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Added 2022-06-02 00:39:33 +0000 UTC
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Sorry if I made some mistakes, english is not my first language. Lots of love and positive vibes from Mexico 🇲🇽 I purple you guys 💜💜💜
teacup94
2022-06-14 03:09:08 +0000 UTCI’m late. I’ve been out of Patreon lately because life happens. But I want you to know that even if I don’t usually comment I’ve always thought that you among all of BTS reactors you are the most genuine, sweet and kind people. I’ve cried and laughed with you. I found BTS just a few months before you in 2019 when I was going through low self esteem and issues. I remember at the time no one close to me liked BTS and then casually watching some reactions I came across your Boy with love reaction and I like you instantly. I genuinely still think you are the best reactors. I know is hard not to compare with other channels but real Army recognize real Army and definitely you are. Like others have said, life sucks sometimes and some days you just one to disappear but I really and truly wish the best for you and your beautiful daughters and I don’t agree with you Josh, you are not a looser, you are such a hard worker, both of you are. I don’t personally know you but I believe you guys are strong and whatever you’re going through I wish the outcome is positive 💜.
teacup94
2022-06-14 03:06:00 +0000 UTCHope that you both are feeling a little higher spirited and life isn't dealing you too much shit! I've been moving cross country so I've been a bit out of the loop so not quite sure what's going on but really hoping that things are turning around for you guys. You both are such nice and pure souls who always bring a smile to my face. If there is anything I could help you with please let me know. I hope you guys don't have to stop doing reactions since I love them so much but ultimately you have to do what is best for you. Sending you lots of love 💕🫂 Keep on fighting- you guys can do it! "Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall” – Confucius
M bat78
2022-06-09 00:04:02 +0000 UTCI think most of the comments said the all things I wanted to say . I'll just keep sending you guys lots of positive vibes and love. 💜🫂
JoY
2022-06-05 09:44:11 +0000 UTCJust watched this and I want to thank you guys for sharing this video and i'm so sorry about everything you are going through right now. You guys are amazing and I and many others here will always be here for you. If you need a break from posting videos, please don't feel bad to take one. We know how genuine you guys are and I will always root for you until the end of time. I love you guys so much and you both have helped me mentally a lot, so I want to thank you guys for that. Stay strong and keep pushing. There's always a light at the end of the tunnel. Keep your head up! We are all family and we all love you so much. Borahae. 💜💜💜
thesevensins
2022-06-03 16:13:55 +0000 UTCFirst off, I am not leaving you guys. I usually don't comment and just watch you guys here on patreon and youtube. I can honestly say you guys are the most genuine reactors I've ever watch, and I have seen hundreds from different languages. That is one of the reason I joined your patreon. I don't know what you are going through but I hope and pray that the outcome is positive. If talking to us helps even just a little bit, please do so. I really hope only good things comes to you guys. We always say Karma is an Army. So hopefully all the good Karma you share with us comes back to you ten folds.
Dright54
2022-06-03 12:53:32 +0000 UTCI’m glad you felt some relief speaking to us, I know it’s doesn’t change your situation but we are always here for you both. You have built a community from your kindness and character, and we hope that somehow you find some peace. I know it’s not the same but as someone who’s family and home was altered by drug addiction you become jaded always waiting for the next shoe to drop. Don’t become hard, if you have no one to believe in believe in yourselves which seems like you have for many years. Continue to lean on each other. I know you’re exhausted from weathering so many storms, please lean on us your BTS community for any strength we can give you. Borahae 💜
Lindsay B.
2022-06-03 03:14:48 +0000 UTCI am so sorry about whatever is happening to you guys. I just want to share that I am with you guys because you guys are genuine and truly amazing. I love watching you guys and I hope things do get better. I am not sure about the details but I hope to god that things get better. I will be here with you guys! You guys are not alone.
Farhana
2022-06-02 22:29:48 +0000 UTCAs long as you STAY ALIVE(I'm borrowing this from the name of BTS song), you're not a loser and you will never be one. And I'll be forever grateful for the fact that I happened to know you, two beautiful people who struggle to survive under such harsh reality of life. If BTS did something truly meaningful for me personally, it would be that they led me to know you guys. - from a small city in Korea with LOVE - ps. What I wrote could sound absurd and weird because I rarely vocalize my opinion on any of platform(youtube, patreon, etc). But I mean it. And I won't leave you.
ellen Kim
2022-06-02 10:54:11 +0000 UTCI really don't know how to start. It really breaks my heart to see you hurt and to know that life is so hard for you. I am more the silent viewer and listener , not often writing , but always love your videos here and on YT. I'm here since the beginning, your first reaction to BTS and following your journey since then. I would not be here if you were not real, sincere and very nice and kind people. At the beginning i often thought how cool it would be to meet you in real life, but there is an ocean between us. I always thougt of you as my friends. You helped me so much through tough times in my life. Always makes me smile and make my day a little better. I wished i could give you both a big hug. You are great people and great parents. You give so much love. I hope life will get better for you. If you need someone to talk you can always send me a message. You are not alone here. I'm sorry if i made some mistakes, but english is not my first language.
Katja S.
2022-06-02 09:43:09 +0000 UTCI apology my lack of English in advance. I couldn't understand 100%, but I think I understood roughly. You are having through a huge bad situation... I know many happy-looking people have depression under the abyss. even I feel depressed at times. crying for no reason, wanting to disappear at times, wanting to throw away everything, suddenly feeling everything so meaningless. and then feeling I have nothing. one day is good, one day is so bad. I don't want to say 'I know what you feel' or 'I understand' because I think nobody can’t. we are all in different situations. I would say I feel a little similar way. like you said, The lyrics can help me, but on a really bad day, rather the lyrics can make me worse. When I feel Mine looks the worst. You are my favorite couple. Josh, as you said, I thought you are always a happy person since you didn't vocalize. of course, I know there is no person who is always happy. I am so sad seeing you guys seem so sad. I can't do anything but I hope you guys know that there are many people, including me, who wish to you be happy. Cait Your laugh and genuine words make me feel good. let's not allow all the negative comments to affect us. I want to give you guys a big hug as big as I can. I am not sure I delivered my words as my intention.🥲 There is a Korean proverb. 'Sharing joy doubles joy, and sharing sadness makes half sorrow.' thank you for sharing your story. I hope you feel better. I LOVE YOU GUYS. You nice!! keep going!! 💜💜
Amy
2022-06-02 09:26:43 +0000 UTCFirst, thank you so much for sharing your stories and emotions. You guys are SO brave on so many levels. It actually makes me happy that you guys feel comfortable enough to open up to us like this, but at the same time it must be hard and it makes me sad to hear some of the wild things you had to go through in life. I'm too afraid to be judged by people (just like Cait said), so I can't really open up... even though I'm sure it would be so much better if I could and I actually also want to. As everyone here says, we don't know what exactly you're going through right now, but we are all here to listen and support you. I have been your Patreon since the very first month, and I don't have any plans on quitting. I love your genuine and lovely personalities and I really enjoy being a part of this community. I really hope that we can be of some help to you guys. Lots of virtual hugs from here, and all positive thought to you two amazing people! We 💜 you!
ApricotFlower
2022-06-02 09:12:53 +0000 UTCI hope whatever decision your waiting on turns out for the better. As far as some of the other stuff you talked about, I can relate. I've had depression since I was a kid, but I've never been treated for it. Honestly I was just numb to everything until I found BTS/ARMY. They helped me not have the "thoughts" that I'd been having daily & still help me to take my mind off of life in those moments, but they can't fix me. I became more introverted as I got older because I felt that ppl would never know the real me. I understand the lonliness of not having someone to talk to about this kind of stuff, but at the same time it being hard to even get that conversation started. I too don't know how I'm alive. I know when ppl look at my life they think I've wasted my potential, but they just don't know that I didn't think I'd be around this long so it's hard to think of a future. I won't pretend to understand everything you're going through or tell you everything will get better. I just want you to know that I appreciate your willingness to share your struggles with us, especially because I'm sure it couldn't have been easy. It makes me feel less alone. I'm hoping for better days for you both and I will keep you in my thoughts.
Cynthia Perez
2022-06-02 06:09:04 +0000 UTC1st Want to apologize to Cait for spelling your name wrong! I know I hate it when it happens 💜 I’m still here even though I just arrived, but will not be going anywhere. 💜💜 Cait, I just want to say I was there….with the pushing stuff down because I never dealt or thought I was allowed to be the priority. But if you don’t stop pushing it all down it will come up like a volcano. That is exactly what happened to me….I did it for a lifetime. Until one day there was no longer a reason to get out of bed. This went on for 3 yrs…I never ate, showered, cleaned the house, didn’t pay bills! Nothing! Not 1 family member even noticed….the person that was always there for them without hesitation was gone…🥺🥺 I am so much better now no where close to my physical abilities because of that but mentally I’m stronger….did so much damage to my health! I too take a pill for hypothyroidism plus 8 others everyday. Please Please Please stop pushing your feelings down! ARMY💜 is such a great force of human kindness I found out….kindness my own immediate family refuses to show me. They never judge honestly they are just loving! I will Alyssa listen & never judge! 🥺🥺💜 I think I’m done posting. I just feel helpless by just being able to say words ….hugs help so much more sometimes……My 1st day! Here’s to 100*s more.
JoAnnleigh
2022-06-02 05:22:24 +0000 UTCOops..ended the paragraph in error. I also just wanted to say that I know you are genuine people and I love your reactions and I will not be leaving your Patreon. Please keep us in the loop on whats happening. Sending much love and peace from New Zealand.
Lollylil25
2022-06-02 04:58:24 +0000 UTCHi Josh and Cait....I am so sorry to hear you are going through such tough times. For sure life is not easy. But I do want to stress that you are not alone - by all the comments above you do have friends that love and support you - whilst we may not be able to be there in person we definitely are with you in spirit.
Lollylil25
2022-06-02 04:55:50 +0000 UTCHey you guys. I am just half way through this video and i do not know yet what your real problem is or situation is but i am rooting for you both and I know you can survive this whatever it is that you are experiencing. “this too shall pass” even if it’s again and again. just want to say that a lot of other people are even in their worst situations compare to you. I hate to say this… but think about the families that have lost their kids in the recent school shooting.. their lives will never be the same again. We all face difficulties and it’s up to you guys on how you will be able to conquer it. You need to find a way to win this even if you are saying you’re all alone. Believe me. I am 38 yrs old and i told myself my life sucks! But i realized that I am still blessed. You just have to find the why’s. There is a reason for everything. Please stay positive. You have a very beautiful family and you both have lovely kids. I don’t and I am longing to even have one but I can’t! Be strong! Thanks for sharing. And I am not sure what your beliefs are. But prayer works and you got to have a faith! We cannot do this alone. We need God’s grace and mercy.
Vanna Leigh V
2022-06-02 04:14:32 +0000 UTCI’m glad you’re here! You’re here for a reason! I said earlier this truly breaks my ♥️♥️. I can’t get through this at one time…..I keep taking breaks till I stop crying. It saddens me to think that all this was behind those sweet faces I watch! So glad I found you both 💜💜 I was skeptical about therapy, been for exactly 4 yrs this month…..and it took me awhile to actually get somewhere but it really works if you are honest & give it some time to work. 🖤 I came out of that black hole…..That coincided with finding BTS! I watched everything I could find After seeing my 1st video of them doing “Butter”…..down that rabbit hole I went. Traded the 🖤 one for the 💜 one. They became my new family…..💜X7. Please stay strong for us! I know it’s harder than it looks but after just a few months of watching your videos I knew you are more than just reactors. Ok going back to watch last bit!! Really want to hug you both so much! You’re both & your girls are in my prayers!!
JoAnnleigh
2022-06-02 04:13:45 +0000 UTCI rarely comment, but I needed to today. Please hang on. You can always talk to us. You are not alone.
Mabel Way
2022-06-02 03:56:38 +0000 UTCI'm sorry things are tough for you but I'm glad you mentioned it because literally just today, I was feeling like I had no one to talk to about how I'm feeling that's not a professional. Since graduating college years ago, I've had some difficult time finding steady employment and this pandemic has made things much worse. I've been living with my family at home and I felt like as a young 20 something year old my life was on pause. It's been depressing for me because I want to be able to take care of my family in the future since we've basically only had each other and don't come from a ton of money. I wish I had amazing words of encouragement but just know that you're not alone in how you feel about the world and you're not a loser. It's tough and so many of us are just trying to keep holding on.
briana
2022-06-02 03:30:33 +0000 UTCI will keep you in my prayers. You are not alone. There is always times in our life that we feel that nothing good will happen but please keep the faith that something good will happen. I've gotten to the top, then with extended family issues I've been brought down. I'm working my way up the ladder again. Just believe in yourselves, it takes time and can be very lonely. We are here for you.
DJ4u
2022-06-02 03:13:18 +0000 UTCI know any toxic positivity I say won’t change anything, It’ll probably make you feel better for a few seconds and then you’ll have to go back to reality. I know, because I do that, I can read and listen to someone saying how life will get better and I just sit there going ‘aha, sure’ but can you actually take the time to understand me, why I’m feeling this way before you try and fix my problems head on. I watch you guys because I like relatability, I don’t like feeling like I’m going through something alone, because the majority of the time I feel like I am. I like that you keep it real and don’t just edit all the sad parts you think no one wants to watch. I know what it’s like to bottle things up cause I do that, I try to make it look like everything is fine when it’s not, I can smile, anyone can put a fucking smile on their face, that doesn’t mean I’m happy. I don’t want to be the centre of attention, I don’t want the pity of other people trying to console me, cause in my mind I’m thinking, why are you doing that now? can’t you see I’ve been going through this for fucking ages, you’re just going to forget it the next day and act like everything is normal when it isn’t. Thanks for the trigger warning cause I did start crying, I won’t sugar-coat anything, let’s keep it real guys. Like Josh said I know for some people BTS can cure your depression or whatever but if they can do that, then why aren’t I cured huh? Can I have some of that please? (I don’t want to spend all this money to sit in front of a random therapist and spill my guts out to you, in my mind it’s like I’m giving you money to be fixed, like I’m gonna get tested for ADHD after my exams are over, that’s more stress on more stress). BTS has always been more of an escapism route, like a guide, not once have they cured anything in my life. I have to live with anxiety all the time + other things that I’m not sharing publicly, but as you said they heal you and same, I can listen to one of their songs and feel safe, loved and understood, but after those few minutes I just hear silence and I’m looking at reality again, It sucks. If you want to know, I cherish RUN, Bon Voyage etc cause I get to sit there for a longer period of time not having to worry about the world, you don’t even understand how much those things even mean to me, I can’t live without them. And to be honest, I’ve said this before, but I see you guys like BTS, I get excited when I hear that ding on my notifications. I get so happy that I rush as fast as I can to watch it, I don’t even care if it’s something I’m not even interested in, I’ll watch or have you on in the background whilst I’m doing other things. I know this topic is beyond the internet and it’s real life things that may change your life dramatically, so I know I can’t contribute a lot to that, but there are things that may change my life in the next coming months, so I know it’s scary, you don’t know what’s gonna happen, you want to feel positive about it but then it doesn’t go the way you hoped because your expectations were so high. I want to tell you to be strong and say it’ll be ok but you’re probably not gonna feel it, I’m not you guys, we all feel different and not everyone will take things away the same way. I like when Namjoon once said, “if we could reduce your pain from 100 to 99, 98, or just 97, then our existence is worth it”. I truly hope that you do see the light sometimes and never ever think no one is there for you, we’re here, you know who has been there for you, we’re not leaving, cause I’m never leaving, no way is that ever happening. I consider you guys my best friends and I rant about you two to my friends and my parents all the time, just as much as I do with BTS, I’m not exaggerating. There’s a lot more I do want to say but it’s hard writing it all out and this is already so long. But I want you to know, you may feel mentally that you’re alone, YOU’RE NOT, OKAY, there may be someone in this Patreon that is also going through absolute hell. I truly wish I was there with you guys in real life but I’m stuck in another country, I want to give you a hug, sometimes I wish I could babysit your kids, hehe, so you can do your adult things cause I know you talk about that a lot. Saying I love you or thank you for doing these reactions will never be enough, you mean so much more than that, why is the English language so restricted in words ughhhh. Okay, I can write a novel but I’ll leave it here, I LOVE YOU GUYS SO SO SO MUCH xxx
Courtney can do it with a broken heart
2022-06-02 03:04:17 +0000 UTCThis is only the start of my second month on your Patreon and I came here not intending to stay long but just to watch some kdrama reactions and have a good time (currently watching Cait's reaction to True Beauty and having an absolute blast, it's a really bright spot in my day) but something compelled me to click play and watch this entire hour-long talk. It really struck me when you mentioned the fear that people might want to leave after seeing you be so real about some very real hardships you're facing. I've never commented before, but I wanted to honestly say that seeing you be so real made me feel more endeared to you both. I've also been struggling with the weight of life lately, but God is my strength. I will add your family to my prayer list <3 Rooting for you both!!
Cocacolagirl97
2022-06-02 03:03:55 +0000 UTCThank you for sharing this with us, which, probably, was not easy for you guys. - I will pray for your family and hope everything is going well with you. We will be here for you!!! Purple you..
SK
2022-06-02 02:56:02 +0000 UTC"IT'S OKAY NOT TO BE OKAY" Josh & Cait :C I feel for you guys but just remember we are all in the same boat and go through shit in life (I'm going through something crap now too). I know it's easy to say people have it a lot worst in other places e.g. (Ukraine people getting murdered, bombed, raped) but that's how I pull myself out of feeling depressed. xoxo
j
2022-06-02 02:50:30 +0000 UTCANYTIME YOU NEED TO GET THING OFF YOUR CHEST DM ME ON TWITTER . TWITTER NAME THE SAME AS HERE ADD A 1
Christy Deel
2022-06-02 02:43:27 +0000 UTCi love you guys so much for sharing your feeling. i will not leave yall cuz yall have ups and down cuz i go tho stuff as well that get me down and try to keep going. i hope yall get what yall have been working to come true i will pray for yall every day for it to come to you. always love watching yall reactions and HWAITHIN BORAHEA.
Christy Deel
2022-06-02 02:38:50 +0000 UTCi've always found it hard to give proper words of comfort but i hope you guys know how much happiness you bring, not just to us but to your family. i don't know your family personally of course and i'm still a new patreon, but i think the love you show us and your family is very apparent and true. i think people are drawn to other people who feel real, and i definitely think you guys feel real. you struggle just like everyone else, you get stressed and frustrated with life just like everyone else, and i think it's important to acknowledge that sometimes. it's okay to not be okay, and i truly understand how frustrating it can be to keep trying and trying and trying and it not pay off. i'm hoping for better days for you guys. it always seems like those who have been through the most never get to breathe, but always remember to appreciate small things and celebrate small victories, no matter how small they may seem. waking up in the morning itself is a victory, let alone posting videos and taking care of your family. it's perfectly okay to take time to yourselves. we'll be here whenever you're ready. 💜
wolfchip
2022-06-02 02:29:33 +0000 UTCI rarely comment on any social platform, I’m more of an observer in life overall, but I just have to say I completely understand how josh is feeling. I also feel like everything is just getting worse but I believe bigger troubles come because I was able to grow and overcome so much so that life throws bigger challenges in my way. I found bts last year and it’s helped me so much in escaping my reality but I realize I also have a life I have to live. You said you want to be happy and I have felt that way too but I remember what namjoon has said about how happiness doesn’t haven’t to be a goal to reach but true happiness is the happiness you feel in your journey of life. No living thing on this planet will ever experience only positivity because life is about both, we are all here to experience life and continuously evolve. I know words are not much help but I believe new perspectives can help you understand the bigger picture of things. Also I also always compare myself with others and how other people in my life I’ve known maybe have not suffered as I did, but there is always someone having it worse or better, I’m living this life because this is what I need to experience and learn from. Thank you guys so much for sharing this, I was having another really bad week, and I also was having a severe anxiety attack for the past three days, I relate on the constant worrying of when things are going good, always thinking of how everything could go wrong. I don’t know everything about life yet as I’m still 19 but I’m realizing now the more I let go of controlling my life, the better things flow. The less worry I have the better I can breathe(literarily and metaphorically). Thank you guys once again, I always look forward to watching bts content or kdramas with you guys, like you said it’s a great temporality healing. And I hope you realize that any hate or negativity especially online is just a reflection of their own fears and insecurities. 💜
hana
2022-06-02 02:29:01 +0000 UTCI don’t usually comment much on here but I wanted to say a few words and give you both a virtual hug. To say life is hard is an understatement, there are so many dips and turns and it can be super hard to push through. You gave both gone through a lot from what I see but I want you to keep your heads up and remember your fighters and have gotten through so much already. Your wonderful parents and seem like genuinely good honest kind people, please be kind to yourselves and take the time to look after mental health. Always feel free to talk about anything with us ( ARMY ) without judgement and know this army from Australia is sending you so much positive energy and well wishes. 🙏💜
SoulFromSeoul
2022-06-02 02:25:59 +0000 UTCi'm not very good with words and i dont know your situation, but i truly hope things improve for you guys. its so hard to see bad things happen to such lovely, genuine people :( manifesting peace and happiness for you and your family in the future! your videos always bring me joy when i see a notification at the end of a hard day, so please know that you're bringing happiness into other people's lives right now and we rlly appreciate you <3
bub
2022-06-02 02:16:43 +0000 UTCI appreciate your comment so much your words really brought a form of comfort
Murisan Family Vlogs
2022-06-02 02:05:50 +0000 UTCI really appreciate you guys sharing this. I may not like all your posts but you guys are genuine people. It’s not easy to share something like this. My life is depressing too but I always look forward to you guys reactions because it makes me forget my worries for a moment too. Pls you can share your feelings anytime. It helps alot. Love you guys and I pray everything turns out well 🙏🏽
Ijeoma
2022-06-02 01:37:54 +0000 UTC🥺💜 Why I became a Patreon member is after watching both of you for a few months! Never thought I’d do Patreon with reactors, but I’m over 60 & always alone & finally coming out of a decade of anxiety/depression stuff (and all because of my immediate family). I understand the being alone part. I was in therapy & on meds when I found BTS (toddler A💜R💜M💜y) …2 years ago this month! I became Patreon member to a few people, (one or 2 only @ a time)…..but then they really weren’t who I thought they were & you could start to see it was only for the $$. I like you because you’re both the sweetest & the amount of content even only on the YT side was amazing. Then I Saw the content that you listed for the Patreon was enormous which told me how much you both enjoy this world. I found BTS exactly @ right time only I wish I found you all at that same time. I know I’m a newborn member here but I think I found my home! My ♥️ breaks knowing ya’s for a minute to watch you hurting! ♥️💜♥️ Thank you for being the people who make me look forward to a Kate & Josh Day. (P.s …I learned about you through TooGrown I think if I remember). I no longer have to keep searching.
JoAnnleigh
2022-06-02 01:28:43 +0000 UTCYou guys are amazing parents. Your daughters are so lovely and have clearly been raised by such amazing people and deep down in their hearts, they know how hard you guys work for them. I can see that as a stranger looking in, there is a lot of love in this family. Please take care of yourselves. Keep your expectations low in life because you never really know what kind of results life will throw at you but no matter what happens, there's ALWAYS a brighter side at the end of the tunnel. It may be frustrating and exhausting trying to get to where you want to be and eventually you will find that peace. It takes time. You'll be okay. Stay strong and keep pushing through. We care about you guys so much and consider you like family. I consider you guys my close friends and if you ever need to vent or express your feelings to someone and feel like you have NO ONE on your side, please come to us and talk. I love when you come here and share your thoughts. I don't want to see your hurting, depressed or feeling alone in any type of situation. I know we can't do anything to help but just giving you that peace of mind and some words of encouragement to help you through another day, then here we are. I am not leaving. I will stay here on patreon for as long as you keep this platform open. I am one loyal person when i come across people i truly care about. Trust me. I think i know what you're trying to imply and i hope everything turns out alright for you two. Just remember, everything will turn out to be okay in the end. Find the positive things with the outcome that happens, even if it's not what you want. You are here on this planet for a reason. It's tough however there's so much to look forward to and worth to see. Here's a hug from some person in Canada who is rooting for you and supports you. 💜
Cheyenne
2022-06-02 01:26:09 +0000 UTC
