One Boy's Journey Chapter 8

Written by Brianna Demonet 

Lexi was posing on top of my bed. She waved her finger at me to come to her. Bree, I am sorry but I can't help myself. She kissed me and I just submitted to her passionate embrace.

I never dreamed I'd ever have a girl touch me this way or touch a girl like this. My body was electrified with passion. I poured my passion into kissing her. My body quivered inside in a different manner than I was used to. Lexi let out some soft moans. She kissed me and said we're girlfriends now. We will always be each other's first kiss. We are bound to one another for life. Lexi kissed me as deeply as ever.

Come on honey! She took my hand, and we walked into my bathroom, and we cleaned ourselves up.

I grabbed some Woolite and soaked our panties in the sink.

We went back to bed, cuddling together and we went to sleep. I slept until 3am. I woke up to pee. My panties were wet again. I took my dilator and started my therapy. I was so turned on by everything. I started to meditate to calm myself down.

I was getting very worked up and I felt that deep internal sensation again. I decided to see if I could do it again. It happened again. I let out a soft moan.

I lay on the bathroom floor feeling guilty and satisfied. I wiped myself up and put my panties in the sink to soak. I grabbed fresh panties, went back to bed, and crawled in.

Lexi rolled over and kissed me. She got up and went to pee too.

When she got back I kissed her. Lexi ran her hands under my nightie. My nipples stiffened up, my mind shut off, and I was in response mode. She cupped my breast and played with my nipple. I was frozen in a state of ecstasy. I did the same to her.

Thinking to myself, I know sex for us so young is wrong. We are resisting the temptation. But this situation is a bit different. I mean Lexi can't get me pregnant, and I don't have a penis anymore.

Right now I wish I did. At that moment, I wanted to be Ryan again. Lexi could see the frustration on my face.

Ree, are you okay baby?

Yes Lexi I am fine. She saw my tears.

What's wrong, Ree? You want me to stop.

Ye, no, oh Lexi, I love it, I really do.

What's wrong, girlfriend? Talk to me.

It's, it's, just that, you're the girl of my dreams.

When I was a boy I dreamed about a girl like you. Now you're here and I am not a boy. I wish I was a boy right now just to be able to love you like a boy can. I started crying softly.

Lexi stopped; Lexi, being the caring, sensitive person, kissed my lips softly.

Rianna my love, I love you exactly the way you are. Yeah, boys can do certain things we girls can't. But being a boy is limited. I have a feeling that you were never a macho boy.

How do you know that?

Because baby girl, I was just like you. I don't want you to be a boy or macho or controlling. I want you to be who you are now.

What am I, Lexi? You're my girlfriend and sister, silly girl. Whether or not we date other people we are always going to be girlfriends and sisters.

I looked into those blue eyes and just knew she meant every word. I kissed her.

Come on, let's get some rest we have to practice in the morning. I want you on my cheer squad, She said.

We cuddled and went back to sleep.

I woke up just before 6am I rinsed out the panties in the sink and hung them on the towel rack. I gave myself an enema and did my dilation therapy again. I put on my Speedo and put my swim cap over my hair and very carefully got in the pool and started my laps.

I normally count each lap, but today, I was as distracted as I could be. I felt more confused about everything. I was always an open-minded person. I got out of the pool after a lot more than twenty laps.

I went to the diving board and sat down and started to meditate on everything. I felt my heart slow down and my body relax, My mind began to slow down, and I started to absorb everything that was happening.

I asked myself if I was happy, and I was happy with the changes I had to make.

Can I do all these things I want to do? I realized I could do all this. I have family and a friend to lean on. My therapist always said no one does anything alone. I got up and went upstairs to get changed. Lexi just got out of the shower, she was naked and beautiful.

I stepped in the shower, rinsed off, and dried myself off, and we put on leotards and leggings and got ready for breakfast. Martina was already in the kitchen. It smelled great. I filled the tea kettle with water and started heating it up. I grabbed a couple of tea bags and cups for us.

Sit you two I'll get it.

What smells so good asked Lexi.

Breakfast fajitas! Martina said. 

Aunt V walks into the kitchen and pours a cup of coffee. Oh, Martina, my favorite.

Sit down, here. Martina serves Aunt V first.

Ree, make sure you are ready for dance class tonight when I get home.

Yes Ma'am. Lexi it's been a pleasure having you here. I hope we will see you more often.

Thank you, Vanessa; I love being here.

We ate breakfast, and Aunt V kissed our cheeks and headed out.

Okay, girls, you better get to work.

Yes Ma'am we said to Martina.

Lexi and I studied the video she recorded from yesterday and pointed out things that needed improvement.

She walked me through it over and over. We went through all 5 routines before lunch. I was feeling better about each one. We reviewed the new recordings. They looked a lot better.

After lunch, we went through it again and again. Our last one looked really good. I was proud of myself.

Lexi said you're a natural.

I have a great teacher, I said.

Tomorrow is the big first day of cheer camp. I'm very nervous.

Don't be Ree the girls will love you. Just give it your best, and you'll be fine.

We packed her up and waited for Taylor to pick her up. We watched First Kill on Netflix. Taylor rang the bell and I answered it.

Oh my gosh, your hair. I love those curls. Taylor said. 

Thank you, I curtsey to her.

Taylor and I walked into the living room, and Lexi curtseys and bowed. She spun around and said hi, Mom.

Wow, you girls really went all out on the hair.

Lexi found my rollers and she showed me how to roll hair. I said. 

Great job Lexi said Taylor. So I imagine you two had fun.

Yes Ma'am.

Good, Ree I will see you at 7:45 am.

I'll be ready, I said. See you tomorrow. Lexi. We hugged and kissed each other's cheeks.

I went back inside and started writing in my therapy notebook. I told my therapist almost everything. I wrote even more in my diary. I changed into my dance outfit and loaded my bag. I was ready when Aunt V got home.

Dance class almost seems easy after all those cheer routines. My toe dancing was getting better but it still needed work. I was getting better, Mistress Walker even said so. We have a Christmas recital on the 22nd of December. We are doing the Nutcracker. May 1st we are doing Swan Lake.

Mistress Walker measured each of us for our dance costumes. Shelly was the lead for both. She was the best choice. Shelly is a great dancer. She's been in ballet since she was 6. At 18 she was a pro. Shelly never talked to me much.

Today Shelly was giving me pointers on my toe dancing. She was nice and professional about it. I just listened to her and tried as hard as I could. If I could get one person to like me in class I'd like it to be Shelly.

Aunt V picked me up and talked to Mistress Walker. Aunt V came out smiling.

Aunt V said it looks like we have some calls to make tonight.

Why is that? I asked.

Your recitals honey. There's no way your mother is going to miss it. We are going to have a full house on the 22nd of December. I was so excited I called my mom while we were in the car.

Mom!

Ree! Everything okay?

Yes, mommy. I have a dance recital on December 22nd. I hope you can make it.

Of course, We will, sweetie. How are you doing?

Great mom, I start cheer camp tomorrow, and school in two weeks from next Monday.

Are you ready for school? Yes ma'am. I've been studying all summer. I already have most of the work done for all my classes except chemistry.

I hear you have a new friend.

Yes, Lexi. You'll like her mom she is helping with my cheer routines.

Do you mind if I ask Dan to come?

Dan?

Mr Milford, silly!

Ohh please ask him.

Honey, it's late. I need to get to work early.

Okay, Mom, I love and miss you; I love you too, sweetheart, be good for Vanessa.

I will, Mom!

Bye-bye sweetheart.

Mom and Mr. Milford is coming Aunt V!!

That's great, you better call Cathy and Bree too I bet they will want to come too.

Aunt V? We are inviting Taylor and Lexi too?

Of course.

Can I ask to invite one more please, who's that?

Martina and her husband.

That's a great idea. Yes absolutely.

We got home, and I made a couple of chicken salads for dinner. It was just after 8pm, and I was exhausted.

Aunt V said go to sleep, honey. You have a big day tomorrow.

Yes Ma'am. I went upstairs, showered, did my therapy, and went to sleep. I set the alarm just in case, I was so tired.

It's a good thing I set my alarm. It was beeping at me at 6:05am. I did my therapy and gave myself an enema with coffee. I went downstairs, stretched out, and did 10 laps in the pool.

I brush my hair into a high ponytail and use very little foundation. Just a touch of mascara and some pink lipgloss. I wore my skinny jeans and white and pink sketchers with no see socks. I wore my pink T-shirt with my pink T-shirt bra and matching thong.

In my duffle bag, I loaded my new all-white tennis shoes and socks. I packed two leotards, exercise shorts, and leggings. I packed a light blue tank top and two sports bras pink and blue. I was as ready as I could be.

I walked into the kitchen, and Martina said you look very cute for your first day. I thought for sure you would wear too much makeup, but it's perfect.

Gracias Senora.

Denada senorita.

We smiled.

Here eat. Scrambled eggs and an English muffin.

She handed me a big pink Stanley metal water bottle.

Here for you on your first day.

But I was going just a couple of water bottles.

Nonsense, besides, I bought it for you.

Martina, you shouldn't have! I kissed her cheek. Thank you, Martina, I really appreciate it.

Aunt V came in as I kissed her. Look at my new water bottle Martina got me.

It's lovely honey! Are you all packed and ready?

Yes ma'am. Good, any problems call my office and have fun today.

Yes Ma'am.

A Beep from a car horn.

Gotta run bye. I ran out the door and into Taylor's Jeep Grand Cherokee.

Lexi helped me throw my bag in the back. We were off. I immediately invited them to my recitals on December 22nd and May 1st. They said yes.

It was 8:05 am when we arrived. We pulled up to the gym. There was a sign for the cheerleader camp sign-in. We were sent to the locker room to change. 9 am was the start of practice we were all required to be in the gym dressed and ready to start. I was assigned the vacant locker across from Lexi. I considered that as a good omen.

We got dressed and headed to the gym. It was huge compared to back home. It must have sat at least 2500 to 3000 people.

It's big, right? said Lexi.

It's huge. It seats 4500 people. The football stadium seats over 15,000 and it sells out every game.

I was looking at all the banners hanging in the gym. Football, basketball, volleyball, track, and swimming.

You have a great swim team. Judging by the banners. I said

Yes, swimming starts after the Christmas Vacation. The boys swim team is really good. The girls team, not so much. The girl's diving team is pretty good. I am a diver. Lexi said.

I could tell I said.

I wanted to stay as active as I could. Lexi said. 

It had been almost 4 months since I'd touched a video game, and to be honest, I didn't miss it.

We changed into leotards and shorts. Lexi and I weren't the first out of the locker room but we weren't the last either. The assistant coaches lined us all up and faced us. There must have been at least 50 girls. We had to hand up our cheer resumes.

We were called up one at a time. We had to do all the basic moves Lexi put me through. We had to shout the basic cheers that belonged to each set of moves. I watched four girls before me. When it was my turn Lexi said don't forget to smile.

The coaches each barked out different commands. I performed each one as I practiced. I moved my hips more than the other girls. I put everything I had in each one. I felt very fluid with each one. A coach barked thank you and moved to the next girl.

When it was Lexi's turn she was on cue for every move. I thought I did pretty well, but Lexi was a pro! Once the first half of us were done we were sent to another coach. We were run through basic gymnastics and some dance moves.

For me they were easy. Some girls had a bit of trouble with them. Some girls laughed at others who struggled. I didn't laugh or say a word.

One girl complimented me on my dance. She asked me for pointers. I told her to balance on the balls of her feet and widen her stance a bit.

I didn't want to help too much, there were only so many spots, but I didn't want to be rude either. She did much better the second time.

My group was sent to cool down as the other half came in. Thank goodness Lexi was in my group. How do you think I'm doing I asked her.

You look great so far. Lexi answered. 

They will probably cut at least ten girls today. By Saturday it will be a full squad and 3 alternates. There will be an A and B squad for basketball and volleyball and Hockey. If you want to swim, just let them know, but it can hurt your chances of making the squad if you only cheer for football.

I decided to risk it; I wanted to try swimming, too. We broke for lunch and ate before the football team. It was 3 pm and we were all lined up. The coaches called out the names and asked them to step forward. Lexi and I were not called. I was nervous at first. Then I realized these were the girls that were getting cut.

They thanked them for their efforts and asked them to sign up for winter cheer tryouts. We were left with 40 girls. The girl I helped made it through the first cut.

We were sent to the locker rooms to change. I showered quickly and changed into my blue sports bra and thong. I had to be ready for Hap-ki-do tonight.

Taylor picked us up and dropped me off at home. I thanked them for the ride and said I'd see them tomorrow. I changed into my GUI and waited for Aunt V.

She drove into the driveway. I got in and headed to Hap-ki-do class. Mrs Park made me do 20 pushups for missing class. I stretched out with class but I was still warmed up from cheer camp.

I went through my forms flawlessly today and we spared again. This time I didn't freak out when I was hit. I actually took the girl down and made her tap. It was a good day all around. I was tired when I got in the car.

Aunt V stopped and picked up a couple of chef salads, and we went home. We ate dinner and I kissed her good night. I set the alarm for 6:30 am. I skipped swimming and wanted extra sleep and energy for camp and dance practice. With the cheerleader field cut to 40 girls, I wanted to be rested and focused.

6:30am came faster than I wanted it to. I did my therapy routine and a coffee enema. I showered, loaded my bag, got dressed, and got ready. My curls were holding up pretty well but I'd have to wash my hair tonight.

Taylor was right on time. Lexi was excited and asked me how I felt. I told her I felt good, but was a bit worried about making the cut. She said to just keep focused and do what I was doing, I'd be fine.

I asked her about talking with other girls.

Lexi said not to worry. It's all competition right now. We are here to make the squad. Making friends comes later. We held hands all the way to school.

Lexi and I were close to being the first to be ready in the gym. We started stretching out and getting ready to go. The coaches noticed. When the whistle blew we lined up ready to go. I was pushed to the front of the line.

We started our first routine. I was going along with the beat of the music. I used my peripheral vision to help keep in step with the others. It wasn't easy, but I glanced at the coaches to see who they were looking at the hardest; it wasn't me or Lexi. Lexi was directly behind me.

We started our second routine. I just tried to smile and concentrate on music to guide me. We sat and took a water break.

The girl I helped said you're really good, my name is Emma.

I am Rianna this is Lexi.

I really hope to make it this year. Emma said. 

Lexi said you're very mechanical, Emma just relax and smile more and try and have some fun.

You were on the freshman cheer squad last year, weren't you asked Emma.

Yes, I was, but that doesn't mean I will make it automatically, said Lexi.

Thanks for the advice.

Good luck Emma.

Routine 3 started, and again, I was in the front row. Lexi was beside me and Emma was right behind Lexi. I seemed to be in sync with the music. Every time I saw Lexi we were in sync. Emma was right there with us. The coaches made us run through it 4 times.

We had another break and started routine 4. We repeated it four more times. Then it was lunch.

Emma ate with us. We ate light. Emma had a great work ethic about her.

Lexi gave her a couple tips. After lunch, we went through the fifth and final routine four more times. I was stuck in the front the whole time. We had another water break and we were all soaked in sweat.

We were lined up again. The coaches would call out random routines. This is where my karate training kicked in. When we do forms. It's never from the same position on the floor. Lexi and Emma followed suit.

After the random drill, we had another break and started our dance routine. This part was my favorite. I loved the dance routine. I put my skills to work, head, arms, legs, and hips.

We did high front kicks, spins, and squats to a jump. My form felt great. My timing with Lexi was near perfect. Emma was on pace with us.

We started our cool down and we were lined up. Names were called.

And five more girls were cut. Lexi, Emma, and I will be back tomorrow.

Emma asked if she made it through Saturday could she practice with us over the weekend.

We said we'd have to ask our mom and my aunt first.

She smiled and said thanks. I rinsed off in the shower quickly and got ready for Ballet.

Taylor is right on time as always.

Lexi asked Taylor about Emma practicing with us.

She said It's okay with me if it's okay with V.

I like Emma I said.

Me too, said Lexi.

You didn't know her, I asked.

I've seen her around but I never talked to her.

I think we made a friend, I said.

We'll see let's make the squad first. Lexi said. 

Good idea I just hope the three of us make it.

I do to Ree.

I said thank you and goodbye. I went in and changed for dance.

As soon as Aunt pulled in, I jumped in the car, and we headed to dance class.

We were split up into pairs. I was paired with Shelly. Shelly was kinda cold to me at first. I didn't talk much just listened. Shelly was all business. After the first hour, she warmed up to me a little.

We went through our routines in the mirror together. She kept saying every movement is an adjustment. Soon we were dancing in sync. Shelly was smiling now. It made me feel good.

Keep this up, and you'll be a lead dancer before you know it, she said.

You're very kind, Shelly; I just hope I'm half as good as you are.

Where are you going to school Ree? Meadows, I said.

That's my school, I'm a senior this year. What grade are you in?

10th, I said.

Did you sign up for any extracurricular activities?

Cheer, drama, debate and I hope to join the swim team.

I do dance mostly but I am also captain of the swim team, she said.

How often do you swim? Shelly asked.

Every day about twenty laps every morning. Really? That explains why you are in good shape.

I do gymnastics and Hap-ki-do too. I used to Hap-ki-do. I dropped out after I earned my blue belt. I wanted to concentrate on my dancing. Shelly said.

Where do you want to go to college? I asked

I have a full scholarship to UNLV.

What are you going to study, I asked.

Medicine, I want to be an orthopedic surgeon.

What about you? Shelly asked 

I want to be an Attorney like my Aunt Cathy.

Well, that explains the debate team. Shelly remarked. 

We giggled.

What school are you hoping to get into? Shelly asked.

I want to go to Stanford, but I haven't really thought about a backup school yet. You know you'll need at least 750 on the LSATs just to be considered. I know; I plan to take as many law-type classes in school as possible.

They offer Latin in your junior year at school.

I saw that, I said.

It's on my list.

She asked me in Spanish if I spoke any Spanish. I answered her in Spanish.

We giggled.

Nice accent she said.

Our housekeeper is helping me practice. I want to learn Italian next. I said. 

We continued for the next hour going over everything.

Mistress Walker came over. How is she doing Shelly?

Very well Mistress. Let's show her Ree.

First position! Mistress commands us. We started our routine. When we finished Mistress was all smiles. Very nice girls keep it up.

Aunt V picked me up and we stopped for dinner again. Turkey wraps from this locally owned deli. They were huge. I can't believe I ate it all. I was so hungry. I did my therapy, enema, and showered, and I was out. Again I slept a little late and skipped swimming.

I needed energy for camp, and I had gymnastics tonight; I was going to have to skip Saturday gymnastics for the next two Saturdays if I made the squad.

If I made the squad I'd be missing my other activities on game nights. Most Junior varsity games are at 5 pm on either Thursday or Friday nights and Varsity plays on Friday at 8 pm or Saturdays.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm too busy. Truth be told, I've never felt better physically, and my night terrors are fewer. I'd be willing to bet I'm actually stronger now than I was before becoming a girl. I went to sleep at 8:45 pm tomorrow was a big cut day. I needed to be my best yet!


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