas dinner. Dad was doing last-minute meat preparation before starting the smoker outside.

He built an outdoor Kitchen complete with a Blackstone grill and a huge smoker and fridge. He put an all-metal roof over the kitchen, complete with exhaust for the grill and smoker.

We had the most well-equipped pool and patio in the neighborhood.

4 pm arrived. Dad and I drove Aunt V's Escalade, and I drove Mom's Q-7 to the airport and picked up Dad's daughters and family. We brought them to the air BNB house we rented for them and let them settle in.

We went to the Black Bear diner that night for dinner. Vicki was working and greeted us like old friends. We had a great time. The kids loved the food and were giggling most of the time.

Dad's daughters were nice to me, their children were young and adorable. Their husbands, on the other hand, looked at me like I was a freak or criminal.

When I was alone in the kitchen the next afternoon Richard approached me. So tell me the truth! Are you really a full girl now or do you still have something left?

My jaw dropped open and I dropped my water bottle. My mom saw my reaction and came in.

What's wrong sweetheart?

Why don't you ask my mother Richard? I said coldly.

I was asking Ryan...

Her name is Rianna! Barked my mother.

And my daughter! Dad came in from the patio.

What's the problem, Richard? Dad said

I saw my dad's neck turn red with anger!

Brenda? My dad asked in a calmer voice.

Well, Richard here just called Rianna, Ryan!

Any reason why? Asked my Dad in a very serious manner.

I'm just wondering why she is pretending to be a girl?

I showed you and your family respect by explaining the truth and this is how you behave in front of my daughter and wife? Said Dad.

I was only joking! I'm sorry it was taken so badly!

Did you know Rianna almost died twice after the attack? Asked my mother!

My son basically died! I was lucky enough to have my daughter born from it! You are an insensitive asshole! My mother was furious!

Richard, I think you've had enough to drink! Why don't you walk home and sleep it off before you do something even dumber? Said Dad.

But we haven't had dinner yet! Said, Richard

I'll send Samantha home with a plate of food. Go home Richard, Now! You can come back when you are sober and ready to apologize! Said, Dad

Richard started to open his mouth.

Not a word Richard! Just go now! Said Dad.

Richard grabbed his jacket and left.

My Mom hugged me. Dad walked over.

Are you alright, Ree? Asked Dad as he gently touched my shoulder.

I hugged him, oh Daddy! It slipped out. I was grateful for him more than ever.

That's three times you've been there for me!

Thanks, Mommy! We hugged together. I was crying.

Samantha walked in.

What happened? Where's my husband going?

Your husband had a few too many drinks and was calling Rianna Ryan.

He also asked me if I had something extra! I said.

Oh, my Ree! I'm so sorry! Said Samantha.

She sounded sincere.

Thanks, Sam! I said. She hugged me.

I'll talk to him tomorrow morning after he sleeps it off!

Thanks, Sam!

Oh, Sam, you might want to make a plate of food for him, you know, help him sober up. Said Dad.

Thanks, Dad. I'll handle Richard!

I know you will. Dad said.

Samantha kissed my forehead and walked out.

Did he touch you! Dad said firmly

No, sir, he didn't! He was just acting like a belligerent bigot! He wanted to know if had my male parts!

Well, if he comes at you verbally or anything else, you tell me or your mother! We'll handle it! I will not put up with that behavior in our home! Said Dad.

Mom smiled at Dad and rubbed my shoulder softly.

When Dad said our home, it made me feel really good! After that day it started to feel like a home.

The next day was Christmas Eve. We loaded up the truck, my mom's car, and Aunt V's Escalade, and she drove her Porsche to the Country Club for the Christmas Eve brunch. I rode with Aunt V. Taylor and Lexi drove their Jeep.

I was thankful that Aunt V and Taylor didn't hear Paul's comments. Aunt V would have probably kicked his ass.

I never mentioned it to Aunt V or anyone.

We got there early and put tables together. I'm not sure what Samantha said to Richard but he stopped drinking and was kissing everyone's ass with kindness.

We had a heavy hor'derves dinner at Aunt Vs house. I slept with Lexi on Christmas Eve. I think we missed each other as much as I missed John.

Christmas morning I was up early. I went to my house. I went to my bathroom and cleaned myself up. I did my whole routine. I put on my Christmas pajama dress panties, shorts, stockings, and garter belt.

I added the matching robe and my red mules with the white pom-poms. I pinned on my red stocking cap. I did my makeup in a red and silver smokey eye eyeshadow with a light shade of red blush and bright red lipstick.

My mom was dressed the same way in Green. Dad was dressed in red and black flannel pajama pants and his old red Ohio State University sweatshirt.

Lexi came over first from Aunt V's. She was in a Blue pajama top and robe with Mustang sweatpants with sneakers. She changed into pajama shorts and stockings, borrowed my blue mules, and did her makeup like mine.
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Taylor and Aunt V drove over in the Escalade. They looked glamorous in their full-length nightgowns and mules.

Samantha and her family showed up in very casual pajamas, sweatshirts, and pants.

Ellen and her family were dressed similarly to them.

The tree was over-stuffed with presents.

We were drinking coffee and eating cinnamon rolls when I heard two cars drive up.

Oh! Great! Mom said they're here. Come on Ree! Help me!

I went outside and it was Hank and May and Terri and Steve!

Oh my gosh!! Merry Christmas!! I squealed. Dad and Richard came out. We unloaded their cars full of more presents.

We gathered inside. I brought them coffee I can't believe you guys are here!

Well, I was talking with your Mom a while back. She invited Hank and I. We thought it would be great to see our oldest granddaughter in her new home.

I'm so glad you are here! I hugged them.

Terri, I thought you and Steve were going to Michigan for Christmas.

We wanted to, but both of us have been so busy, plus we haven't seen you in a long time. So we decided to see my little sister!

Granddaughter, little sister, what did I miss? Asked Samantha.

Sam, it's kinda a long story, May and Hank are Cathy Elgin's parents. When I moved out here 4 years ago I knew almost no one.

Cathy, almost from the minute we met, did more than just represent me as my attorney. She mentored me and helped me adjust. To be a girl from the very start.

The first summer I was out here, Cathy invited Aunt V and me to their vineyard. I was still struggling with the trauma of my attack. Having no grandchildren at the time and seeing how close Cathy and I were, they took me in as their honorary granddaughter.

Cathy, Brianna, and Terri think of me as their little sister.

Wow! You have certainly built a whole new life for yourself. That's impressive little sister! You know, technically, you're a little sister to Ellen and me, too!

I hugged Samantha. Thanks, big Sis!

Who's ready to open presents? Announced my Dad!

Meee!!! The little ones cried out!

Ree! Do the honors please!

With pleasure Daddy!

Lexi! Give me a hand?

For the next two hours, we handed out gifts to each other. Everyone was happy and smiling. Richard and Simon, Ellen's husband were smiling and having fun.

I kept thinking to myself about Richard two days before. I acted naturally like nothing happened. What he said hurt me. But I didn't want to let him or anyone know. I noticed Samantha stayed close to Richard

It felt like family! It wasn't as magical as the vineyard but it was just as much fun. Plus I had my best friend beside me to enjoy the day.

The four little ones were screaming and laughing. They had as much fun as Lexi and I did.

I missed having Linda and Emma there but they were with their family up near Reno.

As things wound down Lexi and I cleaned up the paper and did the dishes.
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We wanted to get ready for dinner together. It had been a long time since I used rollers in my hair. Lexi was dying to do my hair. Lexi had completed a summer course for cosmology and was now licensed and state-certified.

She worked in Taylor's salon when she was at home and in the summers. Taylor and Lexi were as close as ever. Taylor was a great Mom!

Mom told me to dress formally for dinner. I wore the dark red Versace dress I wore for my first homecoming dance four years ago. It still fits. I filled out the top a lot better now. My breasts stopped growing at a D-cup.

May and Hank bought me some more bras from Betty's Boutique. She has the best stuff. I've been to many stores over the years. I still make a point to visit her every time I'm in Napa Valley.

They bought my mom a couple too.

Dad was thrilled with the Sears gift certificate. He said he knew exactly what to buy.

Terri and Steve were the life of the party. Richard looked like he was almost flirting with Terri. I found it very ironic after what happened to me. Little did he know.

The guys loved listening to Steve's cop stories. I liked the one where he rushed Becky to the hospital Steve McQueen style.

Lexi and I took our time getting ready. We must have spent 4 hours on our hair, nails, and makeup.

May came over to Aunt V's house and we rolled her hair again. Lexi used 3/8-inch rollers and rolled her hair tight! So tight May complained. But in the end, May's thick black Korean hair was curly.

When dinner was ready Aunt V drove us over to my house.

Everyone was dressed up in one form or fashion.

Samantha and Ellen wore simple but tasteful full-length evening gowns. With 3-inch heels. Their guy was in suits and had no ties; they looked nice. Dad wore his black Dolce suit.

Mom wore the bright blue Dolce dress she bought a few years earlier with Dad. My Mom still looked great in it.

Aunt V in a black evening gown with silver trim. Taylor in hot pink with black sequin trim. Both of them are in 6-inch heels.

Lexi wore a green Donna Karan dress. Both Lexi and I sported 6-inch heels.

The kids were dressed casually. All of them are under 10 years old. What is the point?

John and his family showed up for dinner. Yon was in a beautiful gold evening gown. Jii wore a black suit, no tie, with a gold dress shirt. They looked great together.

John a black suit with a shirt that matched my dress. I don't know how he knew but he did.

John's sisters were in formal Korean dresses. They looked like dolls!

Ree!!! They ran to me!!! You are way too pretty for my brother! We laughed.

Merry Christmas my beautiful ballerinas!

Dad's massive rib roast was fantastic! Ian would have been proud.

Dad carved the roast with pride. Everyone ate there share and then some!

Samantha and Richard walked over to me while I was I was chatting with Mom and Aunt V.

Mom's wore the face of concern. Aunt V acted as if she didn't know anything about two nights ago.

Richard spoke softly but seriously. Rianna I want to apologize for my rude and insensitive comments to you the other night. I had no business saying or asking such things. I drank too much and you didn't deserve that.

I want to extend my deepest apologies.

I accept your apology, Uncle Richard. I hugged him and kissed his cheek. Merry Christmas!

Richard was a little bit shocked when I hugged him. he hugged me back.

Thanks, big Sis! I hugged Samantha and kissed her cheek.

You're welcome, little sister. She returned a cheek kiss.

Later that evening Samantha and Ellen caught me conversing in Korean with Yon and May.

You speak Korean? Asked Ellen

And Spanish too I said in Spanish.

Very impressive! Said Samantha.

May and her daughter Cathy have been a very positive influence on our Rianna! Said Yon. She's also a Red belt in Hap-ki-do! My son and I trained her!

You have beautiful children Yon. Said Ellen.

Thank you so much, ladies. Said Yon generously.

I've seen you somewhere said Ellen you look very familiar!

Do come to Vegas often? You asked

No, it's our first time.

My sister's right I've seen and your husband! Stated Samantha. You were on TV!

You were in the Olympics! Said Ellen. I want to say gymnastics but that's not right.

My husband and I were on the US Tai-Kwon-do team. Summer games 2004. We both won gold medals for our division.

Sam and I watched the summer games, especially the gymnastics and martial arts.

My son John and his team won the 17-year-old division three years ago in the Korean/US tournament. It was the first time the US team ever won the division.

John bumped me and motioned his head.

Excuse me, I said.

John and I went out by the pool. We found a dark corner and kissed. I've been wanting to do that all night said John.

Are you free tomorrow? Asked John.

Yes, but I'm going shopping with Emma and Lexi the day after.

That's great because I have practices and games for almost the rest of my break. Wear warm casual clothes for the day and bring something to wear at night. You can change at my house.

Sounds fun!

It will be trust me! Said John

I told Lexi

Lucky girl! Have fun! James is taking me out tomorrow too!

I thought you broke up. We did officially. But we still see each other when we are in town. He's as handsome as ever!

We celebrated until after midnight. Richard and Simon took the kids back to the house for bedtime earlier.

It was a good Christmas.

The next day John picked me up at 10 am. He walked me through the UNLV stadium and took me to his dorm room. He had his own room. It was a little larger than most rooms and he had his own bathroom.

I bought my sexiest bodysuit. It was lacy, purple, and had a thong back. I put on a matching lace collar and put in amethyst-colored contact lenses. I added a little extra eyeliner and eyeshadow.

I made my lips a little bigger. I strutted out of his bathroom in my black 7-inch stripper heels I bought in SF. I danced like a hot ballerina. John's jaw dropped open!

Ree!!!! Uhh, uhh, Ree!

Yes, Johnny? Do you like what you see?

Yes, yes, very much! I just didn't expect it....

Expect what!!! That I love you! That I want to express my desire for you?

I just! I didn't realize it!! Come here, honey!

I tackled him and we started kissing. He kissed me with more passion than ever! I unbuckled his pants and began massaging him. John was amorous as ever.

We made love for over 2 hours. We showered together. He took me in the shower too! I was feeling like a real honest woman. I'm not sure what I was thinking at the time.

All I knew was I didn't want to lose him. He may be my first boyfriend, but I was convinced he was my Hank/Caleb. I never looked at other boys or men. Sure I studied with people. Some guys were handsome or cute. But none of them had what John had.

We dried off and changed. I was doing my makeup when he came into the bathroom.

Ree are you alright?

Yes John I'm fine!

I'm not complaining, not at all, but I'm worried about you! He said with concern.

John, I'm worried about being so far apart! I don't want to lose you! You are my first love, but you are my only love!

I worry about that too! I miss you every day. I'm still hoping to get into Stanford on an academic scholarship. But I haven't heard a word.

I thought to myself, Mrs Newhouse said if I ever needed a favor to call her. While tempting as that was I felt like it would be getting in bed with the devil, so to speak. I really didn't want to tempt a favor in return. Aunt V warned me about such things. In Latin, they call it "quid pro quo"

Ree! We'll get through this together! There's no one in my life except you! I swear Ree! You're the only woman in my life besides my Mom and sisters!

I knew he was telling me what I wanted to hear but I believed him! John had never lied to me before. I kissed him deeply.

Get your dress on! I'm taking you out! I have a special evening all planned out!

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